- But I need to wake up somehow. Or maybe not. Maybe it’s best to get through the day half-asleep. Maybe that’s the only way to get through today.
- Would you want the ability to hear other people’s thoughts? Of course you would. Everyone answers yes to that question, until they think it all the way through. For example, what if other people could hear your thoughts? What if they could hear your thoughts…right now? They’d hear confusion. Frustration. Even some anger. They’d hear the words of a dead girl running through my head. A girl who, for some reason, blames me for her suicide. Sometimes we have thoughts that even we don’t understand. Thoughts that aren’t even true—that aren’t really how we feel—but they’re running through our heads anyway because they’re interesting to think about.
- Before that party, I’d thought about giving up so many times. I don’t know, maybe some people are just preconditioned to think about it more than others. Because every time something bad happened, I thought about it. It? Okay, I’ll say it. I thought about suicide. (...) After everything I’ve talked about on these tapes, everything that occurred, I thought about suicide. Usually, it was just a passing thought. I wish I would die. I’ve thought those words many times. But it’s a hard thing to say out loud. It’s even scarier to feel you might mean it.
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