★彡 TW FOR: obsession, attachment issues, self-loathing & hatred 彡★

-

im not gonna give much context but i literally want to sob my eyes out. why do i have to be so attached, so unbearably clingy. he isn't even mine. im so fucking selfish i need to grow the fuck up. my life has felt like a huge blur recently and it makes me wanna just curl up and die. i just want to love him. i want him to love me back so bad, too. i hate it i hate feeling like this, he doesn't deserve this bullshit. i go so back and forth w my emotions it's probably confusing as fuck to him and i feel so bad i feel like such an awful person. i just wanna tear my skin off. idk. i hate this shit so much i had to just ramble about it

↠ doe !!! ; 9:33 pm ; dec. 6, 2022