Pain creates desire, because it is intrinsically repulsive. It makes us want to flee from it. Without discomfort, there is no motivation to move from your chair and spread your legs; no motivation to eat when hungry; no motivation to make love, without feeling deprived of it; no motivation to talk, without, being deprived of sharing; [ . . . ] In the cases where there is a desired goal, with unpleasant steps, there has to be some greater pain of unworthiness–hurt in esteem–other physical and or emotional woes, to seek it, for remedy; like with working out, masochism, writing a book, eating healthily, etc.

So unless one can find no relief in anything–then–there is always desire. Pain creates deprivation, for which, to chase after replacement. Sit still, long enough, and it is clear–you will want to get up and move–unless, there is some greater pain, causing you to want death. In essence–pain–creates the illusion of pleasure, and without that, no other agenda or sense of 'mission' would exist.

There are all sorts of different pains and all sorts of different reliefs–to be sure–like with kinetic pressure (from sitting too long) and the blood flow to the numbed or sore areas when changing positions; like with love, of feeling isolated, and the relief of finding a mate; like with thirst, and the relief water brings to hydrate the body, for survival; like with hunger, and the relief nutrients brings, to revitalize the body; like with calories, and the relief energy brings, to give some stimulation; like with social interaction, and the relief it brings, to have a sense of 'purpose' in communicating; like with art, and the relief it brings, to express emotions, ideas, etc. The list goes on and on.

It usually all revolves around tribe and group survival, for reproduction, and care for the infants and one's collective. These are the base points towards which propulsion–points–for humans, among all others comparatively, superficial and dry...

'Enough' and 'not enough' are judgments, too. What does one want? Letting go, requires something to go towards. There is no total state of inaction, just unawareness of action; there is no total state of awareness, just moderate dissociation. You can't know all the details without focus, and because of that, there is no total awareness; you can zone out, for sure, but that is not omniprescence. Let me help you understand the mind, a bit, more: Once it becomes convinced of an imperative to rid itself, it also becomes hyper-aware, in counter-response–of itself–judging, punishing, the thoughts themselves, into a 'dog eat dog', 'lions, tigers, and bears,', and 'snake eating its tail' mentality. The mind wants to be OK with itself–at least–this one does: it judges with words–the heart values–with action. The fight or flight (fawn or freeze mode) activates regularly, creating a cacophony of thoughts–and if not thoughts–imperatives for actions, elsewhere: like with 'needing to walk', like with 'needing to fast', like with 'needing in person communication', like with 'needing to eat healthier', like with 'needing to give up everything (material)', like with 'needing to go back to nature' [ . . . ] all these things, the heart wants, intrinsically–ignoring all thought–and so, in essence, a tug of war is made. No one has to win, and neither which one, has to exist. Just let it be–think your thoughts, go on your walks–until you don't want to, anymore, and move on and or be no more.

It is not impossible to achieve no thought; not impossible to climb the mountains; not impossible to simply get up and brush your teeth (in regards to depression); it's not impossible to self-immolate while fairly still; it's not impossible to lay down for hours and hours–day after day–doing mostly little; it's not impossible to voluntarily starve to death [ . . . ]–just not always desired–because in searching for a hard reboot of the brain, profound revelation, and true silence, tremendous effort is required. Not everyone has an easy 'off switch', so to speak–either–because we have forgotten or lost where the 'light panel' is OR because it may not always be so close to reach. So what is really lost in remaining thoughtful?–What is really lost in presence?–It's all transmutation of energies, and the energy painful or pleasant, just is–and in the fight or flight (fawn or freeze mode)–just–a sense of 'I have to prove myself', 'I have to make myself', 'I have to' , [ . . . ] this is the insecurity complex–move from it–and the esteem and or survival instinct is a primary drive. I prefer not to do that, but I still do it from time to time: The brain has all sorts of tricks; all sorts of snares and barbs; all manner of illusions and mechanisms for disillusion; just got to decide what you want, if you value that, of course, or don't.