I do have some fears and conditions, but they're pretty basic.

  • Monophobia (fear of being alone)
  • Athazagoraphobia (fear of being forgotten/not needed)
  • Illyngophobia (fear of vertigo)
  • Atychiphobia (fear of failing)
  • Basophobia (fear of falling)

And then there's my:

  • severe paranoia over everything and anything, I'm so sorry if you ever have to witness it.
  • social anxiety, but not the traditional kind; I can talk to people, present things, etc., But once I'm done with it, the fear kicks in where they don't like me or I didn't do good (queue the anxiety attack)
  • frequent anxiety attacks and very rarely a panic attack. When that happens, I have to either draw, play video games or cuddle my dog depending on how bad the attack is. (Most of the time I have to pimp slap myself back into reality, but it's nice when rainy does it for me tbh. If you see me ranting or repeating words, that's a big sign im having an attack.)
  • anger issues if I'm pushed too far; This doesn't happen often, but once I'm set off, I'm a nuclear bomb so please don't test my patience over its limit because I have a long fuse but it wears thin fast once its lit for the 1000000th time.

I have a set mentality that:

  • My friends as those who have to deal with me; They don't see it like that, but I do and It's hard to see it otherwise
  • I'm very self-deprecating and it shows lightly in my humor
  • I'm relatively neat, which you'd think is good, but like it haunts me 99.9% of my life considering i clean my room 24/7 (this also applies to editing anything like my animations, listography [which I've been editing all day], etc.)
  • I hurt people by existing and/or making decisions. It's something that's hard for me to establish if what I do is ever right.

All in all I'm a giant mess thank you for tolerating me ;v;

jun 8 2017 ∞
mar 20 2018 +