JULY

• I had a crush on Robert Pattinson when he was Cedric Diggory... yes, before he was Edward Cullen
• I'd like to rent an apartment in NYC.
• I can publish awesome books, I just have to get back into my groove...
• I'm afraid. I'm afraid of the things I tell everyone I'm not afraid of. I'm afraid of it more than they are.
• I like shoes. No, I love shoes.
• I hate weddings... Especially when I'm one of the bridesmaids.
• Nothing gets me in a bad mood faster than being the subject of a multi-faceted pity party...
• I not so secretly want to write a short fanfiction involving RPattz.- I'm such a loser.
• EFF YOU DREAM SEQUENCES ON TRUE BLOOD, GET WITH THE ERIC/SOOKIE ALREADY, MMKAY!
• I don't know what to do... I'm so frustrated with this now.
• My brother is a prick. Legitimately.
• I'm not happy with myself...
• This is why I don't date men my age; they are not mature enough. I don't have time for this sh*t. Call me when you grow up.
• I need to get up off my a** and start writing my book, ffs.
• I'm my own worst critic.
• GD, that Rpattz ff idea just keeps growing, ideas keep happening. Stop being so amusing and great, ideas. Stop it.
• Note to self: friends can help with writer's block.
• Being poor is no fun, I need a job. Ugh.
• Oh Eric... LOL
• Franklin, you are officially my favourite creeper. :)
• Excited? Excited!
• Note to self: learn how to stop jumping the gun, kay thanks. :)
• Tristan & Isolde! <33
• James Franco <333
• Henry Cavil <3333
• CALM THE EFF DOWN. IT'S NO BIG DEAL!
• Breathe...
• For a person who thinks that they're smart, I am such a dumb-a** sometimes...
• I've officially reverted to being sixteen all over again in the span of an hour.
• "Sleeping on it" didn't help like the best friend suggested it would. I need to effing calm down about this. I need to breathe. It's probably nothing...
• I just want you to be there for me when I need you... even if it's for something silly...
• I don't want to get too ahead of myself, maybe it's nothing... I hope though, that it is something I can get excited about...
• I look over every message I send you six times before I send it because I'm afraid that you won't like me.
• The public library and I are divorcing temporarily due to currently irreconcilable differences in the form of $46 in late fees.
• Please go and look at your messages for cripes sake. You're killing me here.
• I have a sudden urge to go to the library and write. Will do tomorrow. Must become a ninja to avoid fine collecting librarians.
• I think I want to start a blog... Yes, a blog.
• I hate that you're not here because for once in my life, I don't think I'm afraid.
• Ugh. You drive me insane and I don't think you know that you do.
• Things are looking up? Yes? [crosses fingers]
• I think I've officially lost my nerve here... UGH. I didn't know that it was possible to hate a body of water this much. :/
• I see you looking at this list, pondering the idea that you're going to copy my lovely idea of a random musings list. Yeah, I know who you are... [insert glare face here]
• I can't force myself to write, I think my brain is attacking itself in a firing of neurons and braincells in attempts to rebel. It hurts, fyi.
• I thought that maybe, just maybe we could act like two adults about this and not dance around the subject. I want to tell you but I can't tell you unless you answer your messages.
• I need to start travelling. There's so much of the world to see and I'm at the right age to start seeing it. Now all I need is the money. Ugh.