this list was inspired by eri. words in parenthesis will be what the dream symbolizes

✵ trigger warning!

• reoccurring dreams
  • being chased by gorillas - (bad luck)
  • unsteady stairs - (emotional instability)
    • difficulty climbing said stairs - (fear of failure)
  • loved ones dying - (shows the impact they made on your life)
  • shrinking or being small - (feeling inferior or trivial)
  • being with old classmates - (feeling trivial)
• dreams that stand out
  • things that happened in the dream include
    • friend put me and a headlock and into several dreams
    • got placed into middle school again with all my favorite people where there was no issues and saw one of my favorite teachers again. she would say they all really really missed me which felt off, then the room turned completely dark and i was transported out of there.
    • woke up in the morning dizzy and was asking for help from parents. from past experience and the fact this was still the nightmare. you knew something bad was gonna happen so you attempted to summon fire from your hands so it failed. so you prepared to fight with your bare fists.
    • friend told you what the cause could be and you believed him but it wasn't true since the issue wasn't resolved.
    • you got tortured in some way shape or form with excrucirating pain.
  • i had one dream where some kids were talking about shoes, then my friend was talking to me about shoes with me (both his voice and body language seemed abnormal at first) and then started have sort of spasm or seizure. he had the medication he needed for it so then he grabbed it in time so i assumed he was going to be okay. another friend comes out of nowhere and starts reacting the exact same way with the exact same symptoms (the main one being way way way too much boogers, and nasal mucus coming out, gross but i was too concerned to care). both of them are crying and begging as if these are their last moments for me to go run and get the right medication and the first one mentions something about himself and my father, don't know much about that. but as i'm running to get the medication for my two dying friends, some greenish-yellow portal appears out of nowhere and i accidentally run into it without any time to avoid it. i wake up in the real world after this on the floor, i was pulling another all nighter and was taking a break from the work so i guess that happened. i still was just thinking of the nightmare i had where two friends of mine were just dying, i go into bed, not to fall asleep, but just to contemplate about it. i end up falling asleep again into another nightmare
    • i'm on the morning bus with a different friend and we're just chilling but this person who i see every now and then at school talks to us, and it's a normal conversation. they want to see my phone so i give it to them and they give it back within seconds. while she had my phone, she asked if she was attractive, i said yes not because i had any sort of interest, but because everyone's attractive in their own way, and she's not an exception. i look back on my phone, i notice my lock screen wallpaper has been changed to a picture of her face on it, not only that, but the person used to be someone i know, but now it's a person who i am not familar with, it's a similar body structure, but the face is completely different. i go in to fix it, but i can't log in to my phone. i try and try but i get locked out of my phone. i ask her what she did but she doesn't respond. the bus stops at the school and out of me, my friend, and her, she walks casually making a few romantic/sexual advances and comments on me which make me uncomfortable, but i'm more worried because she did something to my phone and i have no idea about what to do.
    • we hop to a new dream where it appears i'm walking in some sort of store. nothing bad happens, but for some reason, the way people are so close to me and my hand is moving on it's own so it touches their rear ends. i don't know why my hand is acting on its own like this, but it's making me seem like an issue to everyone, so i feel better by realizing that i'm in a dream and therefore nothing bad will happen to me in real life. it's only a few seconds until i exit that dream (or maybe i forgot about the rest of that dream)
      • i'm awake again from now my third bad dream of the night, i get out of bed to avoid anymore sleeping which could lead to more bad dreams, but, i couldn't. no, i wasn't too lazy or exhausted but my body wouldn't move. i assumed it was just really annoying sleep paralysis, but then something started to form in my head or mind giving me headache and then my face made a really strong frown. and it felt like it was using a lot of energy so i tried to stop frowning, but i couldn't. and it's not like sleep paralysis where you try to move your body and nothing moves, it felt like something was denying me to change my facial expressuon. this was not reality, and my brain tricked me into thinking that i was free from this hell when i really wasn't
        • i'm pulled into another normal dream until i see the friend who had the spasm from earlier, we start the conversation and i realize he's still acting a bit different from how he usually acts again, so i prepare myself, (memory's a bit foggy here) but he was acting crazy again and i think some thing was being shown on the screens around us, either way, it ended up me smacking myself to get out of this stupid nightmare.
        • i'm back in the real world again and i try to get out of bed, but something is preventing my feet from touching the floor, no matter how hard try we're still in the dream. eventually i do get out of the bed and beat the dream but a second later and the dream put me back in the bed with a printer? it does not want me to escape it. so then i get out of bed again and i start walking outside my room, the world feels a bit weird and its hard to walk so i assume it's still the dream. the lights are on and i head towards the kitchen to see my mother making breakfast but her back is turned against me (the last dream that was like this was horrible, so i'm prepared again), the scene of her back facing me while she was at the stove turned into a cartoon for a split second then back. finally, she walked up to me and started, i guess sexually harassing me. (but she would never ever do this in real life) i'm just screaming for my life at this moment.
        • you wake up again and easily can move. it's over. the hell is finally over.
  • i was outside near the cul de sac of my neighbors house and there was a bad guy who was probably committing theft. Because something felt surreal or untrue, i gave myself the ability to wield fire and stop the bad guy. probably was the first time i lucid dreamed.
  • it was a day everyone was done with standardized testing and everyone was joyful and it was wholesome (some people shouldn't have been there, like some elementary friends, but i didn't care.) right before we leave, we encounter one of the notorious and obnoxious students at our school. the student was acting unstable. a man who no one has seen before enters and all we know about this unknown man is that they have a close relationship with the student and they are in low spirits because the unstable student is suicidal. the unknown man then says "if he is suicidal, then he probably has a gun on him." once the student hears that, he jets for his backpack and he gets his hand on it. i immediately charge and push him with the force of my entire body. he is now slightly stupefied and right before we retrieve the bag out, i noticed he has his gun in his right hand and then he immediately points the gun at me. the dream ends. the gun was an mk23 suppressed pistol and the way he pointed it at me implies he only had one shot. this means everyone else (which was about 20 to 30 people) should be fine.
  • three different dreams but they all seem connected because in said dreams i remembered past events in the dreams.
    • first out of the three was a weird thief. he seemed a bit unstable. he was easily stopped though and put behind bars.
    • second was another thief, except he didn't really care about stealing anything. he just stood there in front of me and my parents and i ran up to him because of a gut feeling. turns out he had a gun just waiting to be use and he just wanted to talk so he could get some humor from it. i threw away the gun, but my parents had it now, and they shot the thief. i didn't want the thief to die, but self-defense is self-defense.
    • final out of the three seemed to take place in high school and i saw classmates from both elementary and middle school (that isn't very accurate, most of them aren't going to my high school) and there was this one girl i asn't familiar with and her mother came berating her. i told the mother to back off because the girl can do wonderful things. the mother left after that.