• written by NINJ.4 after his sufferage during 2014
• read bio here for information
• it was initially color coded but that doesn't work on listo-

NOISELESS

• With my heavy eyelids, I take a glance outside.
• Happy faces, music, and movement,
• As I lay here with even my fingers motionless.
• Soundless, Noiseless; I keep helplessly gasping for air.
• I want to make a sound, but it’s useless.
• My burning lungs, my dry mouth; my throat hurts as if it had been slit
• I cry in agony, alone, ringing ears.
• I can’t speak (can’t speak)
• I can’t talk (can’t talk)
• In the silence of my being, these words echo in my head:
• Useless, worthless, what’s the point of being here when you can’t even breathe?
• Get out, shut up! I know, I know. I understand that I’m…
• I’m noiseless, noiseless
• In the oblivion of silence
• Soundless, Soundless
• Just my inaudible voice.
• Forgive me, I know I’m nothing right now,
• But why do I apologize when I’m being drowned out anyways?
• Noiseless, noiseless
• (Waiting for you)
• Soundless, soundless
• (I can’t even call for you)
• Silence, silence
• (Because of this, I can’t do anything but just wait for you to arrive.
• It’s frustrating, you know?)
• I’m suffocating, it hurts, it burns.
• But the pain of you gone is excruciating.
• I need you now, but how do I get to you?
• Without being able to speak or form words,
• Without being able to move.
• Being unable to reach out my hand to you
• I can’t tell you how much I love you.