• Ontario with Kevin Tian, Jake, Tesia for Tesia's prom dress
  • She got maroon too!
• Tesia's mom's work for free food and slushie! YUmmmMM~
• McDonalds for some ice coffee. Ran into Leon and Baokhao.

• Last day of CST testing
• Makeup with my cousin! I like :D
• Gym with Stacey
  • Stopped by Puente. Stacey got a backup dress. I like one too!
• Fail Physics paper tower.

• Fail.

• Fail again. Thursday

• Total. Fail!
• No church
• Nothing!
• Tried to curl hair- FAIL!

• Yay! Money from coins
• Gym with Stacey
• Got free frys at Jack-in-the-Box. Yummyyy
• Jamba Juice with Stacey

• Missed as well because the days go on in a blur. Nothing matters to me. I question working hard. What is the point really? IS there a point? I don't smile, I don't do homework, I don't study. I say... screw everything.
• Went to gym with Kirstie
  • Failed at trying to get a spot in cycling class
  • Got a cut riding the bike. Pretty fail.
• Lost
  • Was actually disappointed, they are losing their touch. They are cramming and not story-telling.

• Missed.
• Went to the gym with Kirstie and Stacey
  • Step Class. I HATE IT.
• Puente Mall then West Covina mall.
  • Mom got Portmerion 21 piece.
• Korean bbq for dinner~
• Spring break is over :[

• Woke up early to get ready
• Went to car mechanic to pick up camry. $600-700. DAM
• 6 Flags with Justin, Tesia, Kirstie, Jake
  • I drove. Super fun! X2 twice... I just wasn't feeling it. I don't know.

• Gym with Kirstie. I am so dead tired.
• Defeated the purpose by eating hot cheetos fries.
• Went to Costco, Target, Marshalls, Chipotle. All closed. FAILURE.
• Easter Sunday!
• My mom got mad at me because I didn't want to turn on Twilight for her. She called me weird because I called Twilight gay.

TODAY WAS THE BEST DAY EVER.. April Fool's

• First day of April. March madness is over!
• What did I do today..... Pokemon.
• One more day of school :D

• Last week before Spring Break!
• I HATE MONDAYS
• Ran around the school with Stacey
• Joining the gym?

• Tesia just dropped off a WHOLE container of potato salad. OMG <3333!!
• Went to Ontario with my mom.
  • Exchanged her Coach bag
  • Bought Uncle's present
• Cried during the car ride- mom brought up college
• Annie Lee's 17th Birthday
  • Got her shoes, colima burger, soda, cake
• Short day!

• Didn't cry for the first time in days... Hope I can sleep too.
• Tuesday, long day. Alvo wasn't there. YES!
• Talked to counselor... sigh.
• Starting on my appeal.

• Worst day of the year
• Rejection from UCI

shoot me -_-

EDIT

• Parents gave me $1,900 for a car.

Do I deserve this? No.

• Another day without a word from UCI
• Wednesday practice for Band... ugh
• Went to Puente with Stacey to buy Annie's presnet
• Couldn't sleep last night either. 3am......

• Pie Day
• Finished editing La Llorona

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ywdVUAjK...

• Filmed with Stacey after school
• Band practice. uGH. Dismissed early. Slapped Jchu
• Put Paul Frank on my case
• Talked to Ludlam about Lost!
• NBC Thursday nights

• I can't believe I missed it yesterday! I really thought I did.
• Started reading House of Spirits. I really like the book.
• Late start & didn't go to band. PERFECT MORNING

• TGIF
• Pop essay and FAIL physics quiz YAY!
• Decided to go hiking with my Dad tomorrow.. wish me luck.
• Target fun!
• No hike today

BTW I am bipolar.

• Reading Catcher in the Rye and loving it!
• Mom's off day-
  • Macy's
• Nap
• Kyochon chicken type dinner
• QUIERO GYM !!

"If you want to know the truth, I can't even stand ministers. The ones they've had at every school I've gone to, they all have these Holy Joe voices when they start giving their sermons. God, I hate that. I don't see why the hell they can't talk in their natural voice. They sound so phony when they talk."

• Aquarium of the Pacific in Long Beach with Annie, Lauren, Kelly, Jessica.
• Fun bus ride...would you rather
• Bus adventure. Kelly got hit on

• Nothing much really.
• Failed English
• Talking to someone makes me feel better...
• COSTCO

• NOTHINGNESS -_-
• Ditched church
• Hyun Min's house

• Started to play around with Dad's camera. See pic for fav. or the day
• Made chocolate cake
• Talked to Mr. Ludlam about Lost. Hahaha reminds me of last year
• Sadies fashion show SUCKED. Should I expect anything more from that fat lard? No. Crappy is as best as she can get :)

• NO SCHOOOLLLLLL
• Brea Mall with Mom
  • Free Sephora makeup kite and Nordstrom's bag and sunglasses!
• SURPRISE BY JANET AND JUDY!!
  • Guppies, KyoChon Chicken, arcade, asian store, tacos, Friends
  • Birthday gifts! Tooooo many!~

• 2010 Vancouver Olympics. I JUST LOVE OLYMPICS <3
• TGIF
• Sims Bon Voyage
• Passed out Valentines

• My 18th birthday
• Disappointments with Spanish and English class and Jake
• Got iPod touch from the family
• TOMs and nail polish from Jessica and Kelly
• Kite watch chocolate bag from Stacey
• Sims Bon Voyage Jacob shirt peso truck from Annie
• Updating via iTouch ...life is good

• Lazy Saturdays!
• Brea Mall with Kelly Chan and Jessica Wang
  • So much into Nordstroms now ! Oh no! Expensive
  • BJs!! <3
• Dang... 3 days?

• Jessica Wang's 18th Birthday
  • Dim Sum, 99 cents store, Jessica house
  • Hung out with Kelly C., Kelly L., Selene N, Esther S., Jessica
• Bought a kite
• Negative: Band practice

• Last day of January
• Slept in= no church :)
• Lost t-shirts with Stacey
  • What a girl wants & League of Extraordinary Men
  • Junie B. Jones
• The Hat
• Made chocolate cake with mom
• Lost t-shirt fail
• Lost new footage! <3

Missed. Oops

• Bad day

No picture

• I made top group. BOO
• Grades
  • Marching Band A
  • College Alg. A+
  • Spanish 4 A-
  • Physics B
  • AP English B
• Started the FAFSA

• Dad's 49th birthday!
• Disneyland
  • Cream cheese filled pretzel
  • Rain
  • Wonderful group: Jessica, Esther, Kelly, Jake, Kevin Tian, Richmond, Victor, Trevor
  • No marching
  • Great bus ride back

• First day of finals :( Came home earlier
• Physics was not as hard as I expected
• Library to check out books
• Tornado warning in SoCal ?!
• Dinner with Rowland people [Hyun Min and Damee]

No picture tonight

• Pocky MS
  • Best thing ever!!
• DSW
  • 2 shoes and a bag for $40

• Finished My Sister's Keeper
• Ate strawberries and a banana
• Fresh air from the rain

• Costco with mother (got mascara.)
• Target
  • Got season 2,4,5 of Lost. It's COMPLETE <333
• Ate homemade Korean style enchiladas. YUMMM

• Got Sax testing out of the way
• Easy benchmark
• Another wonderfully nice day of weather
• Wonderful nap

"We don't stop laughing because we grow old- we grow old because we stop laughing." -Michael Pritchard

• I <3 NY shirts with Kirstie, Tesia, Justin
• Good nap during Girard

Bad thing:

• School started
• Big fight with Sharon

Things that made me happy

• Seeing my nephews and Grandma
• Getting the much needed money
• Se-Jin's grandma being the warm, kind person she is. Making my day and making me believe in something better.
• Wearing my new jacket, my new shoes, my new shirt, and my new jeans

Let's not focus on the negative of today

• Woke up early
• Sunday. Church
• Target
  • Got ELF lashes, concealer, bronzer, cuticle helper thing.
  • Toy story binder!
• Library
• Finished and STARTED Spanish research paper on Aztec Sacrifice.

I'm getting really bad at this.

• Thursday's Mom's off day
• Sharon ditched 6th and 7th
• Went to Ontario with aunt!
• Bought dress at Ontario
• Aunt gave me $100

• Monday!
• Gym with Kirstie at 4. Felt out of place with Bea and Candace.
• Drove mom to chiro in Irvine.
  • Cracked my back
  • Awkward in that gown!
• Shorts!~
• Tried Quiznos for the first time.

• Wednesday Fail.

• ?? Failed April 19-24
• Saturday....
• Went to park with my Dad for Grandma's birthday
• Saw aunt

• Saturday
• Sleep in!

• Caught up on this. I am losing interest.
• UCR has completely changed me. I didn't even start it but it's changed me. I have no motivation. Nothing to look forward to, nothing. I want to hurt everyone who got into a good college. Help me, I hate not being able to smile.
• Gym with Stacey then Costco
• Got a free shirt from Aero thanks to 17.

• Last day of break!
• Didn't do much
• Went car shopping to El Monte and Montebello.
  • I HATE CAR SHOPPING :]

• Thursday- WHERE DID MY SPRING BREAK GO?
• at 11 am went to gym with Stacey. Swam for like 20 minutes and showered....
• Cleaned room
• More car shopping- I HATE IT.
  • Nissan, Hyundai, and Honda

• Started off great Ontario Mills
  • 2 new vans for $30
  • 3 shorts
  • New Hanes shirts
  • One bra
• Car dealership. Nissan and Hyundai. I hate car shopping.

I HATE TODAY. I HATE CARS. I HATEHATEHATEHATHEHATHEAHTHEAHTHAHTHATHHAHTAHTHAHTAHATE.

• Today was a good day. No joke
• Last Friday!
• Caught Lugia on Pokemon Soul Silver
• Went to the gym with Stacey. 2nd visit! I'm tired though.
• I think I am going car shopping tomorrow. *Crossed fingers*

• Joined the gym with Stacey
• Jake patched up Pokemon :D
• My days keep getting boring-er as they go!

• Typical day of NOTHINGNESS
• March is almost over! YES

• No motivation.
• No drive.
• Lazy.
• Week is too slow.

• Church
• Schabarum Park with Stacey and Annie
  • Biked for about three hours. Almost successful in teacher Stacey how to bike.
• Guppies
• So scared to tell my parents of my failures. Tomorrow is the day....

• Went to Forever 21 and Costco with my mom
  • Got a black skirt and a jean jacket FINALLY!
• No word from UCI but a good night's sleep

• Slow Monday!
• Second day of Pokemon
• No band
• Helped Victor out... hopefully I helped :)
• Reactivated FB

• TGIF
• I am tired.
• Last day of filming for La Llorona!
• Got a 97 on math test
• Painted nail
• English quiz
• Skipped band rally crap!
• Grandma's birthday :D

• Lost was amazing. Might be one of my favorite episodes. Dr. Linus season 6.
• Spanish test and math test.
• Family portraits of La Llorona project during lunch!
• Nerf gun shooting at Jazz band and ninja attack on Tess by two terrorists. (Leon and Jake)

• I was late because I was just so tired
• Mugu Point at Malibu hike with my Dad. 6 hours, 10+ miles apparantly
• I'm still sore
• Knocked out at 6pm!
• Got three mosquito bites on my neck! :(!

• What the?! I missed again
• Finished Catcher in the Rye... I don't know but I feel like Holden
• Stupid band practice
• Naps FTW!

• Last day of February! Thank goodness!
• Mom's birthday. 45 <3 Portmerion dish
• No church
• English group project at Kelly Chan's
• Dinner for Mom
• Vancouver closing ceremony

Tomorrow is the first day of March. It is the month where my future will be decided. Colleges will send their letters. Their letters will contain everything I've been waiting for my entire life.

• Wore my Team Locke shirt
• Got $20 from recycling
• Got my allowance

hmmm.

• Mondays are blagh
• Eff Mr. Alvo
• Essay on Mushrooms. WTF? Thanks Sylvia Plath
• Shabu Shabu crap.

YAY FOR A WONDERFULLY POINTLESS DAY OF NOTHINGNESS.

• Getting kind of sick of this because I'm unmotivated and pictures won't work
• SIMs all day
• Nothingness

• RIP Grandpa
• Lost day
• perfect on Physics

updated via iTouch

My internet died yesterday

• Fashion District in LA for 2 shirts and a dress
• Assi market
• Bought 3 movies, bad quality
• Big Aunt's house for Grandpa

• Got an A on English quiz
• Got an A on Physics test
• iPod touch fun
• Kirstie got me cookies from Subway
• Ditched band practice
• Got my dad at Ontario, drove on the freeway

Looked at cars for hours. Very good day but can't remember most of it.

• Didn't do anything alll day
• Ate meat for dinner!
• Red nails ?? EH

2 days

• I noticed I hate the sound of someone scratching their skin
• I will be glad once I am done with band
• Costco because Mom's off day
  • Crest Whitening Strips!
  • Water color book
• Library
• Geez 5 days until I'm 18...
• When will UCI admissions come?! I'm going crazy

• New month<3 1/12th of the year done
• Newport Beach with my dad and sister
  • Kite flying
  • Lost on the beach
• One day until Lost premiere!

• TGIF. Again <3 thank goodness
• Souplantation with Leon, Jake, Justin
• Wiki race for tech club

• Band what a way to start the day. Horrible
• College Alg. the most chill class turned horrible
• Rain. Horrible
• Can't change my schedule. Horrible

• Relaxing day of Sims
• I made enchiladas
• Conan O'Brien marathon!

• Only one final today : Spanish. Came home at 10:11
• My dad made me enchiladas, cut oranges, poured me OJ, and brought it to me in my room. AWW
• Pouring rain, poor mother :(
• Started my painting/sketching. NO BUENO

• Overslept so no church
• Panera Bread, Michaels,Stacey's house to study
• The start of the storm, rain !
• Golden Globes
• Failed attempt at ooVoo with Annie & Stacey

The day was not a good day

• Financial Aid workshop
  • A waste of time- didn't learn anything. I doodled
• Took a wonderful nap
• Finished the movie My Sister's Keeper. I hated it.

• Late start
• showering in the morning
• Costco to pick up mascara
• Grandma's
• DSW/Pac Sun
  • Got bikini bottom for $3

4 minutes late

• Chriscelle's debut
• Chili Fries at The Hat
• Weird sub that talked like crazy in English
• Physics hearing test

• Getting my blog featured at Lovelyish
• Colima Burger with Jake
• Jake drove me around for the first time
• Had a sub for Mrs. Robles
• Finished The Time Traveler's Wife

• Chipotle for dinner
• Exchanged Sharon's gift for my new jacket. Third one this week. Wahhht?
• Clean room!

• No gym because Stacey hurt her back.
• Kirstie failed at curling my hair :(
• Don't remember much

• After school went to Stefanie Ng's pet store to look at prom dresses.
  • Got food from bakery and cream puffs
  • Boba milk tea
• Brea mall with mom to see prom dresses
• Gym at 7 for cycling class!
• Rubio's Fish tacos!

• Fail

• Friday
• Gym with Stacey then Blizzard.
• Pokemon Prom asking from Jake
• Ching ko got asked to prom. So cute!
• Dolphin Bay with Jake

• No church.
• MS. FML.
• Focus Activities.

• Learned how to longboard with Leon and Jake after school
  • Got Jamba Juice
• Napped
• Housing and Orientation. GEEZ. TOO MUCH $$$$$$

• Back to school.
• Wow I missed this like crazy.
• Went to gym with Stacey.

• Beach with Kirstie, Jake, Tesia
  • BBQ some sausages, burgers, onions. YUM
  • Smores
  • NO water. Too cold
  • Kite flying
• Submitted SIR to Riverside. FML.

• Started off early to 24 with Kirstie Fung
  • Yoga class, kicked my butt!!
• Haircut at horrible place. I am very bitter. What a waste of $18.
• Fullerton with 9 Band kids. (Richmond, Kelvin, Kevin, Trevor, Jessica, Kelly, Jake)
  • Sonic
  • Target
  • Laser Quest
  • Guppies
    • Horrible service. NO TIP FOR THEM
• Missed first 15 minutes of Lost. DANG IT.
• 6 Flags tomorrow~

• Sigh, no car for me today.
• Went to LA at ten to dealership to look at a Jeep. It was falling apart.
• Went to the mechanic who said my mom was very pretty.
• Ate meat for lunch with whole fam.
• Went to Hyundai, Honda, and Toyota dealerships. IDK WHY!
• Decided not to get a new car and just look at a used car for 2.5k Mitsubishi Eclipse on Monday. CROSSED FINGERS AGAIN.
• Gym for two hours. Came home at 11ish

• Last day of March FINALLY
• Had a 11 hour blackout. 6pm-5am. No fun!
• Band festival. Drumline sucked. Oh well, I don't care.
• ONLY WEDNESDAY?
• Went to the gym with Stacey for the first time- for one hour. Twas nice.
• Target, In-n-out, band, subway

• Sunday
• Nothing!

• Rejection from Cal. Of course, obviously. I don't care.
• Talked to UCSD, UCSB. I don't care.
• Fuck life!

March, you have not been kind to me.

• Rejection from UCSB. Cried once again.
• Told my Mom, she was supportive.
• Going to UCR.
• SO much shit tomorrow. I can't handle this.
• Finished reading The House of Spirits one week too early because I was just too depressed about life. I no longer turn to music or Friends to cheer me up.. but I read? What is wrong with this world?
• Stacey didn't come to school.
• Built a motor in Physics class today with Kirstie Fung and Tesia Au.
• Seems like 6 flags is a Go-go! Ha.

• TGIF
• Band festival at Chaffey High School
  • Got superior
  • Wore new skirt
  • John's Incredible Pizza buffet. YUMM. Apples to Apples
• We need to go another festival then.. Dang
• No word from UCI. Losing hope everyday....
• Oops wrote the wrong date

• I forgot something from yesterday. First Aunt and Auncle came over to give me $1,000 for a car. Couldn't accept of course. Though that counts <3
• Lost: Recon. Nicenice. Can't wait for Richard's story.
• Showed Spanish project in class.
• Last night I slept at 3, woke up at 4 because there was an earthquake. 4.4 magnitude. Woke up at 6 again.

• Fuck today
• UCR tour. Pretty nice. It may actually be my future school
• Stupid Band district festival. Waste of a life? YES. I wished Alvo fell on his ass
• Rejected from SD.

• Last 10 minutes of the day. I win
• Such a long, tiring day
• Ended up paying 40 cents to the library in the morning to print paper
• Ditched band practice. Oh well
• Tomorrow I have a Physics test, which I will fail for sure, maybe an English quiz/essay, and maybe a Spanish oral. Oh Physics. I hate you.
• Filmed more La Llorona at Stacey's and at Pathfinder. It's cold. Made little Benito the horse.
• Played on Stacey's torture table

• Sunday- went to church. First time in a while
• Woke up at 6 am! HAHAHA.
• Costco to take Passport pictures. Mosquito bites showing!!
• Cancelled movie plans with Stacey
• Late start tomorrow

• 3 hour nap
• The Office one hour premiere! LOVED IT
• I was driving to Albertsons and passed by Shelyn. It was during recess and all the kids were on the fence looking out. I saw a soccer ball and stopped the car and got out. They started cheering and all that. They yelled "Thank you!" as I threw it back. It made me so happy that it's ridiculous.

SEE? My connection with Holden is crazy

Please March, be good to me. Please let me receive nice college letters. PLEASE <3 Just Irvine. PLEASE?

• Didn't go for English project because Tesia was at the "doctors"
• Senate meeting- what a waste of time!
• Short day.. although I got home at 3:30!
• Sigh it's only Monday.

*Picture info: I'm bored as heck all the time

• Currently reading: Catcher in the Rye

"All I did was, I got up and went over and looked out the winder. I felt so lonesome, all of a sudden. I almost wished I was dead"

I've never felt so much like Holden in my life

• late again
• Brea to buy moms birthday gift
• Pizza

• What a boring February
• Thinking of blogging and working out. I fail at everything so who knows?
• Lost!! Seems like the only good thing all week.

• Ugh missed again by one hour. FML

Nothingness

• Huntington Beach

• Filled out job apps
• Ebay stuff for the first time
• I seriously love the Olympics!

Since everyone is giving up stuff shall I try cussing again? I've only failed

• Chinese New Year
• Valentine's Day
• Morango and Cabazon outlets

• I love Thursday night television! 30 rock and Office
• MORE iPod touch fun!
• Made my Valentine's Day cards
• Wonderful nap.
• Applied to Sport's Authority

Friday soon <3

• Lots of homework. Essays and tests tomorrow
• Costco and Albertsons with Father. Bought me cheezits!
• SIGH* One more day. Not excited.

• Played Star Wars Monopoly in English
• CSF club, tutoring March 1, 8
• In-n-Out with Jake
• Target with Jake
  • Dwight notebook

• Kelly finally got Jessica's gift
• Lost t-shirts with Stacey
• Lost premiere !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!

• Visit grandma
  • Park, photoshoot jump pictures
• Santa Monica Beach
• Visited Mom's work
• Photoshoot at beach and watched sunset
• Third street
• Buca di Beppo!

• Target and Michaels
  • UP and Star Wars valentine cards and shirt maker thing
• First bball game; we sucked so much. Lost.
• Costco with mother! Got muffins
• Saw the man on the horse on Colima. Classic
• Finished FAFSA
• Almost ready with scholarships
• UGH. First rehearsal of TOP GROUP. I hate

• Happy Wok fortune cookie + Lost bonus
• Watched Space Mountain video
• Worked out chores
• Visited grandmas

• Last day of finals, college alg. and English
• Found out I had a B in Physics!
• Korean BBQ
• Hail!!
• Target and Marshall's

• Martin Luther King Jr.'s birthday, no school
• Rain rain rain!
• Family dinner to celebrate Dad's birthday
  • Yummy food
• Pocky MS to the max.

• Another wonderful nap
• Really nice weather!
• TGIF For realllll
• Spam sushi

• Parent's anniversary
• Finished my first scholarship
  • AFSA
• Korean BBQ
• Running

I missed it again, forgive me

• SIMs all day
• I was able to sleep in
• Started my puzzle again
• Caved and ate Hot Cheetos Fries
• One observation:
  • When parents are together they sing!

• Target again! (For Chriscelle's gift)
• Truce with Sharon
• Jake gives me a Mustang!
• Nice weather
• Found out I can go to Disneyland
• Dinner with cousins
  • Fun discussions!
• Dream of going to Europe

Read a poem in English "One Art"

"--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident the art of losing's not too hard to master though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster." -Bishop

Can't help to wonder if this is what I'll feel like once I lose you?

• Wearing my new Superman shirt
• Target and Costco with Stacey
• New Desperate Housewives

I need to help out with dishes more often!