• getting fat (or just un-fit in general)
• getting some sort of a disease
• not getting married
• not having kids (you know, after the previous bullet)
• not being successful
• not living here
• not surviving something
• not remembering the good times/places/people
• getting fired
• getting heartbroken
• not getting a job
• forgetting to be me
• probably some more things I can't think of now...

I suppose I'd need to have sex to complete this...

• Tian-Tian: thank you for being the only one who was real enough to notice me
• Thalia/Rachel/Meryem: thank you for taking me in
• Leah: thank you for trusting me with everything
• Elizabeth: thank you for finding me
• Barbara: thank you for being the first one to talk to me
• Yena: thank you for helping me be me
• Jackie: thank you for being you
• for all of you: thank you for existing

• I had one
• it didn't really count as a pet
• it was a wild squirrel
• I named it Starmaker because that was a film production studio's name and I thought it was cool
• it visited me regularly by my dining room window
• I fed it acorns
• it was surprisingly tame
• I never touched it
• it got run over by a car
• it didn't get a funeral

• discovering "lylas"
• discovering Mariah Carey is black
• discovering that what happens to others can happen to me too
• discovering the arrow in the FedEx logo
• discovering that I can dance (to an extent :D)
• discovering that I'm not the only one who can't do a cartwheel
• discovering that I had fallen in love
• discovering that I used to be that vain, conceited, and arrogant type of girl I hate

• not too tall, not too short (5'5")
• brown-black hair
• brown eyes
• brown skin (ahah, not really... funky coffee color, maybe?)
• not pretty
• I like clothes. I really like clothes. this means I love dressing up ^^
• make-up's good too~
• I love music. I usually listen to the kind of music my mood fits, but I love almost every kind there is (this means no country. EVER.)
• I love to draw. and I'll draw on anything
• I have to have something to read, or else I'm bored
• I like going to places and knowing that there's someone there waiting for me
• I love romance
• I dig anime/manga. not a freak otaku thou...

lord help me... or at least you guys XD

• "awkward gumby!"
• "voldewoof!"
• "omigosh!"
• "shut up! (and sleep with me!)"
• "chyea!" vs. "shyeah!"
• "lylas girlfriend!"
• "ikr??" "r!!"
• "psh! psh! psh!"

(aaaand?)

• A-letter grades
• Beautiful days
• Candy
• Denim shorts
• Etc.
• Family
• Girlfriends
• Hot men (XD)
• Ice Cream
• Jokes
• Knowing
• Love
• My internet
• Nonsense
• Orange-flavored lollipops
• Prose
• Quiet time
• Reading
• Sketching
• Talking
• Umbrella walks in the rain

• Barbara (we all know the movie would be titled "Flight of the Awk Awk over Moonlit Waters")
• Elizabeth (this is kinda already going on... lol jk XD)
• Yena (this movie would be called "You're Cheating on Me?!")
• Jackie (...am I really going through all my closest girlfriends??)
  • (no, I'm actually not serious about any of the above, lol)
• John Abraham (how can I say no to so much yes?)
• Shahid Kapoor (*giggles like the fangirl she is*)
• Orlando Bloom (yum)
• Leonardo DiCaprio (as if I need to explain this one)
• Heath Ledger (you know, only younger and, uh, not dead...)

• EYELINER FTW.
• eye makeup is great in general... I like eyeshadow ^^
• concealer
• I HATE BLUSH.
• highlighter's nice, too
• lip glossssss~
• mascara can be difficult (clumpy) but I like it
• liquid foundation is ehhhhh... powder is worse though

• she was funny
• she could break it down >D
• she could listen
• she could laugh
• she always wanted what was best for her friends and family
• she got me
• she changed me
• she could, would, and did
• it's not going to be the same without her

• going to TJ
• making close friends
• deciding to expand my entertainment horizons (XD)
• practicing drawing
• listening to many kinds of music
• dreaming
• tearing up old love notes
• not breaking the hearts of my friends
• learning to ride a bike
• learning to cook/bake
• visiting my family in India
• writing prose
• being the first one to start a conversation with someone new
• empathizing
• stop caring (about certain things)
• getting contacts
• stopping and listening

• President
• prostitute/stripper
• "sanitation engineer" of any sort
• telemarketer
• mortician
• computer programmer
• hit-woman
• maid
• secretary
• jobless

ARE YOU READY FOR THIS? (keep in mind I might've forgotten some)

• kidnergarten~
  • Christopher: bestest friend, but dumped that because of peer pressure, ensuing heartbreak.
• first grade~
  • ...dun remember. lol.

SCHOOL CHANGE

• second grade~
  • Shawn: Indian kid, stole my cookies. I met him a couple years ago again and shrieked "you're Shawn! you stole my cookies!" and he didn't remember me, even after I explained...
• third grade~

• Tokio Hotel
• Boys Like Girls
• SR-71
• RED
• Linkin Park
• P!nk
• Sum 41
• All American Rejects
• Barlow Girl
• Frou Frou
• Good Charlotte
• Beyoncé
• Skillet
• Maroon 5
• Avril Lavigne
• The Rasmus
• Metro Station
• The Veronicas
• Paramore
• One Republic
• TATU

• endured heartbreak badge
• danced through the night badge
• you slapped me? well I'll make you need therapy! badge
• ate until you felt like dying badge
• said something really stupid badge
• did something really stupid badge
• acted really stupid in general badge
• got your braces off badge
• got glasses badge
• got contacts badge
• never had a boyfriend badge
• never kissed a guy badge
• met a famous person badge
• nearly died badge
• sang in the rain badge
• danced in the rain badge
• pulled an all-nighter badge
• legit failed badge
• shocked someone into silence badge
• tripped and fell in front of everyone bad...

• fall in love, get married, have a family ^^
• be a successful doctor
• be successful, for that matter...
• keep in touch with good friends
• remember to keep an open mind
• remember not to say everything you want to, because sometimes that's not the best thing...
• go to Europe
• meet that guy, and show him what he lost
• play twister with Jackie :)