- April 26 It doesn't get much better than driving at a ridiculous speed away from your place of work, windows down, hair going crazy, blasting The Cars and giggling just because you're that happy. If someone could see me, they would probably think I was having some sort of manic episode. But no, that's just me.
- April 25 I've been thought of as a pessimist most of my life. It always came as a negative comment, something I needed to improve. But I always felt that I got something that others didn't. Last night I was reading about Abraham Lincoln's depressive disorders and the author apparently has the same view on pessimism that I do. Lincoln was a pessimist and he's one of the greatest men in American history. In fact, in 1979, two female scientists did a study to see whether pessimism affected your view on reality, or if they are the ones with the correct view. Alloy and Abrams set up a game-show like set in their lab. There was a board with a green light, and a handheld buzzer for participants to hold. In one round, they were asked to make the green light flash as often as possible, and they would win a certain ammount of money each time it did. In the second round they were asked to do the same, only this time they would lose money when the light didn't flash. Afterwards, Abrams and Alloy asked each participant how much control they had over the green light. All the participants with "normal", healthy minds believed to have about 60-65%, between 0 and 100%, control over the light during the round they were winning money. However, they believed to have little to no control over the round where they lost money. Then they asked the participants who had been diagnosed with depressive disorders the same question. The ones suffering from depression said they felt to have little to no control throughout the entire game. And they didn't. None of them had control over the light at any point during the experiment. So in reality, the so-called "normal" people were the ones with the warped view of reality. According to the definition of "mental health problems", they should be the ones considered to have a mental disorder, because their perception of themselves and of the world was askew. They did not have a firm grip on reality. It makes me wonder how many depressive disorder cases are misdiagnosed. Feeling sad, alone, even hopeless isn't "normal", but maybe it's a bit more normal than being an optimist through and through, because... well I mean, take a look around. The world isn't a happy place. So maybe people should stop feeling bad about experiencing negative emotions. Maybe overly optimistic people should be the ones on drugs, because they're just kidding themselves. And when they realize that, they won't have the tools to deal with it like pessimists seem to be born with. Wow, that's a really long Thought of the Day. I'll leave now.
- April 24 Well hey, Listography. Nice of you to start working again! Here's what's been going on; work, work, HANG OUT WITH LESLEY, work some more, get Easter basket early, go to Easter service, eat lunch, sleeeeeeep, Easter fellowship dinner. I've been thinking about Abraham Lincoln and King Soloman and how similar their thoughts and writings were. Meaningless, meaningless, everything is meaningless. Everyone dies, and you won't be remembered. But guess what guys? You both are! Ecclesiastes (which I am now studying) used to kind of depress me. I thought it was during a dark time in his life, that he had turned from God and no longer believed in eternal life. Rereading it though, I think he has it about right. He means that everyone dies. There's nothing new, there's nothing worthwhile. And that would be depressing. If it were the end of the line. But thank God we do have eternal life to look forward to. Otherwise I might've offed myself long ago :/
- April 19 It seems like the good times are too short. Thinking about that is when I get depressed. Then God throws me a bone, like sending me a $100 rebate card even though I sent in the forms two weeks after the due date. Little things like that help me look for even more little things to be happy about. The thing I have to remember is there will always be more good times, and even better times.
- April 18 I can see such a difference in this praise team and the last one I ocassionally was asked to play with. I feel welcomed and useful, as opposed to inexperienced and in the way. I'm glad to be able to serve God doing something I love.
- April 17 I'm digging this church and all, but the youth group needs the fear of God put in them!
- April 16 So, my mom thinks that, just because I was maybe rooting for Matty a little bit in How Do You Know that I'm going to marry a stupid man whore. Thanks for the vote of confidence, Mommy. Seriousy though, watch it. It's adorable.
- April 15 Shopping for microphones gives me a headache :( Know what else? College.
- April 14 I reallyreallyreally wish that pill that allows you to use your brain to its full capacity was real. And that it wouldn't kill you and stuff.
- April 13 Movie night with Bekah; good times. It's really, really great to have a positive, Christian friend who sticks to her principles and is ALLOWED TO LEAVE HER HOUSE, you know, because he parents realize she's an adult and aren't crazy Nazis, or whatever. Speaking of which, since when are MY parents Nazis? Be home by nine?! It's actually that my Mom's a slave driver and wants me to be home to put that little sister of mine to bed, but you'll have that. Also, Limitless = new favorite.
- April 12 Do I even need to say it? Narnia is the perfect metaphor to every Christian's life. Watch it and you'll find yourself in one of the characters. Is it bad that I saw myself in Eustace, the obnoxious cousin who is skeptical of everything and doesn't like change? Don't judge me! Like you never caught a glimpse of yourself in him? Or Edmund? Of course we all have.
- April 11 Why CAN'T my life be like an '80's movie?! Why can't John Hughes direct my life? Seriously, I'm not an overly romantic person. I wouldn't want to date Jake Ryan given the opportunity. But I would've appreciated a glowing cake in the semi-darkness on my sweet sixteen. Plus, a soundtrack to my life would be awesome even if it did have Simple Minds all up on it.
- April 10 So yeah, it was nice to have the menfolk gone a for a weekend, but I'm glad to have them back. My dad's stability is ultimately the the crazy glue that holds this family together, and Michael's hilarity is what keeps us from all killing ourselves out of sheer boredom. Or something.
- April 9 I got a flat tire at work tonight. Then some nice young man came along with a tire iron and offered to change it for me. Perhaps chivalry isn't dead. Come to find out, he's my neighbors grandson. Perhaps I should've gotten his number... Perhaps.
- April 8 Is it wrong to enjoy it when the men in your family leave town for the weekend? Because sometimes, it's just nice. Not gonna lie. Late night IHOP with mom and big sis wouldn't happen on a night when the menfolk are around.
- April 7 April is flying by, like most months do within the first week. Maybe it's because the date change still seems new into the second week. Whatever the case, I am digging this month.
- April 6 So maybe our bible study group isn't extremely deep. But sharing prayer requests, getting into the word, and even just having that time set aside every week to hang out with Christian friends is so much more than I had a couple of months ago.
- April 5 There's this awesome game called Funglish and it's awesome. I love games with friends.
- April 4 Sooo, turns out sometimes being a Christian is hard. Seems like I'm just now personally going through all those cliche Sunday school lessons you learn from ages six to twelve. Why IS that? Put God first! Do what He says! God works in mysterious ways! Freakin' be nice to people. Well, that last one I've known all along. It's still hard sometimes. Especially when people are idiots.
- April 3 Hey, remember how I promised today's would be more interesting? Yeah, I lied. I'm sick! Get off my case!
- April 2 Still getting used to writing the new month. This Thought of the Day was a fail. Tomorrow's will be more interesting, promise.
- April 1 Impromptu sibling photo shoots: always a good time. Plus, I didn't even have to work with Alex tonight! Best April Fool's Day ever.
- March 31 So, I'm sickly and stuff. Mom offerred me 30 bucks to let Caitey work for me tonight if I'd saty home and entertain Reagan. I accepted :)
- March 30 I'm so glad we started this bible study. I Timothy + coffee + friends = a reallyreallyreally amazing time, and also very constructive and Jesus-y. It's the new adjective. Spread it around.
- March 29 What's that Vincennes University? The Surgical Technology Program is all full? Couldn't you have mentioned that in the last two letters you sent me?! No, I do not want to enter into the General Education Program. Also, I NEVER went to Ivy Tech, so I cannot send you my transcript from there. Get with the picture, College.
- March 28 I have this ridiculous cycle of going from, "Wow, exercise makes me feel great. Why would I NOT do it?!" to, "Ugh. I don't wanna exercise. I'll do it tomorrow... or never." It's a problem. But today was a very productive day, and I did exercise. The only thing bugging me (and by 'bugging me', I mean gnawing all my internal organs into bloody pulp) is that I screwed up my $100 rebate form AND missed the deadline. But there is hope that I can just go get a new one and have a do-over. I love do-overs. In fact, I think I'll add it to my list of Things I Love.
- March 27 "We are the salt of the earth, not the sugar." Thanks for summing that up, Dr. Scud.
- March 26 So yeah, I've sucked at Thought of the Day for a few days, but then tonight I was reading the bible and came across this verse in Job. Maybe its one of those verses everyone but me has heard and is like, "Oh, that's olds new. Get with it, Tara!" But I just found it and think it's cool. Job 2:10b says "Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" Job was miserable. All he had left was his nagging wife. She was telling him to curse God and die. Instead, he said that. Pretty cool guy, that Job.
- March 21 I know the Natural History Museum is all for the theory of evolution, but it honestly just reminds me of how great God is. Flowers and insects co-evolved to help each other out? How about God made them that way on purpose? I think so.
- March 20 Good day. Saw all the famous D.C. monuments and memorials, stopped by D.C. cupcakes for a great photo op, and made pizza and a Reese's concoction that was surprisingly delicious. It's funny, though, how being in a completely different place and doing all sorts of new things doesn't change you, or what you do. Lesley and I found ourselves laying on the couch, talking about the usual boys and stuff. Its really great to still have those pieces of home with you wherever you go. Ok, enough sentimentalism. I HATE UNICORNS.There, that should make up for it :)
- March 19 So, now that I'm here in VA, preparing to go to D.C. tomorrow, I really can't believe I almost didn't go. I'm sure I would've had a good time with my parents in Evansville. It may be close to home, but there were a lot of cool things to do that we had planned out. But honestly, I could go on that trip basically anytime. Evansvile is an hour and a half away. But this cheap of a trip to D.C., with my best ever bestie? That chance doesn't come along every day. Especially now that we're getting older and busier. On the upside to that, as we get older and busier, we also (hopefully) get richer and have more opurtunities to do cool things. Like, I don't know, teach at an awesome school in Paris... Or maybe your best friend would do that and you could go visit her. Just whatever. I'm just saying I'm really glad I went on this trip.
- March 18 Wow. So much driving. I'm actually writing this on the 19th. But that was pretty much all I thought yesterday. And as for the 17th, Wow. So much Kerns. Can't wait to leave this town. So yeah. Real exciting.
- March 16 Did I ever mention that I love my friends Bekah and Bessie? They are too cool. Love spending time with my girls, and shortly, I'll be spending time with my best ever bestie, and meeting a new friend as well. So glad I decided to go on this D.C. trip. Sometimes you need to go a little crazy and have some fun. P.S. I was just sitting here thinking how it's crazy that I'm still best friends with my best friend from from when I was, like, six. And how I almost let a stupid guy come between us and how great it is that we survived that and that if we could, we could survive anything. Then I decided to pop over to said bestfriend's Thought of the Day, to see she had written almost EXACTLY WHAT I HAD BEEN THINKING. That just shows right there that we are best ever besties.
- March 15 Beware the Ides of March. Just sayin'. Also, I AM going to D.C. and it's gonna be awesome. I'm especially excited about the bus ride to New York City, cuz this means I'll have been from coast to coast, L.A. to N.Y.C. Oh yeeeeaaaah.
- March 14 You know who's great? Lesley Bright. Not just cuz she's my best friend and the only one who reads my listography, but also because she's putting up with me being a total wishy-washy, flaky gay-wad over this whole D.C. trip. It is partly my parents' fault, but still. I kind of suck right now. Also, WHERE ARE ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS? I feel very isolated these days. Too bad being a young adult means everyone's busy ALL THE TIME.
- March 13 Sax, trombone, beginner's piano, electric and acoustic guitar? Best youth band ever. This should be interesting.
- March 12 Part II Wait. No I'm not. THIS DAY SUCKS!
- March 12 I'm entering Battle of the Bands!!! Whooo.
- March 11 Praying Milburn's pharmacy doesn't burn down, that the situation in Japan turns out ok and that Reagan will freaking go to sleep so Mom and I can finish this dumb movie. That last one is a little selfish I guess.
- March 10 TWO dollars from Tip Guy tonight?! Score. Oh, and we got a new cashier. Seems a'ight, but she sat on the one and only stool through my ENTIRE break, and a lot of the rest of the evening, too. Plus, I think she's a bad influence on Stacy. I've never seen her talk so much or work so little.
- March 9__ Why is it so hard to find a good man, and so hard to lose a bad one? If this were Twitter, I'd say #getaclue
- March 8 I applied to college today. Bout time. Application fees suck, btw!
- March 7 I made some awesome St. Patrick's Day cookies at work today. Shamrocks and Irish flags. Now I need to make my St. Patty's Day shirt. Did you know there's a St. Patrick's St. in Wahsington, D.C.? There's an Irish gift shop there. I think I want to go there.
- March 6 New bible study, new chruch, new youth group. Lots of new things. Lots of good. Lots of God lessons.
- March 5 I just realized today, I'm shallow. Or at least more shallow than I thought. I should work on that.
- March 4 Walks in the rain are good for the soul. Or somethin.
- March 3 I need to make my own demo. Even if it's kinda crappy. I'm going to find a USB mic and just do it.
- March 2 The Hunger Games leaves you hanging. And the sequel is locked away in Caiteys's room alongside her sleeping frame. I guess I'll have to wait till morning. There's always this here Madeleine L'Engle book. Just not the same.
- March 1 My ear hurts. Reagan bit it. It's bruised. Not kidding.
- Feb 28 So I've neglected Thought of the Day for a while. The last couple of days have been a little crazy. Here are the highlights: Best friend visiting from college, peeps run, late night IHOP, hanging all day with other bestfriends, late night Parcheesi and uploading favorite original song to YouTube. Good times. P.S. if you're reading this, go to youtube, search tarakennedy91 view, rate and subscribe. More coming soon. Kbye.
- Feb 24 So, I picked up a hitch-hiker today. Normally against my policy, but it was this kid that comes into Kerns sometimes, so I felt like I kind of knew him. And he was pretty scrawny so I felt like I could take him if he tried anything. We were driving along and small-tlaking and he says, "I have a quetion for you." I said, "Ok." "How old are you?" I told him nineteen, he seemed surprised so I asked him if he was. He said "Yeah. I thought you were 16 or 17." Ouch. He proceeded to tell me that he was looking for a prom date and no one would go with him so he thought 'What the hell'. Double ouch. But he was a nice enough kid despite lack of social awareness. I dropped him off at Kerns and he walked off somewhere. I went into work and had a pretty busy night. I had all but forgotten about the weird situation when he pops into my pizza hide-away."Hey!" I said hi and we exchanged niceties. "So... do you have a phone number?" No. No I have no way of being contacted except via carrier pigeon. I gave him my freaking number cuz I didn't want to crush his little heart, but I hope he knows there's no chance of anything devoloping. He's probably seventeen (illegal AND creepy) and he's... tiny. Like, I think he's shorter than me and is very small boned. Maybe I should've been flattered but I ended up feeling sort of... juvenile all night. Like, "I should be that age." Sometimes I feel like I missed the train. I guess everyone's different. I just hope I can do something great enough to make up for lost time.
- Feb 23 So many highs and lows lately. I thought that was supposed to happen when you were going through "the change"? I'm 19 now. Think I'm over that. Unless I'm pregnant...? Ha. Tchyeah right.
- Feb 22 Ha. Ghost Adventures is funny. So maybe ghosts are real, or maybe you guys are big fakers who want to make a quick buck. Either way, this show is entertaining. Mostly because the main guy is the very definition of douche bag.
- Feb 21 What a fabulous President's Day. Received my P-Day challenge (and am working on it), went to Terre Haute with Michael to buy Caitey's bday gift (and a few other things including a totally fabulous teacup from the antique place) and ended the night by pouring over the first chapter of I Timothy and writing TWO songs. I'm back, baby.
- Feb 20 Hey, guess what the sermon was about this morning. Reading the bible every day. What d'ya know.
- Feb 19 I'm reading through Joshua. You know, in the bible. I think I must be stupid. Me- "Ugh! Why is my spiritual life so sucky right now?!" God- "I won't even dignify that question with an answer. Figure it out." Months later, Me- "Oh yeah! I'm supposed to read the bible more often than once a week!" Duh.
- Feb 18 Just saw a commercial for that new show Secret Millionaire. It made me want to be a better person and do my best at work, just in case Secret Millionaire showed up and decided to write me a check. Then my mind jumped to the obvious analogy; God sees you when you're doing your best, and when you're ... not so much. At the end of your life He'll be the one writing the check and it can be an amazing reward or it can be... not so much.
- Feb 17 I had the craziest dreams last night. Reunion with seven-year-old-Me's love interest, a family gathering at my workplace and a call from George Harrison asking me to open for him at his next show. Pretty amazing. I don't know what it is with me wanting to reconcile with said love interest, but I have dreams about it all the time. I guess I still hold on to the hope that we'll be friends again one day.
- Feb 16 I love Reagan more and more every day. She can annoy me like no one else, but she can also make me laugh my head off, cheer me up and make me go, "awww" more than anyone. Sometimes I wish she really was my little sister. It'd make things a heck of a lot easier.
- Feb 15 So my grandparents have this rule; when we go stay at their house for the holidays, we're allowed to bring boyfriends (or girlfriends, in Michael's case), but not just friends. Weird, I know. I've been tempted to bring a guy friend and lie about our relationship. Or, even better, bring a girl friend, lie about that and tell them they shouldn't discriminate. Funny to see the look on my grandfather's face. Mwahahaha. I wouldn't be welcomed back.
- Feb 14 Yeah, it's Valentine's Day. Mine was spent, not with some douche bag who can't remember my birthday or who got my present, five minutes before picking me up, at the "Wal-Mart Valentine Convenience Center" or whatever the heck they call the condensed, in-and-out Valentine's Day area. You know, where they have everything organized into price ranges and everything is red, white and pink and totally offensive? No, instead mine was spent with friends and family, giving Valentine challenges to friends over the internet and watching those challenges be carried out. It was definitely better than when I did have a boyfriend and did get a Wal-Mart Valentine Convenience Gift. I would dare say it was the best Valentine's Day ever.
- Feb 13 My mind is so absorbed with Grammy-ness. All I can say is I want to be there. On stage. Accepting one of those.
- Feb 12 Working the seven hour shift at work is sooo boring. That's the sum of my thoughts today.
- Feb 11 I bought a shirt today. It's white. I'm going to write I HATE BOYS on it. Here's why: http://www.blogcdn.com/blog.moviefone.com/media/2010/07/emma-roberts-funny-story.jpg It's kind of a funny story...
- Feb 10 So, my family recently decided to leave our church and start looking for a new one. It's always hard, but sometimes it's the only option. I was sad at first, thinking about what I'd miss out on. Then I realized the only thing keeping me there was the familiarity. My friends, the comfort of it, the people I see every week. I thought about it and knew that not only is that not really a good reason to stay at a chruch, it is actually a BAD reason to stay at a church. The last thing you want as a Christian is to get too comfortable. And if that's what's holding you to a church? Get outta there. Plus, then I started thinking about all the things I'll get to experience. We've been attending the Church of the Nazarene for the past couple of weeks (it's the church I grew up in). It's very small, and they have no praise team to speak of. But that lets me know that our family can do some good there. I hope we, and our talents, will actually be embraced there. I've been slowly drifing away from God for a while now, and I hope this big change will help to change me.
- __ Feb 9__ When I'm thinking about something, I have a habit of imagining I'm having a conversation with someone. Helps me figure things out. So today I was thinking about the fact that I'm against having a boyfriend right now, and how I would explain that to someone if they asked (it's NOT because I'm a lesbian!). So I told my...self (I'm not insane either) that I don't want a boyfriend because, first of all, if I did date anyone, it'd have to be someone really great. And if he was someone really great, I'd probably fall madly in love with him and want to get married. Then I'd have to weigh all the pros and cons (another way of figuring things out) of getting married young, and end up barely scraping by, living in a crappy house with a crappy job, all in the name of love. But it's not even because of the barely scraping by part. I don't even want to marry some independently wealthy guy (yet!) who would make it so I didn't have to work at the crappy job or live in the crappy house. I don't want to get married because I want to have a chance to prove to myself that I can make it on my own, without a husband as a crutch. I want to live on my own and pay my bills and be in charge of myself without having to check in with anyone. Then I'll marry a totally awesome independently wealthy guy :)
- Feb 8 I watched "It's Kind of a Funny Story" tonight. I loved it. You know how all kinds of movies and TV shows and books and everything have that cliche turning point where some influential, wise person says to the main character something along the lines of, "You just have to live ." and then they "get out there" and "live" and do all sorts of things that look like way more fun than they actually are while some music with no words plays in the background? Well, this movie had one of those. And even though I've seen scenes like those a bajillian times, I actually kind of get it now, cliche as it is. I relate to that kid in a lot of ways (please ignore the fact that he's chronically depressed). So, I probably won't have a dramatic, climactic so-called "turning point" or anything cheesy like that. I'm just saying maybe I shouldn't be so concerned with other poeples' oppinions, because the truth is people probably aren't thinking of me and the things I do as much as I believe they are, negative or otherwise. And maybe I shouldn't be so afraid of failure and regret, because other people fail and they're just fine. I mean, some of them are. Looking at my life, I don't really have any regrets or epic fails. And that's good, I guess, but that's the only way you learn. I read something yesterday that said "the only success that counts is the success you earn all by yourself", and while I don't completely agree with that, I've never accomplished anything great on my own. So I guess if I ever want to, then I'm going to have to try, and probably fail. And try and probably regret. And try and probably face rejection. I really hate regretting not trying something. I guess trying and failing would feel a lot better. Okay, enough is enough I'll stop being inspirationally philosophical now.
- Feb 7 Part II Two thoughts: One- For some reason, once I get in bed, I do anything to avoid getting back out. Like, if I want to read a book and that book is on the floor six feet away from my bed, I'll stretch half-way across the room rather than just stand up and take two steps to get it. I have no idea why, because I'm sure it'd take a lot less effort. And Two- I think if a guy played and sang the Ramones' punk rock classic, "I Wanna Be Your Boyrfiend" to me, I'd have to say yes.
- Feb 7 So, I didn't write a Thought of the Day last night. My mom was in the hospital and amazingly enough, listography wasn't the first thing on my mind. She's okay. She had chest pains, so they went to the ER while I was obliviously partyin' it up at the Seprodis'. Her EKG was normal and she's coming home today, so prayer answered. Just hope this a wakeup call for her to start taking better care of herself. And since I didn't write a thought last night, there might be a Feb 7 Part II. If I have any revelations or epiphanies or anything.
- Feb 5 Sometimes I go a whole shift at work barely saying a word to anyone. It makes me want to say random things to people. Oddly, this reassures me. It makes me realize that, 1. if I were put into a situation where I didn't know anyone (like if I ever go away to college, or have to move far away) that I woould make friends. Eventually. And 2. that I won't end up a hermit. If for some reason I ever find myself alone I know I won't become a crazy old cat lady, living alone in squalor. Good to know.
- Feb 4 As far as eighteenth birthdays go, Michael's wasn't the greatest. It was a pretty ok day for me, though. I got a change purse with an mp3 hookup and built in speakers (wtf?!), a coolawesome phone skin and a superprettycool journal with a peacock on it. But I can't help but feel bad for Michael. We'll definitely have to go big next year. He can be really annoying and immature, but I can really see him maturing these days. Slowly, but it's there. He's become one of my closest, best friends. For a while, (while I was dating a certain douchebag you might know of) I felt like we were drifting apart. I knew we'd been close and I guess I assumed that it was just part of getting older. Which is stupid as hell. We all know I was replaced with a zombie-me during that time, let's not go into it. Needless to say, I'm glad that's NOT a part of getting older and that it didn't happen. Quite the contrary, actually. As you get older you need your family more than ever. Especially your siblings. Your parents are great, but your siblings are going through, or have gone through very recently, what you're going through now. I could go on for a long time and be needlessly sappy, but suffice to say I'm glad I wasn't born an only child.
- Feb 3 Tomorrow my baby brother turns eighteen. Hard to believe. Growing up sucks. His growing up has me thinking about my growing up even more than usual. Since I was born the idea of college has been pounded into my head. "If you want a job, you go to college. If you want to be somebody, you go to college!" (Accepted- great movie). Then, out of nowhere, my Dad says, "If you don't want to go to college, don't go." He makes the point that the economy sucks and that after graduation it'd be hard to find a job with the major I'm trying to pay for in the first place! Happened to my sister. So now I'm all backwards. What world do we live in where MY DAD thinks college is a fiscally irresponsible idea?
- Feb 2 Most of today was so extremely boring that going to work would have actually been a relief. Then Reagan went away and I had some time alone with my guitar. At last! A new song! I write practically every day, but it's been a while since I've actually sat down and written a full song with both verses, chorus and bridge that was in any way decent. If you'll recall, two days ago I mentioned maybe it's good to let emotions out occasionally. So that's what I did. And incidentally that's what the song was about :) So I would say yes, it could definitely be a good thing. Because if if if that song ever makes it out into the world maybe maybe maybe it could help someone having the same neurotic problem I obviously have. To sum it all up, emotions = good (but not great).
- Feb 1 Ice storms sure bring people together. I got called off work due to the weather and have been spending more time with my family than I have in a while. It's kind of refreshing. Also it's beautiful outside, in a way. Ice has encrusted everything. It's kind of amazing. I'm praying the power doesn't go out in the middle of the night and we freeze in our sleep. If it does, we'll have to go old skool and build a fire. I've sure been using the words old skool a lot today.
- Jan 31 Okay, so maybe constantly ignoring feelings is a bad thing after all. I mean, everyone tells you, "Don't keep everything bottled up! You'll start going crazy and lashing out at people and end up becoming a serial killer and have to go to the looney bin!" I always thought that was a bunch of crap. Maybe not so much. Emotions are generally useless and get in the way of things. But God put them there for a reason. And while I don't condone letting every emotion that happens to come along sway you and influence your decisions, especially if they're bad ones, sometimes acknowledging those emotions and letting them out in a healthy way is actually beneficial. Never thought I'd be one to say that.
- Jan 30 The Wild 'n Crazy Weekend wasn't exactly wild and crazy. Last night's events included midnight frisbee at the park (we know how that ended last time :\), a hysterical game of Pictionary (always a good time) and the ever-popular game of Euchre. Add to it large amounts of caffiene, chocolate candy canes and the late hour and it turned out to be a bit more Wild 'n Crazy than one might have anticipated.
- Jan 29 I've dubbed this weekend Wild 'n Crazy Weekend. My parents are gone and I WILL do something Wild 'n Crazy before they return. Yes, I have to go to my minimum wage job for 6 hours today, but after that... brace ya'self.
- Jan 28 I learned two things today; 1. The Seprodis are PARTAY ANIMALS. 2. My broter is an amazing dancer. No joke. Who would've guessed? Never Stop The Partay.
- Jan 27 My brother is one of my best friends. He can annoy the crap out of me. But tonight we watched Dinner For Schmuks and ate Sour Patch Kids and laughed our heads off. I think I could tell him about anything.
- Jan 26 Trying very hard not to be selfish and grouchy. It's very hard today. But seriously Self, you usually get what you want so get over it.
- Jan 25 Good friends are hard to come by. I'm not one of those people who have a large circle of friends, just a tight group of close ones. I like it that way. I've had casual friends come and go, and friends that have stabbed me in the back, and friends that bring me down, accidentally or not. But I always keep the same super tight friends I've had for years.
- Jan 24 Being frugal is harder than it used to be. I want things, and those things are expensive. Like this awesome phone in my hands, and the data package with it, and an awesome trip to St. Louis with your friends. Ima have to crack down on myself.
- Jan 23 I've never been so exhausted that I had body tremors before. I think my body is mad at me for climbing around like a young chimp last night. Get over it!
- Jan 22 The City Museum is one of the most magical places on earth; second only to The Hump (still alive in my heart).
- Jan 21 Of course we never leave on time. It keeps things interesting, and we had plenty of time anyway. Who needs a tight schedule when you're on a roadtrip?
- Jan 20 I hope the trip to St. Louis tomorrow ends well. I'm sure it will start great, but the five us, constantly together, for three days, sleeping in shared beds... well, it'll be interesting to say the least.
- Jan 19 Late New Year's Resolution #4: Spend time more wisely. I tend to waste my free time. For instance, today I watched almost half an episode of Backyardigans. Given, I couldn't just leave and do something productive, seeing how I have to give constant attention to a certain four year old, but still.
- Jan 18 I think I'm in the early stages of workaholism. The very, very early stages. Like a fetal stage, maybe. Or embryonic. I'm far from an actual workaholic, but I can see the tendencies creeping in. This is shocking to a natural born procrastinator with no work ethic, but suddenly, hard work feels good. Maybe I'm becoming my father. I can only hope.
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