- I don’t remember much of my childhood, especially not my younger years- I do remember taking car trips with Richie and Eddie when we were teenagers. Richie had a truck, I think: there wasn’t a back seat, so Eddie and I had to share a seat, and he’d put his feet up on the dashboard while Richie drove.
- One of my only clear memories from my childhood is of Stan- he was the one who could put up with my stutter the most without finishing words for me/teasing me (which I never minded from the Losers, though it could still bug me), so I’d often go to him when my stutter was bad, he was very patient.
- Richie couldn’t sleep for a while after he saw the werewolf in the school, and since my parents ignored me he would sleep over at my house a lot- we always invited Eddie, and he’d usually join us for an hour or two after school but he could never stay over because of his mom.
- I also think I was one of the earliest to move away: Stan moved away before me, and I moved away before Richie and Eddie, but I don’t know about Bev or Ben.
- I loved all of the other Losers very much- Richie and Eddie were my soulmates/other halves and I loved them more than anything, and I loved Mike the same way I loved Audra (I’d happily spend my life with either of them and would do anything to protect them).
- I remember being in the restaurant and seeing Eddie again for the first time, and being absolutely lovestruck. He was so gorgeous, and I kind of couldn’t believe it was the same Eddie. I talked with him for a little while alone that night (while we were in the hospital) and I remember the way he smiled and ran his fingers through his hair when I told him how glad I was to see him again.
- My stutter stayed with me, after it came back that second time. It was lighter, but if I was frightened or stressed it would get really bad. I tended to avoid crowds because of that.
- Richie wasn’t there for Eddie’s funeral, though he did come out- I saw him at the hotel I was staying in after the service, and he spent the night in my room where we talked. He hadn’t been able to go to a service where he’d have to see Eddie dead in a coffin, it was too final.
- There was a period of time where, after the funeral, Richie cut himself off from all of us, though I got regular postcards from Bevvie and Ben, and Mike and I tried to stay in contact (we forgot to call each other a lot)
- Ben and I joked with each other about the poem mix-up from when we were kids- I think I may have helped him publish a small collection of poems? We at least tossed the idea around, I know he still enjoyed writing poetry.
- I made a point of saying “I love you” to all of the other Losers whenever we talked, and Beverly was the same way- Richie poked fun at us both about it, and Mike and Ben were always a little bemused, but I felt guilty that I didn’t tell Eddie, didn’t get the chance to say it to him, and I think Bev felt the same.
- I don’t remember if Audra and I separated, though I think Richie and I started a relationship when he finally got back in touch with me- I remember spending a lot of time at his house, and watching live airings of his shows on TV when I felt I couldn’t deal with the crowds at the actual performance.
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