things that make me feel

currently

• most things that ppl would find bother them in a medical setting like getting scans or surgery done
• doing things i shouldn't be doing (but still fine within my moral reasoning)...
• when i buy friends food when they can't afford it
• being able to give things away to ppl i like for nothing in return
• being home alone (or home with only my mother) overnight
• despite my fear of being inside moving vehicles, i actually love taking busses places. school busses were a definite fave
• actively reminiscing about things from my past

as a kid

• my parents would pick me up by holding my hands and swing me back and forth
• recording videos of my little pony dolls being angsty and trying to edit it as if i were yum soda