✧ NO TRUE STORY IS LEFT TO PICK UP DUST:

• the girl you liked for so so so so long just isn't it worth it, she tried trapping you and it still feels like she's trying but it doesn't seem worth it in the end. however, it might seem like an old friend might have a crush on you. despite all the love, it might not work out for you anytime soon. it's better to throw it all away, and do your best to live out your life in a way that satisfies you due to your purpose anxiety, start by passing those exams, saying those goodbyes, and by leaving an impact.

✧ THE MONTH WITH COUNTLESS BATTLES AT THE JOURNEYS END:

• 05/01/2024 ➣ it's assistant secretaries birthday. you start preparing for academic signing day by putting up balloons and pennants and many more treats for the seniors. your teacher wanted you back so you had to go back to class without your bag cause it was locked in the classroom. it just seems like brownie is trying a different approach with you, as she wants to become closer, whether that be friends or something more. your gave your friend a bag of popcorn that was one month past the expiration date. you talked to dtb girl and had a good convo when her bf wasn't there, the problem is him, simple. while you are finalizing things for the engineering awards, academic signing day is going on. you take a video of all your friends saying what school they are going to. you clean up knowing how lonely things will get and keep on pushing on. you had your engineering awards, a bunch of medals and food and it feels weird knowing you won't be president for much longer, but you made the right choices. the girl who dyed her hair red, who was two years younger than the age she was supposed to, that disappeared for the start of this school year, was secretly number 3 the whole time. depending on her pathway, she could be an additional threat to your valedictorian spot, especially since you have no way to know where she is. you were exhausted for the whole day.
• 05/02/2024 ➣ you wake up and finish the essay only to see that it will accept up to 2000 characters, not 500 words, stupid system. you gave some more medals and bracelets and other stuff. only to find out the bracelets you got from the stem people at the nhs convention are the 4ocean recycled plastic and stainless steel medals that go for $20 to $30 a piece, we are rich gangggg. you work hard to make a field trip happen even though you aren't going on the field trip yourself. you walk back into a race war where your engineering teacher is going up against like six ignorant students about the use of the n word, it was so stupid and then they unironically starting doing tiktok dances which was honestly some of the funniest shit you've ever seen that left you stunned for a go 40 minutes. your friend is keeping two things from you and it seems like one of them is a crush on someone you know but what's the other is. you go to a pep rally to talk about upcoming testing, of course it's not really the ones you take but the very easy math and reading tests so whatever. you had a great nhs meeting with elections and new officiers that hyped you up too, you made your final decision with the board and wished everyone a fairwell as both the seniors and the advisor will be leaving. the advisor shares that a lot of administration and the english department will be leaving due to the principal, something good to know for the future. your friend got a poor sat score but you realize you both can study together, unfortunately, why are you kinda feeling the vibe that's going down now between the two of yall?
• 05/03/2024 ➣ "i always wanted to stunt so hard (yeah,) i always wanted to ride that whip (always). i always wanted to fuck that bitch (i always,) thank you, god, i fucked that bitch (god). i always wanted to live this life (life,) i always wanted to wear that ice (all this ice). i always wanted paradise, i always wanted paradise, look. now it don't take a lot to make you rich (to make you rich). i'm addicted to a lot of crazy shit (i'm addicted to a lot of crazy shit). but i feel like money is the best drug (best drug). sometimes hate can be the best love." you go into this damn ap chem class one final time before the exam, once you're done with this exam, pass or fail, you don't want to hear a single thing out of this teacher's mouth. you spend some time in another stupid ap class where he just feeds you busy work without any real proper skill or examination for the other ap test. these classes are really just for the gpa boost. your friend got number one in his class, which is good for him. you prepare for an actual ap exam well for ap bio and prepare for the hell that comes on monday.
• 05/04/2024 ➣ after waking up, you study some ap chem. after studying, you get a haircut from the same barber with all his flaws and get back to studying for hours and hours. you take a break to admire your friends' prom pics and whatever. then you get back up to study again and chill. you have a slight chance.
• 05/05/2024 ➣ happy birthday atsushi! you study some more for ap chem but you honestly think it's hopeless at this point. you start playing bungo mayoi and fortnite instead. you go to an awards ceremony and worry that you may not get certain scholarships due to you not having a connection to a certain teacher. your mother tells you not to worry and how it should be based on merit, and you think you'll follow that mindset. there may be no such thing as eternity, these days may not be the ones that we had wanted. yet the next daybreak comes, held together by a thin, fragile thread. no matter what sort of world we live in. i'm willing to live on if you're a part of it within my hell, you were my heart beating on without fail. just as you had done for me. you know you're about to fail that exam and its messing up your entire mood, but it's okay. you'll learn chemistry in the future and use those skills to your advantage. you can only fight the good fight.
• 05/06/2024 ➣ you wake up nervous but you got to take the test. all your friends wish you good luck as you continue to complain about the teacher. you had to go somewhere during study hall only to see that brownie has brought her entire friend group to your study hall and she's still talking about you. after a decent lunch and talk with your teacher about how he feels about his shortcomings, you go and take the test. your necklace and bracelet charm broke but you keep pushing on. it was a long and hard process, but yall did the tiktok where you're like "imma get a 100" and took the test. it was cold, it was hard, it was stressful, and you probably failed, however, you came out with warm sunlight beating on your skin along with a new lesson to start learning by yourself more. your friend got francis ssr three times in a row, how sad.
• 05/07/2024 ➣ a new day means you wake up earlier. so someone needs to tell people on the bus to stop sleeping and/or manspreading cause they are taking up too much space. you go study for a certification exam only your friend to catch you listening to one of your spotify playlist. you then chill and talk to folks, play connect 4, and realize that apparently dtb girl's ugly ass insecure ass boyfriend might've forced her to send her nudes? yeah once you confirm this, you might have to kill a bitch. you spend lunch talking about how insecure people were at prom and spend third period playing suika and smash flas 2. ap bio was chill as usual and much better than ap chem as always. you start making progress to get a job interview and also take your certification exam and pass with a 90% without any help. what sucks is that you technically wasted $900 based on the situation, so you're not all that happy about getting certified. you rush on us history notes, talk shit about this ugly face, and head to bed.
• 05/08/2024 ➣ more days and more tests await you this month. you talk about making an aviation club and it seems to be a go. you checked up with tutoring and got your bracelet and necklace fixed. you find out that the insecure bitch made dtb feel pressured to send nudes but never did, however, you still don't like how he gets insecure if a person that likes girls talks to her. relationship ladies and gents: don't feel insecureeeeee!!!!!! you watered the plants and had good talks and see progress being made. you did a lot of work in us history and got to go home on a normal time. bro kendrick is so good, he bout to be the whole chronicle entry. "dear aubrey. i know you probably thinkin' i wanted to crash your party. but truthfully, i don't have a hatin' bone in my body. this supposed to be a good exhibition within the game. but you fucked up the moment you called out my family's name. why you had to stoop so low to discredit some decent people?. guess integrity is lost when the metaphors doesn't reach you. and i like to understand 'cause your house was never a home. thirty-seven, but you showin' up as a seven-year-old. you got gamblin' problems, drinkin' problems, pill-poppin' and spendin' problems. bad with money, whorehouse. solicitin' women problems, therapy's a lovely start. but i suggest some ayahuasca, strip the ego from the bottom. i try to empathize with you 'cause i know that you ain't been through nothin'. crave entitlement, but wanna be liked so bad that it's puzzlin'. no dominance, let's recap moments when you didn't fit in. no secret handshakes with your friend. no culture cachet to binge, just disrespectin' your mother. identity's on the fence, don't know which family will love ya. the skin that you livin' in is compromised in personas. can't channel your masculine even when standin' next to a woman. you a body shamer, you gon' hide them baby mamas, ain't ya? you embarrassed of 'em, that's not right, that ain't how mama raised us. take that mask off, i wanna see what's under them achievements. why believe you? you never gave us nothin' to believe in. 'cause you lied about religious views, you lied about your surgery. you lied about your accent and your past tense, all is perjury. you lied about your ghostwriters, you lied about your crew members. they all pussy, you lied on 'em, i know they all got you in 'em. you lied about your son, you lied about your daughter, huh. you lied about them other kids that's out there hopin' that you come. you lied about the only artist that can offer you some help. fuck a rap battle, this a long life battle with yourself"
• 05/09/2024 ➣ kendrick is too good dawg. you wake up and ask yourself if you're ready to go to school with such a headache. you spend the first part of your day in a practice mock exam. you finish and leave to get your trophy and head over to lunch. you didn't have much people to talk to, so you did unfortunately have to talk to brownie but it was an alright convo, she needs to knew she's a certified yapper tho. you head over to ap bio with the feeling of not doing any work, and trying to make up an agenda while sining kendrick lyrics with the group. you have a quick meeting that shows this new generation of nhs is capable and head home after your friend scolded biggie cheese on why friendships between girls tend to last shorter than friendships between boys. you watch half of the newgrounds sonic rpg series and got some work done, and some bracelets on the way.
• 05/10/2024 ➣ you cleaned up your room and got yourself ready for school and ready for vistors to greet you when you arrive from school. you go to school to prepare for a presentation and a test in a cold classroom filled with annoying flies. a fire drill takes you out of the freezer only to hear a presentation about the navy, which required you to go up and down the school with sodas. you couldn't even hear your ap english teacher review your essay because of how busy you were. apparently, a certain person was reading essays after your teacher told him to organize them with mr. davis and there were some comments shared, based on the people, you assume that this short guy was trying to flirt with brownie, and that despite whatever going on and how there is no true harm, it seems like a way to flirt. you decide to call this out when you go to the ap english teacher and see not flaws with your reasoning. not only that, but it seems like the witch that dated the rat is starting drama with strawberry shortcake and chocolate fountain, you're quite tired of it. it doesn't help that your friend who you call miles morales wants to get back with his ex, which happens to be the witch. this all tires you out and then you go to class to take a test, hear your name get mispronouced on the annoucements, and go home with a nice trophy with your right hand. and the gang sure knows how to make you feel happy with their physical affection and their kind words. you go home only to eat a chicken tender publix sub and go back out to ja for a quick event. while you got your stipend and an additional giftcard totaling to $300 and also had fun with being hypemen and playing charades with a loud and proud student with a supposed $4500 necklace, you hear from your friend that your tall friend has recently lost his grandmother. the same tall friend that called you on 8/25/23 to check in on why you missed two days of school when your grandmother passed and you were stuck in jamaica. you want to help but you remember that everyone would only remind you of your moruning, so you don't know how to approach. even your baby cousin doesn't know what happened to your grandmother, and that's a bad reminder that your mother tried to comfort you about, but you took her hands of you. you now move knowing more and more things are going to shit and that you're surrounded by death.
• 05/11/2024 ➣ you're so tired that you scared your uncle by almost jumping in your bed even though it's the guest bed for tonight. you fall asleep on the couch and wake up to play countless games with your cousin. you found out about pokerogue and now its a huge problem for you because you know you are going to get addicted. you guys going somewhere out to eat but you find out that you could potentially see brownie. it seems that going to the beach or even hearing her name (since its a common name) might just forever bother you. and theres even more drama about the witch that you can't stand. you come home stuff to play more pokerogue on the cold hard tile.
• 05/12/2024 ➣ it's mothers day and that means we also get to avoid church. your pokerogue addiction has become a problem and you've been playing on the cold hard tile for hours now. you fall asleep with the lights on to keep on playing and you keep on trying until you beat it. family finally left, and that means you get your room back as well as the chance to get complete the missing work. after decimating an frq, you give your mother her mother's day gift while at the same time hearing how she feels about her father's condition and what happened to your grandmother.
• 05/13/2024 ➣ you go to school to learn more about your ap chem's dog with a pooping problem then actual shit in ap chem. you prepare for your exam one last time with words of number 2 surpassing you, good words about students trying to be like you, and words about you being fine no matter pass or fail. too bad brownie cares if you could date hispanic women. while you play pokerogue you finish up the service hour sheets and talk to the gifted teacher about your plan. you work on us history for the rest of the night and go to sleep.
• 05/14/2024 ➣ you prepared for your ap english exam with these words flowing in your head: "i'm a survivor. i'm not gon' give up. i'm not gon' stop. i'm gon' work harder. i'm a survivor. i'm gonna make it. i will survive. keep on survivin'. i'm a survivor. i'm not gon' give up. i'm not gon' stop. i'm gon' work harder. i'm a survivor. i'm gonna make it. i will survive. keep on survivin'." your stomach was hurting you for most of the morning, but your teacher was able to buy donuts, yogurt, bananas, and more stuff, he is so kind. yall are went in to prepare for the test to hear your proctor, the ap chem teacher, talk more about her dog's literal shit. brownie must've had a rough morning, she got a detention for wearing the wrong shoes and also just couldn't deal with it, so she cried for half the mcq and even before then. you had a horrible stomach ache, but you confidently answered both the mcq and finished all the essays. you got two new secme medals to add to your collection. you acted pregant to display roe v wade in a game of charades and showed more administration why you're number one. you get work done while playing pokerogue.
• 05/15/2024 ➣ after going to sleep real late, you get ready to be a teacher's assistant for the day. your name has been called about a special scholarship opportunity you missed due to the school not paying attention, but at least you got the chance to go tomorrow. you were a ta but why your teacher always gotta ask about brownie and how she felt after crying. you prepare for ap bio with the group one last time and start working on your trifolds for engineering. you go home and start to prepare an event tomorrow. you do some final work for ap bio.
• 05/16/2024 ➣ "what sukuna saw is the strongest ghost that he has buried with his own hands." did the king come back?