𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭, 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐟 :𝐩

𝐏𝐒: 𝐢 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐢'𝐦 𝐛𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐥

• i’m 26 as i started this but i get compliments that i look like 18 lmao.
• i live in a country where typhoons and extreme heat loves to stay.
• i never had a real nickname. some of my friends call me in random.
• i’m INFJ-T according to 16personalities test.
• i have acrophobia, astraphobia and trypophobia. i get chills even when i see a picture that frightens me.
• i have astigmatism, allergic rhinitis, and motion sickness.
• i have mood swings since when i was born according to my mom lol.
• i embrace the fact that i’m 99% made up of flaws.
• am i a bad person? no. but i may not be your favorite and you may not agree with what i do or sometimes you’ll find me annoying but that’s okay. this is me :)
• i lack sense of humor and self-esteem.
• i’m the queen of overthinking and procrastinating.
• i’m not loud and i’m not that good in socializing tbh.
• i can be a real son of a bitch but the world needs kindness so i fight it.
• i do have limits. illness, mental illness and racism are off limits. if i see you make jokes or bully people about those i’ll break the mutual and might as well your neck.
• i’m a very private person. i’d rather stay quiet than explain my problems to people who are just curious and really don’t care.
• i appreciate people who accepts every flaw that i have that’s why i’m not scared to show my flaw because that’s makes us human. i do bad things sometimes but who else aren’t? we’re not made to be perfect :)
• i value RESPECT. regardless of social status, if you don’t show respect to maintenance staff, service crews, or any workers then don’t expect me to respect you.
• i also value HUMILITY. i don’t care how much wealth you have or brand of clothes you wear, what matters is how humble and how sincere you are in helping others.
• i’m very impatient and short-tempered. i hate waiting.
• i’m weird and i talk to myself A LOT.
• my confidence is low and my insecurities are high.
• i get easily distracted and i have poor impulse control.
• i always cry every time i see people even the slightest bit sad, it’s my fatal flaw.
• i like to write down notes since i have a bad memory sometimes. that's why i made this account too!
• i could spend hours organizing things so that it looks like the way i want.
• my desktop files are organized in folders within folders.
• i don’t leave my desk unclean and i always clean it before i use it.
• i think i have OCD to make it short.
• i’ve always been mistaken as a lesbian because of my short hair.
• i don’t do drugs and smoke. never have and never will.
• i do like volunteering and helping elderly strangers.
• i’d rather go on a chill long drive or anywhere with the people i’m close to than clubbing.
• i prefer the relaxing scenery of beach and the sound of nature or rustling trees than crowded and loud bars.
• but i love listening to EDM, R&B and Hip-Hop.
• deep and meaning conversations capture my attention.
• i love spending my weekend watching movies or tv series.
• i'm not officially diagnosed with ADHD, but i think i might have it because i sometimes have trouble focusing on things.
• i can read and write english but i can’t speak fluently. that's why i'm afraid of job interviews or public speaking.
• i don’t have any tattoos but i’m pretty sure i’m getting one soon. hopefully my parents will allow me!
• cinderella is my favorite disney princess of all time and i will always be a kid at heart.
• i love sunsets.
• i like to think that coincidences have a special meaning.
• i love everything related to art but drawing hates me. i can barely draw a stick man or a perfect circle hehe.
• i used to join fun runs but i had my knee injury way back 2015 so i wasn't able to continue it.
• i’m not a bookworm nor a bibliophile but i like to read YA novels.
• i’m scared of balloons and fire crackers because i hate loud sounds.
• i remove the burnt part of the bread because i don’t like it.
• i’m not a big fan of spicy foods but i like samyang.
• I LOVE CHEESE SO MUCH!!!
• my favorite food that i’ll never get tired of eating is SWEET CORN
• i only eat dinuguan with sugar
• i don’t like pickles and olives.
• i prefer white chocolate than dark chocolate.
• my comfort foods are mac and cheese, potato corner's french fries (barbecue and sour cream), paotsin's dumpling laksa, taco bell's potato fiesta, sopas, and buttered sweet corn.
• i’m a mommy’s girl and i love my mom so much, i'll do everything for her.
• my parents are strict. they don’t allow me to go out despite the fact that i’m getting old.
• i want to have kids, at least 2. if my first born was a girl i’ll name her Solana. i really like that name.
• when i’m upset or pissed i tend to cry.
• i'm very sentimental. i keep the simplest things as long as they have memories attached to them.
• i google everything. like EVERYTHING.
• i’m such a low maintenance person and i’m not materialistic. i’m actually practical and “kuripot” when it comes to saving money, please don’t get me wrong!
• my favorite cartoon character is PEPPA PIG – she’s my spirit animal!
• BUTTERFINGER and TWIX are the best chocolates in the universe - fite me!
• i like my wine iced~
• i love thrift and grocery shopping!!!!!
• i love coconut and passion fruit juices.
• i’m a pen and notebook hoarder! sometimes i will buy a pen when i just bought one yesterday. do i need help already? lol.
• i love flowers and anything with floral print.
• beach and museums are a place of solace for me. i feel disconnected from everything when i’m able to go there. it's like a therapy.
• strangers randomly spill their rants to me a lot in real life and most of the time they ask for directions.
• my favorite color is red. i also like yellow, brown, and burgundy.
• i enjoy watching horror movies but i regret it most of the time when i go to sleep.
• i can finish an entire season of a tv show or a whole kdrama in just one sitting lol.
• i love watching zombie movies. i re-watched train to busan and world war z for the 5th time HAHA!
• i’m part of a twitter stan so i can say mean things sometimes.
• mostly, i tweet my feelings, rants and thoughts on twitter but i promise i don’t tweet anything triggering.
• for a little over 2 years ago i had my cyst operation.
• i love tons of music artist but my holy trinity honorable mention favorites are: BTS (Bangtan Sonyeondan), 5SOS (5 Seconds of Summer) and Coldplay.
• for tv shows, there's a lot! see my separate list for this
• i’m a #1 jamie sullivan and landon carter stan since y’all seem to forget that they exist.
• i’m a frustrated ballerina and figure skater. that’s why i love watching winter olympics and movies about ballet and figure skating.
• when i was in middle school, i'm into writing random stories/scripts.
• i’d rather go on a solo travel than with many people.
• when i’m excited about something i can’t sleep and sometimes i’m having diarrhea lol.
• i’m that tita who buys keychains for every city that she’s been to.
• sometimes, when someone is pushing me out of my boundaries i tend to become cold, punishing and judgmental.
• I HATE CATS AND RATS SO FREAKING MUCH!!!
• i don’t like talking about politics and religion. if your relationship standards are based on these topics, don't waste your time with me.
• i love playing organization games.
• if I’ll be given a chance to migrate in other country it would be spain and in the city of garachico OR switzerland!
• my favorite ice cream flavors are: cookies and cream, coffee crumble and cheese and the only cake flavor that i love is: red velvet
• i'm a huge fan of BTS (became an ARMY in 2017) and i'm an ot7 stan but my ultimate bias is kim seokjin!
• i only wear makeup when I absolutely have to because my face is allergic to it.
• my closet is overflowing, yet I still feel like I need more clothes. marie kondo will never be my friend lol.
• i like surprises and surprising people.
• i’m a good listener rather than a talker!
• i always pratice CLAYGO and i think you should too!
• i have a small scar on my left palm because i accidently stab it when i’m crushing ice.
• i tested positive for covid-19 for the first month of 2022.
• because of the covid-19 pandemic, i discovered new hobbies such as cooking, baking, and urban gardening.
• my maximum cup of rice is 2 and i can only do that at mang inasal. mang inasal 4 lyf!
• but, i have this bad habit that i can't finish the last bite of my food.
• i recently discovered that i really don't have a list of "ulams" that i love haha i just really can live with pasta, pizza, and burger.
• on another note, i'm that asian who can live without rice.
• i'm such a very sensitive person and i don't respond well to anger, any criticisms or just because i did something wrong.
• i have this obsession of collecting ecobags LOL.
• i’ve only been into 3 serious relationships. some are just dates that i’m pretty sure i wasted my time.
• i'm 30 years old as i write this, and i still don't know my dream career, i just want to be the best that i can be and be financially independent.
• i hate the word "susmaryosep" especially when it is said directly to me like i am so stupid???
• i recently discovered that i'm ambidextrous.
• at 32 years old, i just learned how to eat okra.
• i have this obsession craving for chicken and smash burgers.
• i'm 34 years old as i write this, and i already figured out my dream career. my dream career is to become a wife and a mother. i know it may sound cliché, but not everyone’s idea of success is a corner office. some people might measure success by titles and status. for me, i measure it by the home i build, the love i nurture, and the family i raise. positions and roles are temporary, but the essence of being a wife and a mother is eternal.

my love language according to 5lovelanguages.com:

• quality time: 26%
• words of affirmation: 23%
• physical touch: 19%
• acts of service: 19%
• receiving gifts: 13%

my toxic traits:

• i delete or remove a message when nobody replies to it
• i always left a group chat when i'm feeling out of place
• i never speak up, i just get mad and distance myself until i'm not mad anymore.
• i always do silent and cold treatment when i'm sulking
• i trust people easily, but when they give me a reason to doubt them or if they hurt me, i easily lose my trust and interest and walk away.
• i expect people to have common sense and i get mad when they don't
• i forgive people for things that shouldn't be forgiven
• i always say it's okay / i'm okay even though it's not okay / i'm not okay just because i don't feel they really care

my pet peeves:

• slow replies
• slow walkers and talkers
• guys who slouch at uv express
• people who don't have spacial awareness
• people who use their mouth when looking for something instead using their eyes