★Timelines: 1

★IDs

• Genderqueer (he/they)
• Gay
• Monogamous

★Canonmates

• None found
• Looking for Patton, Roman, Logan, and Thomas
• Not at all looking for Deceit or Remus, please go away.

★General memories

• So I expect these memories are going to be problematic because they're about a very serious mental illness that the real Thomas Sanders does not have, but man. I can't help my canon.
• Thomas had either DID or OSDD or something similar, and we were his alters. Though he preferred the word sides because that's how he described us since he was young. We didn't have names for a long time because Thomas didn't see us as fully formed personalities.
• I remember Logan and Patton formed at very similar times when Thomas was very young. I think Patton held the most trauma memories. If I had to guess I would say they were formed so that Thomas could kind of switch gears and turn his emotions on and off when he needed to.
• I formed when he was in middle school, when he was in his emo phase. I was either fully fronting or co-conscious a lot at this time. The memories I hold are mostly bullying, depression/anxiety, identity questioning, and family problems.
• Roman formed in high school, when Thomas was very into cosplay, theater, and music. Me and Roman both really reflect his comforts and interests at the specific time of us being formed, whereas Patton was more attached to Thomas' evolving comforts.
• Thomas still had a successful Vine account and Youtube channel! I think he made videos about us too, later on in his Youtube career. Patton, Logan, and Roman all made their own introduction videos. I'm not sure if I ever did. I mostly avoided being out when a video was being recorded, but occasionally there would be a video with a bunch of friends or a vlog-esc video and I would be out for a sec, or I'd be co-conscious and ask Thomas to say something for me.
• Me and Roman were in somewhat of a relationship, same with Patton and Logan. I don't know if any of us really put labels on what we had. I know Patton and Logan were more serious than me and Roman were though.
• I have a small amount of memories about the 'dark sides.' I remember being close to Deceit and believing a lot of what he told me, because for some stupid reason I thought he only consistently lied to Thomas. Remus always freaked me out, but Deceit and I were like? Almost a duo of sorts? I don't want to say we were together. Anyway, he was highkey manipulating me and lying to me about the others being elitist assholes who didn't know what they were doing. I don't remember what got me to talk to the others more, but when I did I realized they were way nicer than I thought.
• Logan handled a lot of the technical, behind-the-scenes stuff. He very much liked to need needed/important, and he had the least amount of emotional baggage that prevented the rest of us from making logical decisions. You can see how this would be helpful. He guarded and distributed the memories when needed, and was sort of considered the "leader" of us core four. He couldn't control who was out though. I think that was mostly Thomas, but even then if one of us really wanted to front we could make it happen.
• I remember having a boyfriend in freshman year that was all my own. We were both closeted and super emo, I remember we would always match nail polish colors (usually some combination of black, purple, and/or red). This was when I was pretty much the main host and the one fronting like 90% of the time, so it made sense. But Thomas didn't really understand his identity or his mental health or anything, so I would always feel him getting very uncomfortable whenever I would make-out or go any further. It got to the point where the other guy didn't know what was going on with me and got frustrated enough to break up with me. I was pissed at myself and him and Thomas, and really sad, so I stopped fronting and pulled way back.
• That was what pushed me towards the darker sides and I became a persecutor. But in a similar way to the youtube videos, Thomas and the other main sides sort of drew me out and helped me feel like I was a good and necessary part of the group, so I became more of a protector, though I don't think I ever really resonated with that word.
• All the others identified as cis gay men. I think I identified as genderqueer because I was formed at the time Thomas was questioning his identity a lot and trying to figure out where he fit into the lgbt+ community, if at all.
• We were all really close to Joan.
• Thomas was the only one of us who really held onto religion, mostly. I was uncomfortable with it but I didn't want to stop Thomas from finding comfort in it. Logan though it was rediculous but learned to keep his mouth shut about it. Patton liked the soft nostalgia that he got from it. I don't remember if Roman had much of an opinion on it. Remus and Deceit both exploited it a lot though. The intrusive thoughts video shows how Remus used it, and Deceit used it to manipulate situations and make Thomas feel guilty for not agreeing with him.
• We all mostly identified with how the body looked. Roman was a little more conventionally handsome and had some more muscle, Logan was a bit thinner and taller, and Patton was a bit shorter and squishier. I was also a little shorter and looked a little younger, and I kept the purple hair dye.