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ZAP! unlaid / for 20 days
my sexual image isn't worth a shit.
If I were dead I couldn't attract a female fly.
I don't know what it is, but I distrust myself when I start to like a girl a lot.
It makes me nervous. I don’t say the right things or perhaps I start to examine, evaluate, compute what I am saying.
If I say, "Do you think it's going to rain?" and she says, "I don’t know," I start thinking: Does she really like me?
In other words I get a little creepy.
A friend of mine once said, "It's twenty times better to be friends with someone than it is to be in love with them."
I think he's right and besides, it's raining somewhere, programming flowers and keeping snails happy. That's all taken care of.
BUT if a girl likes me a lot and starts getting real nervous and suddenly begins asking me funny questions and looks sad if I give the wrong answers and she says things like, "Do you think it's going to rain?" and I say, "It beats me," and she says, "Oh," and looks a little sad at the clear blue California sky I think: Thank God, it's you, baby, this time instead of me.
Any thought that I have right now isn't worth a shit because I'm totally fucked up.
They are really having fun, drinking glasses of wine and talking about things that they like.
For fear you will be alone you do so many things that aren't you at all.
Fuck me like fried potatoes on the most beautifully hungry morning of my God-damn life.
Where you are now I will join you.
Your love Somebody else needs it I don't.
Do you think of me as often as I think of you?