i do not know what to think or do right now.

• it's really hard to care for someone, and well.
• sometimes, i just don't know how i'm acting. of course to me i would think i'm being... fine, but

to others of course,

it's just not the same. or. it's not how i would be treating them, like it's not right.

• or sometimes, blame it on the esteem.
• small shit hurts the most, it does. and i hate it when that happens because i know i'm not doing something right, but what?
• i wanna be there for you. heck, i'm willing to be there for anyone, if they want me to be there for them.

but then again,

• true friendship does not require words.
• true friendship makes redundant the need to say outrightly that attn is needed.

i don't know, okay. i don't know. life is so freaking hard when you've got the ball in your court aka internet.

i'm so ffffffftired i wanna sleep again and rewind then sleep again. why is life so hard why does no one care. much to say.