- 1: Please, if you get married (i hope you do) dont be like your parents. Its sad. They dont hug, kiss,show affection, say words of love. It really makes me cry. How can that be? Today, on their 22th anniversary my mom bought a cake (dont even know what made her do it) but it was so cold. They took a picture together and that was it. Not even one kiss or i love you, not even a slight movement of caring. I don't want that. I want to know that i am loved, i want to show that i love, and i want to enjoy everyday i have with the person by my side. I don't want to be cold and to teach my children thats how life is. Thats not life. I have tried a taste of it and i must say it felt very good, its magical, basically. I know time makes things complicated, but their situation is so messed up, i really cant see what and when it went wrong or if it was always like that. Please, if you see yourself in a situation like that, i hope you make a change. You deserve more. Love is worth feeling, and saying, and showing, dont hide it. And if there's no love, just fucking break up. (God, i know its not as sple as that, im just saying its not worth living for the rest of your life with someone that does not makes you happy or even makes you miserable just for the sake of not being alone or for raising you children). (23/12/20)
- 2: If you have any children ( i also hope you do) talk to them. Not just about wheather, or math, or clothing. Talk about YOUR lives, YOUR feelings, YOUR past. I am so SICK of not having the guts to ask my mom simple stuff. How was the day of your marriage? Who were your first husband and why did you get divorced? Are you happy with my father? What went wrong between you two? Tell me more about when you went to a motel? The situation is way worse with my father. I just have no connexion, no intimacy and i feel its gonna be forever like this. I don't know if this is a personal trait or if it was learnt, but i hate this situation. I wanna be close to my family, but i dont even know what means a to have a real family. I want to spend quality time with you, i want to talk about real stuff, have lots of fun, travel a lot, teach and learn, but the truth is that if they suddenly changed and became this ideal family to me, i wouldnt know what to do. I feel stuck. People say "be the change so they change with you" but i feel like they don't even care. My father is so blind by his old ways he doesn't even care about "more", why more if i can just be in my comfy zone. And i can not fight with that. Got that from my mom. We can't fight him. Don't even try. So, i am just saying that you should be a good friend with your daughter, it will make such a huge difference, uou know it. (23/12/20)
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