you are all doing well, right...? writing long slowly gets harder but i feel that if i dont write, ill forever forget the way to do so altogether, so im expressing everything out after a long while.

though i still dont know how and how much of these fleeting thoughts floating here and there deliver, i know that the thought of hoping that those who love us and those i love will always be at peace for a very long time has, without a doubt, not changed.

i,too, for so long, longed and searched for peace and stability but i cant seem to erase the thought that people, no - perhaps even myself - wanted some kind of drama. it feels like a weird disease where i start getting anxious even at the slightest bit of stability.

such a long time has passed since i came to Seoul at 17, but looking back now and then whilst walking, i get this odd feeling that nothings really changed. ultimately, im only 28 years old, and i think itll take a countless amount of time to become stable/firm (me) i wish/hope to be.

to be frank, ive started writing in my diary again as of recent, but i didnt feel like holding a pen today, so im writing it here. just like the past posts on fancafe, why do my words - the beginning and endings - always have such a similar expression. i miss you a lot, and am thinking of you often.

the winter that used to come so suddenly and scare us, has since at some point run away and is now a good season to walking in. when the wind becomes warmer, lets meet soon - wherever that place may be. unchangingly, as i have always done, i will continue to make music, reflecting on my mind and body every day and just wait. hehe

i miss you.