yeah whatever. i haven't been committing myself to making personal artworks recently because i've been caught up in between the cracks of commission work and school work. which is lovely. beautiful. a Blessing. it's like i feel my hands reaching out towards something, but not quite reaching it. i log onto the internet and half of the time i'm searching and half of the time i'm trying to create something and i wonder, really, how much of my creativity is just distraction from doing what's actually important.