11/08 — my confession

• from sleep-drunk texting to an actual confession. i can still recall the nervous jitters i was feeling at that time because who would have thought that i’d fall for you? i nearly knocked myself over with that grand realization. i mean, obviously i knew before this day came that i’d already had a bit of a crush on you, only it grew more and more as you started to become a constant in my life. you’re easy to like, easy on the heart, easy in the sense that i should have seen it coming, only if it weren’t for the drama and misunderstandings that set us apart. i’m usually not awkward with feelings and i don’t beat around the bush, but i was extremely shy on this particular day; shy with you, in general. i had the option of backing out and i was so close to doing just that. fortunately, i went through with it and suffered the agonizing moments of waiting for you to respond. you’re still a dummy for rejecting me by including the line “i would go for you, tsu.” in your so called rejection. but if you hadn't said that, i probably wouldn't have been as hopeful. guess i owe it to you for making me so optimistic.