- please remember that you may be small inside this word but to a person like me, you are beautiful
i know i repeat that i love you a lot, too much, i know, but today i can finally say it without limits and without judgements, to make your day the best ever. in a close future will be one year since i fell for you. even though i think love is such an empty word to describe what i feel for you. this crazy and unconditional feeling that lives inside me since the instant i saw you in that room full of chairs and everyone got shocked by your beauty and cuteness. and they weren't the only ones. in a mere millisecond you already were a seed planted in my heart, and at each minute you grew bigger, and before i could even stop you already were the huge tree that owned the place. you became whom i thought about the most. wh i cared about the most. you became my all. the line that divided you and everything else disappeared and everything else was gone, you took place of my thoughts, and you still do. may twenty sixth, it came to my knowledgemment the fact you had been eliminated of that stupid show, and i, even without seeing the scene i bursted into tears. crying was the only thing i could do, and i didn't even imagine what was coming. right away, you disappeared. they were awful times, where i woke up and just waited some kind of sign from you, a smoke one or even one letter. even though i was so thankful for your short apparition at instagram, but then it suddenly became only hyeongseop and euiwoong's. " chinese produce 101 " only listening to the fact that yuehua would participate left me scared, and then your name got on the way and it was confirmed. i am so sad of seeing you go through all this pression. again. but at least i see more of you now, my happiness that comes with your smile comes to me all the time now, and i get closer to you more every time. as everyone already know, i love you, i really do, and today above all the other days i wish the best the world has to offer, all you want and lots of love. i know no one read all of this. i know i am too cheesy talking about him. i am sorry. but i try to be the closest i can to how i really feel about him in words. happy birthday, my dear huang minghao.