i am the following characters, in a specific way thats tied into my self-narrative and personal beliefs about reality. i feel that this experience is unique, and would be misrepresented by being described as kinning. but i occasionally break my own rule.

• bedman (guilty gear)
• william macbeth/black (blood blockade battlefront)

i relate and connect to the following, but in a much more lighthearted way that i often describe as kinning. the depth and form of the connections tend to vary and shift. some are a little bit, mostly, or entirely jokes.

• the lodger (knock knock)
• karkat vantas (homestuck)
• asriel (undertale)
• psycho mantis (mgs)
• maeryberry hearn/yakumo yukari (touhou)
• infinite (sonic)
• eva yan (pathologic)
• jevil (deltarune)
• pierrot (pantomime/commedia dell'arte)
• dark matter/zero/02/void (kirby)
• eclypson (franken)
• mobius, misteln schariac, the cocoon, herta (hoyoverse) (happily)
• sunday (hoyoverse) (resentfully)
• wonweek (hoyoverse) (mood to be determined)
• ysme (soulsov)
• sheep, mantises, sea angels (animals)
• fushigi freak: orbulus raymond, contact lord
• honkai star rail fan animation video "The Bards - Your New Reality ( A Honkai Star Rail Animated Music Video)"
• i have some kind of thing about the song gymnopedie no. 1
• this pic i found (i dunno who the charater is): https://static.zerochan.net/Shirou.Kamui.1024.315.webp

the following are concepts that im drawn to, find familiarity with, and which inform my self image.

• abyss, void, holes (biological, geographical, astronomical, metaphysical, etc) and relatedly, chaos
• optics, mirrors, spectrum of light, the gaze, imagery of disembodied human eyes
• dreams and sleep
• theater, cinema, performance, roleplaying, jesters and clowns, masquerade, puppets and dolls, and so on. fiction and its entanglement with reality. spectacle...
• video game final bosses, secret bosses, etc