- Being born.
- Without being born, the rest of the significant moments would have never happened.
- Moving to Pinch.
- I doubt life in Chesapeake would have been my cup o' tea. Also, I honestly believe I got a better education at the schools around here and was exposed to a better, more diverse group of people.
- Seeing Labyrinth for the first time.
- Maybe this is a lame significant moment, but it truly was significant. It introduced me into a world of make believe that I was mesmerized with. It sparked my creativity when I was younger and introduced me to David Bowie. Without this movie, and Bowie, I honestly would be a totally different person.
- Meeting Sloan.
- Sloan was an amazing individual who I was lucky enough to have been friends with. We grew up together and our moms were very close for a while. Sloan was absolutely unique in a world where that is rare, and it is because of her that in middle school my outlook changed completely. It introduced me to this world of tattoos and piecings and colored hair and different lifestyles, and this world make me more comfortable than I had ever been in my life. If it weren't for her being in my life, I fear I would have been a mindless Barbie for many years.
- Meeting Sarah P. & Stephanie P.
- During the afformentioned middle school years, I was trying to figure out who I was and where I belonged. I found exactly where I belonged with these two girls. Although they had been friends for years and years, they included me in their inner circle and we all formed a bond that was stronger than I had ever known. I looked up to them, I could rely on them, and they could rely on me. These were the purest friendships I had ever known. Without them I would have been completely alone and I don't really know if I would even be here today if it weren't for them. I will always feel close to these two, even throughout times of separation.
- Going to church.
- When the Criner family took me to church with them, I was hesitant. I had always thought the worst of Christians. But when I went in there, there was a message playing on the screen about something I was struggling with very heavily at the time-- cutting. I felt it was a sign and although I do not strictly follow any one religion anymore, it was this event that helped me transform my life into a calm, peaceful, non-destructive one.
- The Break-Up with Criner.
- My relationship with Criner was my first serious one. At the time, I felt as if I needed him in my life because he was the one who had gotten me out of several bad situations (read above). Things progressively got worse and he started talking to other girls more and I felt worthless. When I was with him, I had abandoned so many of my friends from before because he hadn't liked them. When we broke up, I felt even more worthless and as though I had no one in my life who cared about me anymore. I dropped 20 pounds because I couldn't force myself to eat. I started cutting again. I was a mess. Throughout all of this, Stephanie P. was by my side, helping me through it all. It was because of her that I found a strength inside of me that I didn't know was there, and because of the break-up that I matured and realized my happiness is kind of important, too.
- When my cat, Whiskers, came strolling up to my house.
- This cat started my love affair with animals. She was wise and pretty and perfect. Even when she had to have her tail amputated, she was still the happiest little kitty in town. She was in my life for a good 14 years when she passed away, and I still cry over her every so often. I really cannot wait to cross that rainbow bridge and see her again someday.
- My venture into the lounge.
- When I started at State, I didn't have many friends and due to my anti-social nature I wanted to be in an area that wasn't heavily trafficked during my time between classes. A couple of weeks into my first semester, I found the perfect place. An upstairs lounge that people were too afraid to enter. In time, the people that hung out up there and I became the best of friends. There is Paul, who always listens to me vent about EVERYTHING and honestly tries his hardest to give me advice and cheer me up. Steve is my dealer when it comes to awesome PC games and is pretty awesome at making me lose the game, too. Rob always forces me to use my brain a little more than I normally would, and his fiancee Tess always helps me see things clearly and from a more mature perspective when I'm acting childish. I love those people up there.
- Meeting Adam Weaver.
- One day when I was up in the lounge, this dude is all black clothing entered the room and sat down at the table where I was sitting. He has on this awesome Freddu Krueger belt buckle and a cKy backpack, so I knew he was cool to begin with. Then I found out he was Adam Weaver, a guy for whom a local rockfest is held every year. From that moment on we were so close, like we had known each other forever. He has cancer, and I have never really been that close to someone with such a serious illness. He is so optimistic and happy about everything, though, and he makes me realize that I shouldn't sweat the small stuff. He is honestly an angel in my eyes, and I care about him more than anyone will ever know.
may 25 2009 ∞
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