- "And if you wanted me, you really should've showed, and if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow, and it's alright now. But we were something, don't you think so?"
- "But we were something, don't you think so? Roaring twenties, tossing pennies in the pool. And if my wishes came true, it would've been you."
- "Persist and resist the temptation to ask you: if one thing had been different, would everything be different today?"
- "Rosé flowing with your chosen family, and it would've been sweet if it could've been me."
- "In my defense, I have none, for never leaving well enough alone."
- "In my defense, I have none, for digging up the grave another time. But it would've been fun if you would've been the one."
- "And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed, you put me on and said I was your favorite."
- "When you are young, they assume you know nothing. But I knew you, playing hide-and-seek and giving me your weekends. I knew you, your heartbeat on the High Line, once in twenty lifetimes."
- "I knew you. Tried to change the ending, Peter losing Wendy."
- "I knew you, leaving like a father, running like water."
- "When you are young, they assume you know nothing. But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss, I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs."
- "I knew everything when I was young. I knew I'd curse you for the longest time, chasing shadows in the grocery line. I knew you'd miss me once the thrill expired, and you'd be standing in my front porch light."
- "You drew stars around my scars, but now I'm bleeding, cause I knew you, stepping on the last train. Marked me like a bloodstain."
- "Their parties were tasteful, if a little loud. The doctor had told him to settle down; it must have been her fault his heart gave out."
- "There goes the maddest woman this town has ever seen. She had a marvelous time ruining everything."
- “And then it was bought by me.”
- I can see you standing, honey, with his arms around your body, laughin', but the joke's not funny at all."
- "And it took you five whole minutes to pack us up and leave me with it, holdin' all this love out here in the hall."
- "I can see you staring, honey, like he's just your understudy. Like you'd get your knuckles bloody for me."
- "I'm not your problem anymore, so who am I offending now?"
- "I think I've seen this film before, and I didn't like the ending. You're not my homeland anymore, so who am I defending now?"
- "You were my town, now I'm in exile seeing you out. I think I've seen this film before."
- "Second, third, and hundredth chances, balancing on breaking branches. Those eyes add insult to injury."
- "You're not my homeland anymore, so what am I defending now?"
- “'I think I’ve seen this film before, so I’m leaving at the side door.' 'So step right out, there’s no amount of crying I can do for you.'”
- "All this time, I never learned to read your mind (never learned to read my mind). I couldn't turn things around (you never turned things around), cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs). So many signs (you didn't even see the signs)."
- "We line up weeping in a sunlit room. And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes, too."
- “Even in my worst days, did I deserve, babe, all the hell you gave me?”
- "I didn't have it in myself to go with grace, cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave."
- "And if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed. Look at how my tears ricochet."
- "You know I didn't want to have to haunt you, but what a ghostly scene."
- "You wear the same jewels that I gave you as you bury me."
- "And I can go anywhere I want, anywhere I want, just not home.
- “And you can aim for my heart, go for blood, but you would still miss me in your bones."
- "And I still talk to you when I'm screaming at the sky. And when you can't sleep at night, you hear my stolen lullabies."
- "You turned into your worst fears, and you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain, crossing out the good years."
- “You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same.”
- "I want you to know I'm a mirrorball: I can change everything about me to fit in.”
- “You are not like the regulars, the masquerade revelers, drunk as they watch my shattered edges glisten."
- "I'm still a believer but I don't know why. I've never been a natural, all I do is try, try, try.”
- “I'm still on that trapeze, I'm still trying everything to keep you looking at me."
- "I'm a mirrorball. I'll show you every version of yourself tonight."
- "Sweet tea in the summer, cross your heart, won't tell no other. And though I can't recall your face, I still got love for you."
- "Your braids like a pattern, love you to the moon and to Saturn.”
- “Passed down like folk songs, the love lasts so long."
- “And I’ve been meaning to tell you: I think your house is haunted, and that’s why your dad is mad all the time.”
- “Grab your dolls and a sweater, we’ll move to India forever.”
- "We can be pirates, then you won't have to cry or hide in the closet. And just like a folk song, our love will be passed on."
- "Please picture me in the weeds before I learned civility. I used to scream, ferociously, any time I wanted."
- “I was too scared to jump in, but I was high with the skies of Pennsylvania under me.”
- “Are there still beautiful things?”
- “Salt air, and the rest on your door; I never needed anything more. “
- “Whispers of ‘are you sure?’ ‘never have I ever before.’”
- "But I can see us, lost in the memory. August slipped away into a moment in time, cause it was never mine."
- "Your back beneath the sun, wishing I could write my name on it."
- "Will you call when you're back at school? I remember thinking I had you."
- "Back when we were still changing for the better, wanting was enough. For me, it was enough.”
- “To live for the hope of it all, cancel plans just in case you'd call and say "meet me behind the mall".“
- “So much for summer love, and saying "us", cause you weren't mine to lose."
- "But do you remember? Remember when I pulled up and said "get in the car" and then canceled my plans just in case you'd call? Back when I was living for the hope of it all."
- “I’m having a hard time adjusting. I had the shiniest wheels, now they’re rusting.”
- "I didn't know if you'd care if I came back. I have a lot of regrets about that."
- "They told me all of my cages were mental, so I got wasted like all my potential."
- "My words shoot to kill when I'm mad. I have a lot of regrets about that."
- “And maybe I don’t know quite what to say, but I’m here in your doorway, and I just wanted you to know that this is me trying.”
- "I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere. Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here, pouring out my heart to a stranger. But I didn't pour the whiskey."
- "You're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town. And I just wanted you to know that this is me trying."
- "Make sure nobody sees you leave, hood over your head, keep your eyes down. Tell your friends you're out for a run, you'll be flushed when you return."
- "And that's the thing about illicit affairs and clandestine meetings and longing stares: it's born from just one single glance, but it dies and it dies and it dies a million little times."
- "Leave the perfume on the shelf that you picked out just for him, so you leave no trace behind like you don't even exist."
- "Take the words for what they are: a dwindling, mercurial high. A drug that only worked the first few hundred times."
- "And you wanna scream: don’t call me kid, don’t call me baby. Look at this idiotic fool that you made me.”
- “You showed me colors you know I can’t see with anyone else.”
- “You taught me a secret language I can't speak with anyone else, and you know damn well for you I would ruin myself, a million little times."
- "A string that pulled me out of all the wrong arms right into that dive bar. Something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed wire, chains around my demons, wool to brave the seasons. One single thread of gold tied me to you."
- "Gold was the color of the leaves when I showed you around Centennial Park. Hell was the journey, but it brought me heaven."
- "What do you sing on your drive home? Do you see my face in the neighbor's lawn? Does she smile? Or does she mouth "fuck you forever"?"
- "What did you think I'd say to that? Does a scorpion sting when fighting back? They strike to kill, and you know I will."
- "Women like hunting witches, too, doing your dirtiest work for you. It's obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two together."
- “And when you say I’m mad, I get more mad. What about that?”
- "And when you say I seem angry, I get more angry, and there's nothing like a mad woman."
- "Good wives always know. She should be mad, should be scathing like me, but no one likes a mad woman.”
- “What a shame she went mad. You made her like that."
- "Keep your helmet, keep your life, son, just a flesh wound. Here's your rifle. Crawling up the beaches now, 'sir, I think he's bleeding out', and some things you just can't speak about."
- "Something med school did not cover: someone's daughter, someone's mother holds your hand through plastic now, 'doc, I think she's crashing out', and some things you just can't speak about."
- "Only twenty minutes to sleep, but you dream of some epiphany. Just one single glimpse of relief to make some sense of what you've seen."
- "Betty, I won't make assumptions about why you switched your homeroom, but I think it's cause of me.”
- “Betty, one time I was riding on my skateboard when I passed your house, it's like I couldn't breathe."
- "The worst thing that I ever did was what I did to you. But if I just showed up at your party, would you have me? would you want me? would you tell me to go fuck myself or lead me to the garden?"
- "Betty, I know where it all went wrong: your favorite song was playing from the far side of the gym, I was nowhere to be found, I hate the crowds, you know that. Plus, I saw you dance with him."
- "I was walking home on broken cobblestones just thinking of you when she pulled up like a figment of my worst intentions.”
- "Those days turned into nights. Slept next to her but I dreamt of you all summer long."
- "Betty, right now is the last time I can dream about what happens when you see my face again."
- "The only thing I wanna do is make it up to you. So I showed at your party.”
- “Will you have me? Will you love me? Will you kiss me on the porch in front of all your stupid friends?”
- “If you kiss me, will it be just like I dreamed it? Will it patch your broken wings?"
- “I’m only seventeen, I don’t know anything but I know I miss you, standing in your cardigan, kissing in my car again.”
- “Our coming of age has come and gone.”
- "And you know that I'd swing with you for the fences, sit with you in the trenches, give you my wild, give you a child, give you the silence that only comes when two people understand each other."
- "I never had the courage of my convictions as long as danger is near.”
- “The devil’s in the details, but you’ve got a friend in me.”
- “All these people think love is for show, but I would die for you in secret.”
- "You know I’d give you my sunshine, give you my best, but the rain is always gonna come if you're standing with me."
- "Would it be enough if I could never give you peace?"
- "My only one, my smoking gun, my eclipsed sun; this has broken me down.”
- “My twisted knife, my sleepless night, my winless fight; this has frozen my ground."
- “My best laid plan, your sleight of hand.”
- "My barren land, I am ash from your fire."
- "You know I left a part of me back in New York. You knew the hero died, so what's the movie for?"
- "Your faithless love is the only hoax I believe in."
- "Don't want no other shade of blue but you. No other sadness in the world would do."
- "You knew it still hurts underneath my scars from when they pulled me apart, but what you did was just as dark. Darling, this was just as hard as when they pulled me apart."
jul 24 2020 ∞
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