- "I love everybody because I love you."
- "So please hurry, leave me, I can't breathe. Please don't say you love me."
- "I glow pink in the night in my room. I've been blossoming alone over you."
- "When I saw the girl looked just like me, I thought 'must be lonely loving someone trying to find their way out of a maze'."
- "I steal a few breaths from the world for a minute, and then I'll be nothing forever, and all of my memories, and all of the things I have seen will be gone."
- "But you knew from the start it was us, didn't you? It just took me a while till I knew."
- "I haven't given you what you need. You wanted me but couldn't reach me. I'm sorry, it should’ve been me."
- "And I am relieved that I'd left my room tidy. They'll think of me kindly when they come for my things."
- "Maybe when you tell your friends, you can tell them what you saw in me, and not how I turned out to be."
- "My God, I'm so lonely, so I open the window to hear sounds of people."
- "I don't know what to do without you. I don't know where to put my hands."
- "I always thought the choice was mine, and I was right but I just chose wrong. I start the day lying and end with the truth that I'm dying for the knife."
- "Well I went through my list of friends and found I had no one to tell of this overwhelming clean feeling. Strange serenity."
- "And I'm the idiot with the painted face in the corner, taking up space, but when he walks in, I am loved, I am loved."
- "Though I've held on, can't carry it much longer. On the ceiling dancing are the things all come and gone."
- "And I know no one will save me, I'm just asking for a kiss. Give me one good movie kiss and I'll be alright."
- "I pick an age when I'm gonna disappear until then I can try again."
- "I broke what you gave me, but you kept giving more, and I'm sorry for taking, but I keep wanting more."
- "Then in the morning I walked home alone and the businessmen saw my bones."
- "I don't need the world to see that I've been the best I can be, but I don't think I could stand to be where you don't see me."
- "I always knew the world moves on, I just didn't know it would go without me."
- "And I say your name in hopes you'll hear it in the stars."
- "I always want you when I'm finally fine."
- "Cried out a creak and opened to show me what's beyond it: a hopeless violence. I named it love."
- "Now I lay as I study a blank wall. Would you spare me your voice if I call?"
- "I locked the door behind him and I turned around to see all the cookie wrappers and the empty cups of tea."
- "It's just that I fell in love with a war, nobody told me it ended, and it left a pearl in my head."
- "Why am I lonely for lonesome love?"
- "You told me once you were happy to have me, but I never gave me away."
- "To the little place you would tell me about when you'd sense that I'd want to escape."
- "And I was so young when I behaved twenty five, yet now I find I've grown into a tall child."
- "Today I will wear my white button-down. I'm tired of wanting more. I think I'm finally worn."
- "I gave too much of my heart tonight. Can you come to where I'm staying and make some extra love? That I can save till tomorrow's show."
- "If I could, I'd be your little spoon and kiss your fingers forevermore."
- "I will wash your hair at night and dry it off with care."
- "Nobody fucks me like me."
- "So I don't blame you if you want to bury me in your memory, I'm not the girl I ought to be."
- "I am something, I have been something, I was born something. What could I be?"
- "You cannot see the other end. Your body's lost all feeling."
- And I'll go to work and I'll go to sleep and I'll love the littler things."
- "You can lean on my arm as you break my heart."
- "I look for a picture of you to keep in my pocket, but I can't seem to find one where you look how I remember."
- "In the rearview mirror, I saw the setting sun on your neck and felt the taste of you bubble up inside me."
- "How I feel this river rushing through my veins with nowhere else to go, it circles 'round."
- "The scent of flowers still in bloom from morning shower."
- "You'd learned from movies how love ought to be."
- "Mercy on me, would you please spare me tonight? I'm tired of this searching, would you let me let go?"
- "Spend an hour doing my makeup to prove something."
- "And I don't want your pity, I just want somebody near me."
- "Oh, if you're going, take the train so I can hear it rumble, one last rumble."
- "There's some kind of burning inside me. It's kept me from falling apart."
- "It's funny how you always remember, and we've both done it all a hundred times before, it's funny how I still forgot."
- "Sorry I don't want your touch, it's not that I don't want you. Sorry I can't take your touch."
- "And then one warm summer night, I'll hear fireworks outside and I'll listen to the memories as they cry, cry, cry."
- "And I hope you leave right before the sun comes up so I can watch it alone."
- "My body's made of crushed little stars and I'm not doing anything."
- "I think my fate is losing its patience, I think the ground is pulling me down."
- "But if I gave up on being pretty I wouldn't know how to be alive."
- "I didn't know I had a dream. I didn't know until I saw you."
- "It's been a long hard twenty-year summer vacation. All these twenty years trying to fill the void."
- "You're the sun, you've never seen the night, but you hear its song from the morning birds."
- "Cause we've tried hungry and we've tried full and nothing seems enough."
- "When you stood up, walked away, barefoot, and the grass where you lay left a bed in your shape, I looked over it and I ached."
- "I know my room is a mess. Over and over again I tell myself I'll clean tomorrow."
- "I used to think I'd be done by 20, now at 29 the road ahead appears the same."
- "I can still smell the fire even though it’s long died out. The smoke still hangs in my hair and on some quiet evenings it burns my eyes."
- "Mom, am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?"
- "Baby, though I've closed my eyes, I know who you pretend I am."
- "I'm beautiful, I know cause it's the season. But what am I to do with all this beauty?"
- "And I don't mean to make your heart blue, but could we be what we're meant to be?"
- "Everything had its own place, and I wondered what space would I take in the order you kept."
- "I will retire to the salton sea at the age of 23, for I'm starting to learn I may never be free."
- "I cry at the start of every movie, I guess 'cause I wish I was making things too."
- "Mom, would you wash my back? this once, and then we can forget, and I'll leave what I'm chasing for the other girls to pursue."
- "You're growing tired of me, you love me so hard and I still can't sleep. You're growing tired of me and all the things I don't talk about."
- "And you'd say you love me and look in my eyes, but I know through mine you were looking in yours."
- "Looking up into our room where you'll be waiting for me, thinking that's where you loved me."
- "And I opened my arms wide to the dark, I said, "take it all, whatever you want". I didn't know that I was young, I didn't know what it would take."
- "I've waited and watered my heart till it grew. You can see how it's blossomed for you."
- "And I don't blame you if you want to bury me in your memory, I'm not the girl I ought to be. Maybe when you tell your friends, you can tell them what you saw in me, and not the way I am."
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