- Dolokhov and I were close? Really close oof
- We were basically 'not gay' 'totally not fucking' in a society that would have had us castrated and more if that became public at all
- During the ball with Natasha I remember smiling at her and looking up to make direct eye contact with Dolokhov across the room
- He followed me during the ball? Quite frequently
- I remember very specifically that whenever I kissed Natasha I would make a point to touch her jawline and I think she leaned 3/4 of the way towards me whenever I did
- I did love her but it wasn't what should have happened
- When Dolokhov got shot I tried to pick him up but he shoved me off like a stubborn prick
- Hélène and I played Russian Roulette once and I remember her sighing when I didn't get shot
- We were so close
- Hélène and I were a force of nature when we worked together
- I have a brief memory of later on in life getting my left leg amputated but I can't remember fuckall about it
jul 22 2017 ∞
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