These things have more or less mentally scarred me in some way or another. Sometimes I find it very hard to talk about them, or come to terms with myself that they were all not good ideas. I'm admitting them all here, though, because I want everyone to know that I have nothing to hide. Some of these things I have already moved on from, and some of them I am currently still working on.

• The photoshoot with WinterWolf. Unfortunately, I was not mentally or physically prepared for the shoot, and things didn't turn out quite the way I hoped they would. Maybe I should have waited a year or so, because the timing was definitely off. I regret it for several other reasons, though, that I can't quite say here.
• That hoax acting/modeling audition in January 2006 (that I didn't want to go to in the first place), where I received horrible treatment and royally embarassed myself.
• Dating Jared for a year, and the things I did during that time. I turned into someone I didn't want to be and did things I deeply regret. Although it taught me valuble lessons, I was not ready for such a serious relationship. If I could go back in time, I'd definitely prevent it from ever taking place.
• Believing that terrible lie about the AIDS scare, and then actually telling Ryan about it, destroying my life in more ways than one.
• Every single stupid thing I've done pertaining to Shawn and Shannon...if I were to make a list of all the foolish things I've said, done, etc., it'd be a mile long. Literally. I wish I could take it all back and wash my hands of them both. Every incident and problem I regret regarding these two, I created myself, which makes me feel even worse because my actions are what caused this whole mess. If only I would have thought about it logically before acting. Oh well, what's done is done.
• Missing so much school because I was sick or going through emotional times, which in turn, caused me to suffer in math and hi-stepping, forcing me to quit the team and transfer from Marshall into homeschooling because it all became too much for me. I go back and forth on whether or not leaving Marshall was a good or bad decision...it has many pros and cons. In the end, though, I think being homeschooled was one of the best things to happen to me, it saved my life and gave me time to regain my sanity, even though there are times where I think "well, what if..."
• Going to Cedar Point with Anthony & Ryan. Whyyy did I do it? No idea. Sometimes I think the decisions I make are completely retarded.