“i am a woman. how can i own that without shame? how can i just be proud about my feminine side, all of my feminine sides? because i got masculine sides too. everyone’s got both sides of it. i feel like i’ve been so comfortable with this other side of myself that is so not feminine, that what does it feel like to step into femininity?"

━ hayley williams; 2020

oi

• sou estudante de farmácia e pretendo atuar na área criminal solucionando casos de polícia
• sou muito, muito, muito tímida
• sempre fico vermelha quando alguém me elogia
• minha cor favorita é roxo
• prazer, procrastinadora
• não sei puxar assunto ou fazer novas amizades
• tenho vários amigos, mas às vezes me sinto muito solitária
• gosto de fazer as pessoas rirem
• adoro estar sozinha, mas odeio me sentir só
• gosto de dar conselhos
• nunca sei explicar as coisas, sempre me enrolo quando vou falar e acaba ficando sem sentido
• me sinto especial quando alguém vê ou e...

･ﾟ✧*.・♡

• "vanity and pride are different things, though the words are often used synonymously. a person may be proud without being vain. pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us."
• "angry people are not always wise."
• "there is a stubbornness about me that never can bear to be frightened at the will of others. my courage always rises at every attempt to intimidate me."
• "the more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it; and everyday confirms my belief of the inconsistencies of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of merit or sense."
• "a lady's imagination is very rapid; it jumps from admiration to love, from love to matrimony, in a moment."

･ﾟ✧*.・♡

• a dream is all i have.
• ain't it fun living in the real world?
• all that i want is to wake up fine.
• and the salt in my wounds isn't burning any more than it used to, it's not that i don't feel the pain it's just i'm not afraid of hurting anymore. and the blood in these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has nd that's the hope i have the only thing i know that's keeping me alive.
• and when it rains, will you always find an escape? just running away, from all of the ones who love you, from everything.
• at least i try to keep my cool when i am thrown into a fire.
• cause now i feel you by my side and i don't even care if it's been a while. i can feel that we've changed and we're better this way.

･ﾟ✧*.・♡

• a shame without a sin.
• and that day that we watch the death of the sun, that the cloud and the cold and those jeans you have on and you gaze unafraid as they sob from the city ruins.
• as the shrike to your sharp and glorious thorn.
• baby and her momma and the damaged love she made.
• back to the hedgerows where bodies are mounted.
• be still, my indelible friend.
• before the otherness came.
• blood is rare and sweet as cherry wine.
• boys workin’ on empty.
• chided by the silence of the hushed sublime, blind to the purpose of the brute divine; but you were mine.
• don't you ever tame your demons, but always keep them on a leash.

• céu todo estrelado
• cheirinho de café
• cheiro de livros
• curiosidade
• dias frios
• escuridão
• filmes adolescentes
• fotografias antigas
• lágrimas e sorrisos
• livros e filmes de terror
• memórias
• o barulho do mar batendo nas pedras
• poesias
• solidão

• uma banda: alvvays
• uma parte do corpo: veia
• um livro: objetos cortantes
• um sabor: vinho
• uma cor: roxo
• um dia da semana: sexta-feira
• um sentimento: tristeza
• um personagem: rae earl
• uma fruta: morango
• um mês: outubro
• um filme: funny girl (1968)
• um lugar: paris
• um planeta: vênus
• uma estação: inverno
• um cheiro: hortelã
• uma música: turn it off by paramore
• um álbum: after laughter by paramore
• um elemento: neon
• uma expressão: sorriso
• um instrumento: piano

renata.

life’s daughter, death’s bride. walks with heaven in her step and hell in her eyes.

• october, 1994. she/her.
• scorpio. infj-t. brazilian.
• pharmacy student.
• always sad.
• awkward as fuck.
• amy adams & pedro pascal enthusiast.
• #1 paramore stan.

likes: music. books. tv shows. movies, especially horror & thriller. photography. write when im sad. art stuff. conspiracy theories. rainy and cold days. paramore’s songs. star wars universe. dancing in the dark. being alone.

• quotes:

mean, i always feel like a freak, because i'm never able to move on like... this! you know. people just have an affair, or even entire relationships... they break up and they forget! they move on like they would have changed brand of cereals! i feel i was never able to forget anyone i've been with. because each person have... their own, specific qualities. you can never replace anyone. what is lost is lost. each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. i never fully recover. that's why i'm very careful with getting involved, because... it hurts too much! even getting laid! i actually don't do that... i will miss on the other person the most mundane things. like i'm obsessed with little things. i see in them little details,... ― before sunset.

men always say that as the defining compliment, don’t they? she’s a cool girl. being the cool girl means i am a hot, brilliant, funny woman who adores football, poker, dirty jokes, and burping, who plays video games, drinks cheap beer, loves threesomes and anal sex, and jams hot dogs and hamburgers into her mouth like she’s hosting the world’s biggest culinary gang bang while somehow maintaining a size 2, because cool girls are above all hot. hot and understanding. cool girls never get angry; they only smile in a chagrined, loving manner and let their men do whatever they want. go ahead, shit on me, i don’t mind, i’m the cool girl .

men actually think this girl exists. maybe they’re fooled because so many women are willing to pretend to be this girl. for a long time cool girl offended me. i used to see men – friends, coworkers, strangers – giddy over these awful preten...

• ambientes tranquilos
• café quente
• caminhar
• chá antes de dormir
• chorar
• dançar sozinha
• descobrir músicas novas no spotify
• entrar em livrarias pra sentir o cheiro dos livros
• escrever poemas e poesias
• falar sozinha
• filmes adolescentes
• fotografar pessoas
• ir em uma cafeteria
• jardins floridos
• ler algum livro enquanto chove
• minimalismo
• musicais
• músicas calmas
• o céu e toda a sua beleza
• o sorriso de quem já chorou

• a sensação de ouvir uma música/banda pela primeira vez e gostar muito
• almoço de domingo
• assistir um desenho animado
• chocolate quente em dias chuvosos
• começar uma nova leitura
• comprar um livro novo
• conversar com meus amigos
• conversar por horas com alguém que gosta das mesmas coisas que eu
• cantar alto e dançar sozinha em casa
• dar risadas com minha mãe
• deitar na cama e se deparar com os lençóis limpinhos
• descobrir uma banda nova
• encontrar séries/filmes que quero assistir na netflix
• maratonar filmes e series
• minha mãe feliz
• ouvir música de manhã cedinho
• ouvir paramore me traz uma sensação ún...

• allison reynolds; the breakfast club
• brian kinney; queer as folk
• camille preaker; sharp objects
• christine mcpherson; lady bird
• clementine kruczynski; eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
• cosima niehaus; orphan black
• elliot alderson; mr. robot
• gretchen cutler; you're the worst
• jessa; girls
• kayla day; eighth grade
• monica geller; friends
• naomi campbell; skins
• nina sayers; black swan
• rae earl; my mad fat diary
• simon; simple simon
• sue heck; the middle
• susanna kaysen; girl, interrupted
• temperance brennan; bones
• will graham; hannibal

wolf and woman

some days i am more wolf than woman and i am still learning how to stop apologising for my wild.

• mbti: _infj_
• archetypes: x
• my color code: x
• colorscope: x
• r-drive test: x
• personal dna: x
• big five: x
  • global5/SLOAN type: RLOAI
  • primary type: LIMBIC
• alignment: lawful neutral
• horoscope:
  • chinese: dog
• zodiac
  • sun: scorpio
  • moon: leo
  • rising: gemini
  • mercury: libra
  • venus: scorpio

• accent » british
• actor » pedro pascal
• actress » amy adams
• animal » dog
• artical of clothing » jacket
• author » gillian flynn
• band » paramore
• bird » swift
• body part » eyes
• book » gone girl
• cartoon » the grim adventures of billy and mandy
• cheese » cheddar
• coffee » black coffee
• colour » purple
• country » france
• day of the week » friday
• director » david fincher
• dog breed » maltese
• element » neon
• flower » orchid

so here are songs that basically describe me and my life as it goes along.

• ✧ temporary - paramore
• ✧ no surprises - radiohead
• ✧ there is a light that never goes out - the smiths
• ✧ sadness is a blessing - lykke li
• ✧ turn it off - paramore
• ✧ i am not a robot - marina and the diamonds
• ✧ last hope - paramore
• ✧ adam's song - blink-182
• ✧ ones who love you - alvvays
• ✧ hello - evanescence

• 1994: heavenly creatures; dir. peter jackson
• 1995: se7en; dir. david fincher
• 1996: scream; dir. wes craven
• 1997: perfect blue; dir. satoshi kon
• 1998: the truman show; dir. peter weir
• 1999: girl, interrupted; dir. james mangold
• 2000: almost famous; dir. cameron crowe
• 2001: the others; dir. alejandro amenábar
• 2002: carrie; dir. david carson
• 2003: kill bill, vol. 1; dir. quentin tarantino
• 2004: saw; dir. james wan
• 2005: stay; dir. marc foster
• 2006: paprika; dir. satoshi kon
• 2007: love songs; dir. christophe honoré
• 2008: the boy in the striped pijamas; dir. mark herman
• 2009: inglorius basterds; dir. quentin tarantino
• 2010: shutter island; dir. martin scorsese
• 2011: melancholia; dir. lars von trier

• beber água
• escutar sua música favorita
• fica de olhos fechados enquanto planeja seu dia
• ouvir o canto dos pássaros
• tirar alguns minutos apreciando o silêncio da manhã
• tomar um banho gelado