• starbucks & dunkin's drinks
• sanrio merchandise
• overcoming a difficult puzzle
• finding clothes that actually fit me
• seeing dogs while taking a walk
• pastel colors
• having a burst of productivity
• walking around rockingham plaza
• petting sarah's cats (sadie & sebastian)
• discount chocolate after a holiday
• telling a joke where it lands and everyone else loses it

• countless group calls with friends
• giggling with my twin sister when we were eleven
• fourth of july: the three am hotdog bagel saga
• sensory overload where i gave up and drew until six am
• new years' eve parties

happy cry:

• particularly cute dogs
• disney parades and fireworks
• meeting disney characters in real life (especially ariel)

sad cry:

• feeling overwhelemed
• sad scenes in tv / movies / games
• being rejected

• greg, kerry, & mo
• my childhood carelessness
• the hamsters
• singing every day
• feeling important to a large group

• zelda series (currently playing botw)
• persona series
• mario series
• animal crossing series
• splatoon series
• cookie run (mobile game)

• https://www.lindybopusa.com/
• https://www.torrid.com/
• https://www.dollskill.com/plus-size-curv...

• my singing voice
• my ap scores
• my writing
• the achievements of my awesome friends :)

i am:

• silly
• musical
• emotional
• food-driven
• big and round
• easily inspired
• volatile
• passionate
• envious
• oblivious
• a daydreamer

i am not:

• intentionally mean
• smart
• strong
• thin
• pretty
• socially adjusted

• initiate conversation with people
• speak up in classes
• record myself singing covers
• buy pastel cutesy clothes
• wear crop tops
• ask crush(es) out
• try new things even if i might fail
• learn to do cool makeup looks

• my suicide attempt/plans/going to the hospital
• my college acceptance
• realizing i'm pansexual

• background: https://snaappy.tumblr.com/post/48487367...

• artist
• writer
• singer
• lawyer
• veterinarian
• teacher

• without a noise, without my pride, i reach out from the inside
• how could i be so wrong?
• tell him what he needs to know, tell him where these thoughts should go
• nothing else could be so groovy
• little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
• and we're still holding hands through a catflap
• sink or swim, for i have been the sweet one down the line
• breaking all my bones for something that is mine alone
• don't forget these tidal waves
• reaching so far for that pointless green light
• i can't breathe in the basement
• drowning, but it's not even worth it
• you, with your sicknesses, and i, i with mine

• sobs
• hall & oates
• jack stauber
• sidney gish
• merival
• gorillaz
• kilo kish
• m1ldl1fe
• cavetown
• m83
• the bird and the bee
• rina sawayama
• susanne sundfor
• foster the people
• marina & the diamonds
• chairlift
• mgmt
• kate bush
• boy pablo
• sales
• austin weber

• cavetown
• sidney gish
• fitz & the tantrums
• big data

• prince
• bobbie womack
• freddie mercury
• aretha franklin
• george michael
• amy winehouse
• david bowie
• selena