(should have started this on new years but whatever. up til 0106 is all recollections of the start of the year.)

• 0101 - new years! stayed in the house and lounged around. started watching supernatural. cleaned the house entirely.
• 0102 - nothing interesting.
• 0103 - stayed home, until around 2pm. went to optometrist and got a pair of trial contact lenses. i like them a lot so far.
• 0104 - did laundry all day. began watching snk. snk is going to kill me by the time i'm finished with it.
• 0105 - continued watching snk. ate fried egg sandwich for brealfast, ate pb&j for dinner. went out grocery shopping. forgot to buy a box of arizona tea.
• 0106 - woke up at five in the morning, my eyes burning because of a bright lamp i left on. fell asleep and woke up at 10:30 or so, then ate ramen for breakfast since there was no rice (sighs, oh the asian life.) went to target and spent like 70 bucks on a bookbag, aviators, make-up, a few journals and pens. sobs, goodbye money.
• 0107 - first day back at school, as expected my 1st pd lass changed to speech and there is nothing but scary seniors in my class ( believe i am one out three freshman in the whole class) and i got a lot of compliments on me without my glasses, so that was very nice. sadly, i had a stupidly insane headache all day and i nearly passed out but other than that it was ok.
• 0108 - uneventful day pretty much. i got annoyed a lot and hardly talked. nearly died and i tripped (did not fall) on the steps of stairs. all i want is a warm guy to hug me for a long time and to pat my hair. i kind of just want someone i can talk to yanno. depression is really kickin my ass this time around.
• 0109 - talked a bit more at lunch, and in spanish and in seventh period. first period speech is still pretty intimidating. sigh. saw hector again yay. lilly didn't talk to me tho. oh well. fine by me it doesn't matter lol. oh, rilakkuma case came in yaaaay. craving boba. bought snacks from dollar store. lordy help.
• 0110 - less rough than normal day. nearly fell asleep in class and since i was broke, my friend bought me food. discovered the holy god that is a/l (i'll leave his name as that) and he doesn't know i exist yanno but it's cool. he's gonna date my friend soon probs so he's practically off the market. uh, forgot to do hw so i have a busy ass weekend.
• 0111 - so many chores. so many sad.
• 0112 - finished snk the anime. still so many chores. still so many sad.
• 0113 - jfc freaked out over speech for 1st class for nothing. got annoyed by idiot new girl in gym who constantly complaines, lil piece of shit. slacked off with emily and kathy boo. i'm extremely vulgar in my jokes, just starting to realize. i should calm it. friends are wondering why i'm so quiet all the time now. boosted happiness cause dog was waiting for me at the bus stop. sobs cause spanish i have a family tree to do, and i skipped out on most of the family members, but i have over 100, most of it is on my dad's side, curse you big fucking asian family. ily but pls.
• 0114 - empty shell. cried over which way home.
• 0115 - empty shell with new music on phone. cried over documentary which way home. dyed hair "burgundy".
• 0116 - chokes. sigh. felt like no one was on my side today. josh mcdade is a class a prick, i don't get why he's so rude to me when i haven't done anything to him. pisses me off, fucking jackass. anyway, biology was fun. got complemented on hair. needs to finish a bajillon homework sheets.
• 0117 - 0127 -don't remember cause long ago, but on the 24, school was canceled due to weather. On 27, went and ate Vietnamese food at Hai Ni.
• 0128 - phew, I brought my 76 in biology to an 87. Need to bring up Geometry grade to at least an 85. (77 as of today). school was closed today due to the weather again, and this time there was snow and sleet and ice and wow. parents marital problems and my grandpa's health is really taking a toll on me. I ate almost half of a case thing of strawberries with some whipped cream and I should make sure I don't have homework to do.
• 0129 - worked out really well today. good day.
• 0130 - didn't speak with "s" today. it's ok.
• 0131 - thanh's birthday! did her makeup. noticed that gio has been more talkative and open with me. talked to "s" today. caught him already staring at me with his friend (who boasted about losing his v-card. wow.) and when I looked up, he gave me a bright, huge, almost knowing smile and I was confused. lol. he promised that we'd walk to the buses together, but he was with vanessa. I didn't mind it much, but was kind of heartbroken with what thanh said. ignored emma. was a moody bitch all afternoon, and cried rewatching the grammys. a bit discouraged. I dunno what to do.