i’ll always be left alone. people can pick and choose whenever they want to care about me, and of all the times they only look at me when im at my best. do i seem like i want to be alone? ive been the loneliest one my whole life. no one ever personally knew me or cared about me to the same extent i cared for them. everyone just has another person they’ll prefer over me, no matter how hard i try it will never be me, i will never be significant to someone, i will always be alone. i dont want to keep trying for people i will never be treated as significant to. is that selfish?