im fucking tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired i try to be resilient and do everything right because i have nowhere to run and i know all the burdens you have to carry so i have no room to make mistakes otherwise i’ll get yelled at and be shamed for being selfish. but you don’t notice my efforts nor do you even say anything when i do something right cause my worth all comes down to nothing the moment something bad happens. im blamed and yelled at yet again for something i didnt even do, do you really think id just leave dishes out there when you literally see me washing my dishes after i use them. your first thought is to yell at me and blame me why arent you asking the person who isnt here half the time and avoids all their problems. i get yelled at for your own problems, you’re so lucky you can just run away how about you just leave and never fucking come back when you dont even contribute anything to this house. its so easy for you to be careless because you were always treated right. i just wonder if they’re ever as mad at you as they are with me cause it seems like i have to carry everyone’s fucking problem in this house. fucking god i just wanna leave you all and never fucking come back i never even wanted to come to this fucking shit hole of a country with you all anyway. i just fucking hate you all for fucks sake you guys dont appreciate me you guys dont acknowledge you guys dont fucking care about me or my fucking health. you see me get injured and all you care about is the fucking hospital bills. do you even know how i feel? if ever i feel unwell you treat me like its my fault instead of giving me the basic sympathy a normal empathetic person should!! Hahaha! I really just fucking hate you all because for one, none of you are emotionally vulnerable enough to fucking care about me and see that im a human being who makes mistakes and is trying to become a better person and is a person who feels guilt and hurt!!! I hate you all! I hate you all! I hate you all so fucking much NONE OF YOU DESERVE TO MOURN ME WHEN I DIE!!!