• 88.9
• 101.7
• does pandora count?

• during grade school i basically lived in my school uniform.
• freshman year was t-shirts, some skirts and tights, hoodies, and frizzy hair.
• sophomore year was still t-shirts, but wittier ones, less hoodies, ill-fitting jeans, hats.
• junior year is mostly dresses, anything that isn't dresses is skirts. always tights, sometimes heels, sometimes boots, wearing make up, straightening my hair more and when i don't i at least make an effort for it to not be huge and poufy.

• arctic monkeys concert
• date with mike
• christmas present-buying frenzy
• progress made in sci fi
• matt comes home soon!
• christmas/new years/holiday break
• actually getting a lot of prints done, even if they are sub-par
• i've realized that i think i might accidentally be hitting on some of my male teachers
• it snowed, it's finally going to be winter
• full-blown malnourishment

• photography
• thinking
• people
• fashion
• reading
• music
• kissing
• observation

• going to high school
• going to photo class on my own this summer for the first time
• asking out nick (ughghuhghghghhghhh)
• going on that date with mike
• giving my speech in english
• going to school last year
• talking to people
• depression (still...)

• negative people who i want to help but can never find the right words to fix them
• being slutty
• being so quiet and angry-looking at school
• overthinking stuff
• getting attached to certain people for stupid reasons
• going to the fucking bathroom so much
• inadvertently being a bitch to people
• lying

• extremely loud and incredibly close
• house of leaves
• anything by chuck palahniuk
• the book thief
• catcher in the rye
• in persuasion nation
• brave new world
• not a specific book, but i like the romantic period of literature, we're learning about it now in english and i really enjoy it.

• short, cute dresses
• myriad colored tights
• nice boots
• nice heels/heeled boots
• cardiganscardiganscardigans
• pink hair
• slightly too large coat to make me look tinier but also goes with my outfits
• thick belt
• large medallion necklace
• small carved wood pendant
• colored eyeliner
• shimmery peach blush

• my hands always feel incredibly nasty afterwards
• most of the time it's kind of hard for me to interact with my co-workers
• i spend forever shifting the books so they're all spaced evenly and then i have a whole new load of books to shelve which messes it up
• i run out of stuff to do too quickly so i have to stand around awkwardly
• i get very few hours

• i love the... on vh1
• say yes to the dress
• those specials on tlc like mermaid girl, world's fattest man, etc
• spongebob/fairly oddparents/jimmy neutron

• sleep in, laze around in bed thinking for a while
• make pancakes for breakfast
• put on a pretty dress
• go outside and take photos
• meet up with friends and have a general good time
• stay out really late, when i get back watch some trashy tv and eat a bowl of ice cream
• do a buttload of crossword puzzles until i'm so tired my eyes can't focus on the page

• it's always sunny in philadelphia
• flight of the conchords
• bones
• law and order svu
• glee
• the office
• 30 rock
• family guy

• soft serve twist
• moose tracks
• death by chocolate
• chocolate chip
• half baked
• fossil fuel
• fudge swirl

• saint mary's
• looking back, everything i did was cringe-worthy

• steak frites from sel de la terre/steak with dad's wine sauce
• garlic bread
• pasta with meat sauce or italian sausage
• beef lo mein
• broccoli
• flaky layers
• french fries
• pizza from pinocchio's
• soft serve twist ice cream
• fancy chocolate cake

• my peers, most people
• eating
• frigging EVERYBODY hugging me
• manga and anime
• geometry
• knowing what to do and think

• i'm just always sad in general. even when i'm happy i'm sad.
• my self esteem is extremely low so whenever something good happens i feel like it must be a mistake and i don't deserve it.
• i have very little faith in myself.
• i have almost no faith in the human race at this point.
• i'm paranoid: i think that everyone is just playing a huge joke on me.
• everything just feels hopeless all the time.

• stop with the unnecessary cruelty and hate (wishful thinking, but i want this more than anything. i just can't stand the evil in the world.)
• wish i was better looking...
• nora wouldn't be subjected to all the drama and negativity that she faces, same with my other friends (esp. jackie with her parents)
• i could be more social and be friendlier to people.
• no more racism, even on the small scale
• that people would open up their eyes to the world around them, to what's going on, to how they treat people, and that they could muster some more intelligent and meaningful thoughts than "i'm hungry."
• that money isn't such a priority and cause of dispute

• nora
• music and books
• my camera
• pretty clothing (sad, but true)
• guys
• the internet (maybe?)
• the subway
• having something to do

• not unnecessarily cruel (or cruel at all, but depends on the circumstances)
• goes out of their way to help others
• even if they're feeling badly they try to make others happy
• not too whiney
• not bitchy
• just generally pleasant-natured

• hills
• being laminated alive (i know, i know, i'm weird, but think about how scary that would be!)
• rejection (der)
• falling over edges
• most things to do with nasty bodily fluids
• getting sick the way i was before
• not being able to survive when i go to college and am all alone in a new city

• astronomy
• creative writing
• psych
• anthro
• all the art classes i can handle
• science in science fiction
• advanced photography (if only we had this class available)

• nora
• jackie
• erica
• chris d.
• jon (kind of)
• rosana
• maura
• my parents
• juan

• having tea parties with my grandma
• my grandfather reading me stories out of the children's anthology thing we had
• the way going to their house felt
• my grandma's accent
• talking to my cousins through the laundry chute in their house
• mystery tours
• having family breakfast
• going to the library with them
• grandpa's big chair with the light blue flowers
• going to the grotto and feeding the ducks on campus with them

• raang (indian)
• kfc
• wendy's
• bertucci's
• that chinese place downtown
• bacci's
• subway

• pink hair
• being super short
• wearing skirts all the time
• not speaking a lot in class
• having a high pitched voice
• general stupid stuff!

• i can be completely ridiculous with her, and i feel like that's really who i am
• we call each other rude names and insult each other but it's all in good humor
• i can borrow her clothes and makeup stuff
• she gives decent advice on most matters
• for the most part i can trust her

• texting mike
• feeling sorry for myself/hating everyone
• getting high
• sleeping and not sleeping
• watching movies
• having the same song on repeat for 50 bajillion hours

• photography
• the subway/getting out of the house in general
• silly people

• house of blues, boston
• worcester palladium
• agganis arena
• comcast/tweeter center
• that place outside boston city hall or something where the free concert over the summer was

• losing control of my body
• leaving everyone and then they forget about me
• the fact that i might actually want to live past the age of 23
• losing everything i've thought of and wanting to settle down with a husband and kids in a house in the suburbs
• becoming like all the middle aged people out there, losing my sense of self and my thoughts, instead becoming a mindless drone, my only want to be happy, so much that i don't think about everything because it might cause me a small bit of sadness

here = melrose, there = college, out of here

• get really good grades so any college i apply to will accept me
• improve on my social skills so it'll be easier to make friends
• mentally prepare myself
• save up all the money i can manage
• become a deeper thinker
• try to enjoy my time here, even if i hate it

this is going by the stereotypes, i suppose

• always horny
• most judge girls mainly on looks
• can be douches (girls can too, but still)
• think it's funny to harass girls when they're with their friends, but one on one they're sweet
• think they have to be tough guys all the time
• like 79% of the guys i know only like classic rock. let's have some variety.

• soccer for about 6 years
• softball for half a season
• swim, even though i never got past the first level because i can't breathe underwater

• arctic monkeys concert!
• going on a date with mike soon (could go either way)
• christmas!
• winter break
• sleepover with nora next weekend

• really sticky floors
• nasty bathrooms
• tall people sitting directly in front of me
• when my friends act disinterested or text or something
• awkward sharing of arm rests
• having to pee in the middle of the film

• hot tub (which i don't really count because it was SILLY)
• jon's couch in his old house, while cuddling and watching Step Brothers
• sitting on the axel of the truck in rob's back yard (cory)
• uhhh not talking about the wilson/nora stuff
• woods party for jon's birthday (mike)

• to become a successful photographer
• to travel EVERYWHERE
• to help people through joining the peace corps/becoming a pro-bono lawyer?
• figure out the meaning of life. or just figure out life in general.
• meet as many interesting people as possible
• write my heart out

• i'm too hyper
• lots of hidden feelings that i don't talk about
• not too great looking
• low self esteem (see above...)
• commitment issues