my name is ciel! i am an autistic non-binary lesbian. although i’m a femme lesbian, i am transmasc and regardless of my feminine presentation, my mannerisms reflect my masculinity.

i’m a grad student in a cultural studies & humanities program. my academic interests revolve around: superstition, folklore and the psychology behind it! i have a bachelor’s degree in psychology.

i am a lover of all things macabre and see beauty where most people don’t. therefore, my likes in fiction are: gothic horror literature + films, dark fantasy, queer relationships and the occult.

i am not a proshipper nor an anti. i simply like to analyze these types of dynamics and find the romanticization / fetishization of them reprehensible and personally disturbing / triggering.

• claudia
• kris dreemurr
• alucard
• nico di angelo
• momoko (kamikaze girls)
• harrowhark nonagesimus
• natalie scatorccio
• xie lian
• anthy himemiya
• hua cheng
• death (the sandman)
• moros
• lydia deetz
• wednesday addams

• malice mizer
• buck-tick
• london after midnight
• lareine
• nastyona
• plastic tree
• sisters of mercy
• bauhaus
• the cure
• twin tribes
• deftones

• kuroshitsuji
• innocent + innocent rouge
• chainsaw man
• the girl from the other side
• junji ito
  • uzumaki
• devilman
• hellsing
• the summer hikaru died

• vampirism + folklore
• gargoyles & architectural grotesques
• orphic dionysus / hellenic dionysus
  • bachannals & maenads / dionysian rituals
  • the bacchae by euripides
• claudia - amc’s interview with the vampire

• atsushi sakurai
• yeule
• daniela lalita
• fiona apple
• kamijo

• interview with the vampire
• hannibal
• yellowjackets
• what we do in the shadows
• the great
• castlevania
• midnight mass

• castlevania: symphony of the night
• alice: madness returns
• fear & hunger 2: termina
• the legend of zelda: tears of the kingdom
• bloodstained: ritual of the night
• bloodborne
• undertale + deltarune
• resident evil 4
• silent hill 2 + 3
• baldur’s gate 3
• hades + hades 2
• little goody two shoes

• claudeleine (iwtv - claudia x madeleine)
• claudibelle (iwtv - claudia x sybelle)
• qijing (jwqs - qi yan x jingnu)
• kriselle (deltarune - kris x noelle)
• utenanthy (rgu - anthy x utena)
• jayvik (arcane - jayce x viktor)
• cronamaka (soul eater - crona x maka)
• hualian (tgcf - hua cheng x xie lian)
• griddlehark (tlt - harrow x gideon)
• yoshikaru (tshd - yoshiki x hikaru)
• whiteraven (nevermore - lenore x annabel lee)
• loustat (iwtv - louis x lestat)
• madohomu (pmmm - madoka x homura)
• eternalholly (crk - eternal sugar x hollyberry)
• armandstat (iwtv - armand x lestat)

• claudia
• hua cheng
• alucard tepes
• mel medarda
• akilah johnson
• natalie scatorccio
• elphie thropp
• lottie matthews
• mari ibarra
• xie lian
• madoka kaname
• harrowhark nonagesimus
• marina (fear & hunger)
• maharet and mekare
• katara
• alice liddell
• ciel phantomhive
• jayce talis
• grell sutcliff
• nico di angelo
• gideon nav

• revolutionary girl utena
• madoka mágica
• the summer hikaru died
• trinity blood
• black butler/kuroshitsuji
• banana fish
• no.6
• one piece
• mononoke
• monster
• chainsaw man
• soul eater
• death note
• hunter x hunter

• frankenstein
• carmilla
• the vampire chronicles
  • iwtv
  • the vampire lestat
  • queen of the damned
  • the vampire armand
• tian guan ci fu
• jing wei qing shang
• the locked tomb series
• all for the game series
• the secret history