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the inconsequential ramblings of a eighteen year old aspiring psychiatrist, budding list maker and empathetic mess. i have this to write lists of things i should be doing which i'm not doing and probably will never do. instead i shall sleep.

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  • "every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. and, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. it really is the most poetic thing i know about physics: you are all stardust." lawrence m.krauss
  • "memories are what warm you up from the inside. but they're also what tear you apart." haruki murakami
  • "i would like to be the air / that inhabits you for a moment / only. i would like to be that unnoticed / & that necessary." margaret atwood
  • "if you died, it would be like my bones had been removed. no one would know why, but i would collapse." sarah kane
  • "everybody has a secret world inside of them. all of the people of the world, i mean everybody. no matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they have all got unimaginable, magnificen..._neil gaiman_
oct 13 2013 ∞
apr 28 2014 +
  • she makes me happy
  • she makes me want to live
  • her smile lights up my day
  • she is so funny she just makes me giggle all the time
  • she can make a joke out of everything
  • she is very cuddly and i like cuddly
  • she really cares about me yay
  • she knows me inside out
  • she gets me the best presents
oct 9 2013 ∞
oct 9 2013 +
  • climb in bed during a thunderstorm, and read and talk and drink warm drinks
  • go to galleries and discuss the art, or make fun of the pretentiousness of it all
  • go to all the parks in our neighbour hood and find our favourite one
  • go on a bike ride and bike for as long as we can
  • go to the beach when the tide is out and walk, hand in hand, until you meet the waves
  • play the piano, working together to make a beautiful melody
  • slow dance anywhere
  • take an old map and plot all of the places you plan to see together
  • cook random recipes together
oct 8 2013 ∞
oct 8 2013 +
  • superhero
  • ballerina
  • supermodel
  • perfect
  • writer
  • journalist
  • thin
  • psychologist
oct 7 2013 ∞
dec 12 2014 +
  • adorable
  • allure
  • amethyst
  • autumn
  • besotted
  • bewitched
  • bloom
  • blossom
  • bumblebee
  • cocoa
  • cusp
  • dappled
  • drowsy
  • ember
  • enchanted
  • faerie
  • fawn
  • fleur
  • froth
  • iridescent
  • kelsey
sep 12 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +

for children:

    • aurora (f.)
    • autumn (f.)
    • cassandra (f.)
    • cassie (f.)
    • clara (f.)
    • darcy (f.)
    • elliot (m.)
    • ellis (m.)
    • eloise (f.)
    • fawn (f.)
    • fleur (f.)
    • henry (m.)
    • ivy (f.)
    • lily (f.)
    • lucia (f.)
    • luca (m.)
    • niamh (f.)
    • olive (f.)
    • sierra (f.)
sep 12 2013 ∞
mar 13 2015 +
  • be a better friend
  • show kelsey just how much i love her
  • use a planner/diary
  • look out for myself as well as others
  • drink more water
  • finish everything i start
  • do what i want to do
sep 12 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +
  • a: alphabetic lists, all nighters, apricots, accents, aeroplane turbulence, apples, avocado, autumn
  • b: bed, back massages, butts, butterflies, baths, bath bombs, books, bonfires, brothers
  • c: caramel macchiatos, cats,cats in clothes, constellations, chinese food, criminal minds, cute cat emojis, chicken, christmas, candles, crystals, crunchy leaves
  • d: dimples, duvets, dreams, dream catchers, drawing, dens, dadda
  • e: eyes, eyelashes
  • f: foot rubs, freckles, fudge, face masks, fairy lights, fairy tales
  • g: glitter, good luck charms, giggling, guacamole, gardens
  • h: hot chocolate, holding hands, hugs, holidays, harry potter
  • i: the internet, icicles, ivy
  • j: jimjams, junk food, jumping rope
jul 21 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +
  • jump in front of the avarda cadavra spell
  • run to latvia and back naked
  • lick a homeless guy's toe
  • murder my tamagotchi
  • push myself down the stairs in a washing basket
  • place myself in a pot of boiling soup
  • put myself in a toastie maker and clamp it shut
  • go to a moth farm and sleep there for the night
  • volunteer as tribute
oct 9 2013 ∞
oct 9 2013 +

to do more of:

    • scrapbooking
    • diy
    • reading
    • flower pressing/drying
    • cd mixing
    • drawing & painting
    • cook

to learn:

    • play an instrument
oct 8 2013 ∞
oct 9 2013 +
  • the best girlfriend i can be
  • happy
  • a psychiatrist
  • healthy
  • with kelsey forever
  • content with my life
oct 7 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +
  • shower whether it's because you want to, or you need to.
  • do yoga whenever you want.
  • run gurrd again (gotta eat better tho cheeky monkey ps gotta buy clothes).
  • start cookin yey (cook for me nomnom ^.^).
  • eat easier, whenever you need to or want to.
  • do your make-up without worrying about what you look like.
  • video call without caring what you look like (i shud probs do dis 2).
  • be able to draw and write because it makes you happy, and not worry about whether it's perfect, worry about smiling and making yourself happy.
  • sleepy pie whenever you need to, regardless of whether i may be tired, do it for yourself!!
  • get up and feel motivated for the day; wh...
sep 15 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +
  • bow pose
  • camel pose
  • chaturanga pose
  • cobra pose
  • crane pose
  • downward facing dog
  • firefly pose
  • forearm balance
  • lord of the dance pose
  • lotus pose
  • plank
  • plow pose
  • shoulderstand, headstand
  • standing forward bend
  • tree pose
  • wide-legged standing forward bend
sep 12 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +
  • adopt a pet
  • audition for something
  • be 100% honest for a day
  • be a bridsemaid
  • be a vegetarian for over 4 years
  • be vegan for a month
  • buy a DSLR camera
  • buy a magic 8 ball and base all my decisions on it for a whole day
  • buy a pair of skinny jeans that fit for once!!
  • buy a piece of art
  • buy a sewing machine
  • buy and complete a "wreck this journal"
  • buy and use up a disposable camera
  • clean out my closet
  • climb a massive mountain
  • compliment someone every day for a week
  • cover my arm in temporary tattoos like an A* twatcake
  • dance in the rain
sep 12 2013 ∞
may 20 2014 +
  • carrot cake
  • mango
  • sushi
  • avocado
may 22 2013 ∞
apr 11 2014 +

collections i keep:

    • buttons
    • dream-catchers
    • incense burners

collections i would like to keep:

    • journals/sketchbooks
    • pictures of strange people
oct 8 2013 ∞
oct 8 2013 +
  • build a blanket fort, curl up inside with your teddies and read a book, or simply dream
  • settle down with freshly popped popcorn and watch your favourite movies [tick them off my 'to watch' list as I go]
  • make yourself tons of hot drinks: hot tea! hot cocoa! hot gingerbread lattes!
  • dance around your room to delicate music and to loud, beat filled music
  • open your windows fully and listen to the sounds of the world rushing by
  • put on your rain coat and rain boots and go for a walk, jumping in puddles and only come home when you are drenched in water and covered in mud
    • when you are home jump in a nice hot bath, listen to soft music, with a nice warm drink, then snuggle up among soft blankets in front of a film
oct 8 2013 ∞
oct 9 2013 +
  • to be married to my beautiful girlfriend
  • a cottage deep in the woods where I can dwell in solitude
  • ivy growing along the side of my cottage
  • a modern but snug house in the city where i can escape from, or to
  • my very own little library and large, comfy armchairs for reading them
  • to learn the constellations off by heart
  • a hidden box from a past century
  • an old antique typewriter
  • faded letters sealed with a ribbon
  • a secret closet leading to the world inside my mind
  • a hidden garden to get away to at dusk
  • a box full of old art
  • animal friends for company
  • secret passages and hidden rooms, or just small crevices for hiding things
  • glass terrariums
  • a great fire place with burning logs
oct 7 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +
  • sound:
    • raindrops, accents, thunderstorms, waves
  • touch:
    • feathers, velvet, cordouroy, marble, soft skin
  • scent:
    • burning fires/bonfires, inscence, when you blow candles out, cinnamon, vanilla, clean bedsheets, buttercream icing, fresh bread, coco butter
  • taste:
    • mozzarella, avocado, figs, couscous, garlic, chicken
  • sight:
    • symmetry, lighting, stars
sep 12 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +
  • grab a book, even if you've read it before, pick a random page, and get reading(if you want make a list of quoties you like and show them to me!)
  • get drawing a little picture; you may think you're bad but no-one will see it so why not!
  • put on some music and boooogey the day away!
  • snuggle up in bed and get yourself cosey and warm and just breathe
  • do a little bit of stretches/yoga to some calm music
  • eat any chocolate you can get your hands on
  • hop in the bath with some candles around you and a good book, or music!
  • learn to do something you've always wanted to (the splits, drawing something, learn the lyrics to a song, anything!)
  • put your favourite song on and just sing ...
sep 10 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +

Reasons To Get Better: (i will add something to this list each week to make sure i stay postive throughout!!!)

  • i want to make a happy and healthy future for kelsey and myself
  • i wanna eat a hunk of god damn chocolate cake and not want to murder myself after
  • so me tittehs actually grow a lil'
  • i don't want my parents bothering about me any more
  • i love the taste of food and i wanna eat everythin (yeh, i said it. take that, ana!)
  • life is too precious to just fart on my existence
  • i don't want to have to be secretive
  • so i can prove mum and dad wrong and get somewhere in my life
  • i do not want to waste my life in crazy hospitals thank you no thank you
feb 25 2013 ∞
oct 7 2013 +
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  • the crunch of snow covered grass as it meets your shoe
  • when kelsey holds me tight
  • waking up really early in the morning and feeling relaxed and refreshed
  • holding kelsey and making her feel safe when she's scared
  • kelsey's smile
  • staying up late at night getting carried away drawing and listening to cute, happy songs
  • discovering new growth and buds on my plants
  • songs that bring back happy, distant memories
  • when strangers walk past you and you share a friendly smile
  • thinking of my future i have if i still have kelsey
  • when my mum holds me for a long time, and tells me she loves me
oct 24 2012 ∞
oct 8 2013 +