this is a big list that i keep adding to for personal journaling and such, u don’t have to read it but there’s some good ones. some don’t make sense without context but enjoy

• son of a bitch, he stole my line.
• i bet you could find all the mysteries of the universe in someone else's hand.
• words were different when they lived inside of you.
• maybe we just lived between hurting and healing.
• i wanted to tell them that i never knew that people like dante existed in the world, people who looked at the stars, and knew the mysteries of water, and knew enough to know that birds belonged to the heavens and weren't meant to be shot down from their graceful flights by mean and stupid boys.
• how could i have ever been ashamed of loving dante quintana?
• and then she said, “déjate querer.” let yourself be loved.
• my philosophy is that worrying means you suffer twice.
• i don't think i'm dreaming... i ain't got the brains to make this up.
• see, they're currently in alien terrain, surrounded by millions of the most vicious creatures on the planet - humans.
• welcome to the unknown, boys. you're more lost than you realize.
• if dreams can't come true, then why not pretend?
• the loveliest lies of all.
• you are all the colors in one, at full brightness.
• you make me lovely, and it's so lovely to be lovely to the one i love ...
• and in that moment there's nothing i fear except losing hold of her hand.
• maybe it’s better to have gotten it right and been happy for one day instead of living a lifetime of wrongs.
• i’m at the finish line but i never ran the race.
• no matter how we choose to live, we both die at the end.
• a ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.
• to live is the rarest thing in the world. most people exist, that’s all.
• it is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live.
• we accept the love we think we deserve.
• and in that moment, i swear we were infinite.
• we didn’t talk about anything heavy or light. we were just there together. and that was enough.
• you can’t just sit there and put everybody’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love.
• please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough. and i will always believe the same about you.
• but for tonight, this is enough. from the shapes cast by the green paper lantern, you would never know that there were two boys sitting closely to one another trying to find themselves. you would only see shadows hugging, indiscriminate.
• and at some point, i know i’m going to have to crawl out of this bed and pick up the pieces, but right now it can just be me. just me, these four walls, and this bed. the universe doesn’t have to exist outside this bedroom, and that’s perfectly okay.
• “whatever happens” - his grip tightens a little - “i wish you all the best, benjamin de backer.” he says it with a smile. “you deserve it.”
• i feel the brush of his fingers, and i’m all too happy to take his hand again. neither of us look down, or tighten our grips, or say anything. because we don’t have to.
• love at first anxiety attack.
• “i wish you all the best, benjamin de backer.” they aren’t the same words, but i know exactly what he means. “i love you too.”
• you’re welcome anytime in my dreams
• learn a little self love, cause you’re not half as bad as you thought
• and no matter how much it hurts, it’s not goodbye, just see you later
• you’re not alone, please never forget; my arms are your second home
• life’s a hair; one gentle blow and it could be gone, and i’ve never felt so afraid
• how on earth could a galaxy like you think anything of a tiny star like me?
• ‘cause the bottom line is you make me happier than i’ve ever been
• a man must shave for to spare his daughter’s cheeks.
• i smile at him. he smiles at me. i draw blueberries.
• you see, i’m so sad to see you go... yet so happy that i know you.
• it has always been - and always will be - you.
• it’s not what we get out of life, but what we put into it. and you bring so much.
• you said, “you don’t have to believe what i believe, it’s enough to be good.” be good. i will.
• i would not bend to the hypothetical. i wish now that i would’ve, even if it was just to ease your mind in the belief that i could be headed to that other place you believed in. i would tell you now how my heaven is here. it was here.
• my heaven would make you laugh, because i get the feeling you didn’t get to do that very much.
• so i offer you now my ‘if.’ if there is a heaven, mine would have a post office, and i could send letters to yours. the first letter would read, “hell’s not so bad. they pretty much let you do whatever.”
• mom calls nathan to supper, and he descends from upstairs as if into some shadowy pool. he sits underwater and eats the food his mother has prepared. tonight, dad misses supper, working late. tonight, nathan can taste what is in front of him.
• he flies through the kitchen past mom’s flowered skirts (in which she is still studying how to be invisible) through the cloud of dad’s cigarettes (where he is already vanishing in the television’s blue aura).
• he is understanding, now. he is choosing. (...) it is a relief that they can feel each other, that their hands are warm. it is a relief that they are in the same world.
• nathan remembers, oddly, preacher john roberts leaning over the pulpit toward the congregation in puzzlement, in confusion at the notion of the disciple john resting his head on jesus’s chest. nathan rests his head there on roy and understands.
• they stand and go. they never look back.
• mad boy... / but you love me!
• do you like apples? / .. yeah. / yeah? well i got her number. how do you like dem apples?
• okay, everybody. that’s it for today. thanks. we’ll see you monday. we’ll be talking about freud and why he did enough cocaine to kill a small horse. thank you.
• so if i asked you about art, you’d probably give me the skinny on every art book ever written. michelangelo? you know a lot about him. life’s work, political aspirations, him and the pope, sexual orientation — the whole works, right? but i bet you can’t tell me what it smells like in the sistine chapel. you’ve never actually stood there and looked up at that beautiful ceiling. and seen that.
• it’s not fair. / what’s not fair? what? / i’ve been here for four years, and i’ve only just found you. / well, you found me.
• then we’ll punch a hole in the sky.
• you can fly even higher.
• i thought of being an instructor, sir. / top gun? / yes sir. / god help us.
• growing up is not the problem. forgetting is.
• to me, you will be unique in all the world. and to you, i shall be unique in all the world.
• it is only with the heart that one can see rightly. what is essential is invisible to the eye.
• death is only the end if you assume the story is about you.
• nature held me close and seemed to find no fault with me.
• without words i told her everything i felt. without saying anything she let me know she understood.
• scream, leo. / why would i do that? / why wouldn’t you?
• being with you is ... the most anyone’s looked at me in my entire life.
• tomorrow will be kinder.
• i think one day, you're going to be very happy.
• i think one day, we're both gonna be very happy.
• darling let's get old.
• tender vandalisms.
• and when we landed, and the pilot put the brakes on hard, my arm reflexively went across the seat, holding the li'l guy in place, the way my dad's arm would when he had to brake hard in that car without seatbelts to speak of, in one of my very favorite gestures in the encyclopedia of human gestures.
• i want to die. / no, you don't. you just need to heal.
• we're not meant to be alone.
• sunrise, abram, death: these are truths.
• he can take it from here, and i need to let him go.
• their 'i love you' is in their 'stay,' in their 'don't go,' in their 'welcome home,' in fingers hooked in belt loops and lingering looks across a room, and they wouldn't have it any other way.
• you gave me a key and called it home.
• he was lost, he was lost, he was found.
• it is just a key. / you're a foster child. you know it isn't.
• neil finally knew what this look meant. the darkness in andrew's stare wasn't censure; it was perfect understanding.
• redemption lies plainly in truth
• today, of all days, see: how the most dangerous thing is to love, how you will heal and you'll rise above
• and then i realized that i don't have to choose between the sun and the moon - i could be any of the planets, and all the stars, too. (micah s., bt)
• i'm sorry you didn't get a chance to say goodbye to your big sister. but i didn't kill her. she never even existed... not really.