J.

• this month, the first month of 2018, the month in which i turned 21, the month of many things let's just say has been quite a ride. i felt intense emotion from both ends of the spectrum: complete happiness to unsurpassed [!!!???!?!!!!]. and i am grateful for every single thing. though some things may not have been pleasant, i get the feeling that they needed to happen. i've always been prone to suppressing myself- from saying things, indulging in feelings but i think this this month has been a major step forward for me regarding those things. there's still work to be done -that i know- but i am taking baby steps.