getting close to people was always kind of scary. i trusted steve deeply and t'challa interested me. i remember living with steve for a while at some point.

i don't remember anything pre-winter soldier, unfortunately, other than losing my arm. i dissociate a lot and i don't really feel safe anywhere.

triggering a winter soldier state can happen on my own sometimes if i was trying to hard to remember. i remember trying to delve into my memories pre-winter soldier a lot. did a lot of journaling.