may '24

• (1). ahh, school has beat me silly to be honest. I'm quiet tired all the time now, the weather has bounced from being tornado to clear sunny skies. there's a bird outside my kitchen window atop our rain drain, as well as birds outside my bedroom window somewhat. they just very loudly slam onto the roof.
• (2). hyper fixations are going to be in full swing once I'm out on summer break. I'm thrilled!! because then I have time to just smile and enjoy my life and not think ''holy shit I'm doomed'' every five minutes.
• (3). found a new wacky hobby of making little ''animations''. I wouldn't call them that but its quite fun to make.

augusut 2026. [TW : Mental Illness + Ranting.]

• i'm miserable. it feels like nobody in my life really cares about how i feel anymore. i don't really truthfully think they ever did i'f im being honest with you. I feel like im lying to us both when i pretend they did.
• I'm going to texas in a month. I'm not sure if i'm really excited anymore as i am just dreading going on a plane for the first time in my life. I've avoided it all as much as i can.
• i feel like im going to die soon and i don't know why.