- 14. mrs s emailed me if i'm returning to school. i said no. i wouldn't say that i'm scared...rather....i'm just not looking forward to people demanding me for a definitive answer for my staying home. i know there will be two groups: those who will nod their heads and be like okay and move on with their lives, and those who will say okay but look at me with judging eyes, for not having enough faith because "surely had i enough faith God would have provided and got me going back to school." rizza is the leader of the latter group. but i talked to arezoo about it and she was understanding, positive about it actually. said that since i'm staying home then this is the time to really start working on my grandma. it was such a lifting of burdens to hear her say that. and i guess pastor and arezoo's words are the only ones that should matter to me, because out of everyone at home, they're the only two that really know of what i went through/am going through at school and at church. well then there's hannah but she's in her own little world.
- 26. staying home and not going back to bible college is the toughest test i've been dealt thus far in my few years of existence. if you decide to go to bible college for at least a year and you're reading this and you can afford it, i beg you to go for both semesters.
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