i want to grab a nail gun and put it through my face stab a needle in my eye maybe then ill be at grace every single thing i do you make it feel like a mistake every word i dare to speak feels like i just shouldnt say- that i love you no im so over it and maybe, i once loved you but its hard to get over it all the nights spent in bed all the times i wish i was dead from the words that left your damn mouth

sometimes i wonder what life would be like if i rejected you and sometimes i daydream about how happy i'd be living away from you but its painful i just cant seem to let you go like a rose, youre my thorn, we come as one

poking my sides until they hurt i feel as if my lungs are bouta burst my heart drops when i hear that tone please just leave me alone my bladder squeezes with a dread all i feel is fear im stuck in my own head please just leave me alone leave me alone