in this list i tried to think of all the great, amazing things that have happened to me. some of these totally not mean anything to me anymore but i knew they did back then. this list not finished by any means, but i just decided to already publish it.

• 11.11.2001 no angels in concert
• 26.05.2006 tokio hotel concert and stuff (-28.05.2006)
• ??.06.2006 we will rock you for the first time, serkan on stage
• 05.07.2006 tokio hotel concert once again (-07.07.2006)
• 01.08.2006 magdeburg with y. (-03.08.2006)
• 25.08.2006 hotel continental :D (-26.08.2006)
• 11.02.2008 30 seconds to mars concert in köln
• 13.03.2009 the day that changed a lot
• 23.11.2009 30 seconds to mars concert in köln
• 23.01.2010 first time schuelerrock in wuppertal
• 06.03.2010 30 seconds to mars in düsseldorf
• 13.03.2010 jesus christ superstar & meeting serkan for the first time
• 07.04.2010 hamburg, tarzan & meeting anton zetterholm for the first time
• 08.04.2010 heide park with my dad
• 23.04.2010 rock&pop live and being on stage with ch
• 02.06.2010 wicked for the first time
• 21.07.2010 europa park
• 14.08.2010 sommernacht, helping get over the accident from my dad
• 24.09.2010 got my driver's license, "du huhn"
• 21.10.2010 wicked again, with anton and falling in love with roberta
• 16.12.2010 vom geist der weihnacht mit sandy and crying because of happiness
• 15.01.2011 my 18th birthday, hiho for the first time, falling in love with the show
• 04.03.2011 playing with my band in pom
• 09.04.2011 a day in kassel & into the woods
• 04.07.2011 sailing on the ijsselmeer (-08.07.2011)
• 09.07.2011 sommernacht and getting a free ticket
• 25.09.2011 drew sarich backstage
• 30.09.2011 london (-3.10.2011)
• 02.11.2011 hiho, giving josie a present, talking a lot to chris
• 29.11.2011 30 seconds to mars concert in köln
• 02.12.2011 hiho, crazy times, chris telling me everyones loves it when i'm around (+3.12.2011)
• 28.12.2011 phantasialand with lea
• 01.01.2012 berlin, a great time, great shows, just woah (-06.01.2012)
• 09.02.2012 a free show kein pardon with roberta
• 14.02.2012 hair
• 30.03.2012 last day of school
• 31.03.2012 hiho, a first hug that started a big thing :), talking to tino for the first time (-02.04.2012)
• 24.04.2012 my last written exam
• 06.05.2012 a great time in berlin in general
• 21.05.2012 i quote my carpe diem list "ORAL EXAM FUCKING DONE"
• 22.06.2012 abilass, walking up the stage to "mein ding"
• 23.06.2012 dance performance (+24.06.2012)
• 06.07.2012 20th hiho show, party in berlin
• 18.07.2012 berlin, muffins for the cast, kisses on the cheek from tino (-20.07.2012)
• 28.07.2012 sommernacht, me singing mein ding
• 16.08.2012 marie antoinette, being in tecklenburg
• 27.08.2012 aida to norway (-01.09.2012)
• 17.10.2012 singing "mein ding" on hiho stage
• 29.12.2012 oh well, the day i won a car :D
• 13.01.2013 doppelshow hiho on their anniversary, udo on stage
• 15.01.2013 my 20th birthday, 30th hiho-show and two year anniversary
• 10.03.2013 audition in hamburg
• 20.04.2013 we will rock you after 7 years, seeing chris after nine months
• 29.05.2013 we will rock you bandnight
• 06.06.2013 sicily, having a great relaxed time, great family time and reaaading all day (-13.06.2013)
• 24.06.2013 audition in osnabrück
• 30.06.2013 wwwry derniere
• 02.08.2013 tecklenburg (+03.08.2013)
• 04.08.2013 one week in hamburg with great events & the best workshop ever (-12.08.2013)
• 13.08.2013 heide park
• 03.09.2013 dubai, burj khalifa, the dubai mall, wild wadi waterpark, all the food at the mariott hotel, the drive through the dessert (-11.09.2013)
• 19.01.2014 elif concert in köln
• 10.02.2014 audition in essen
• 02.04.2014 5 times hiho mania (-06.04.2014)
• 09.04.2014 audition in wien (-11.04.2014)
• 25.06.2014 30 seconds to mars concert in mönchengladbach
• 13.08.2014 moving to vienna
• 01.09.2014 starting school at pca
• 09.03.2015 getting into the joop workshop
• 27.03.2015 getting into the joop finale
• 02.04.2015 finally seeing drew sarich in jcs
• 09.04.2015 that whole fucking week in berlin (-16.04.2015)
• 22.05.2015 austrian road trip (-27.05.2015)
• 01.06.2015 family holiday on sicily (-08.06.2015)
• 06.07.2015 audition in berlin
• 01.08.2015 moving to berlin
• 21.10.2015 my first holiday in vienna after moving (-25.10.2015)
• 13.01.2015 hihos fifth and final birthday, ME SINGING
• 05.02.2016 spa hotel with my mum (-08.02.2016)
• 30.03.2016 vienna (-02.04.2016)
• 14.05.2016 another spa weekend with mum (-18.05.2016)
• 18.07.2016 booktube-a-thon 2016 (-24.07.2016)
• 20.08.2016 aidamar to eastern europe (-27.08.2016)
• 28.08.2016 hinterm horizont derniere
• 31.08.2016 miranda sings live in hamburg
• 27.01.2017 hamburg, aidaprima to western europe, meeting maddie & bee (-03.02.2017)
• 21.02.2017 a conjuring of light release
• 01.03.2017 vienna & derniere (-04.03.2017)
• 04.04.2017 glöckner von notre dame dress rehearsal
• 02.08.2017 meeting victoria schwab video
• 11.08.2017 costa favolosa to norway, seeing so many waterfalls, winning the voice of the sea, niendorf & ahrensburg afterwards (-20.08.2017)
• 02.09.2017 30 SECONDS TO MARS street gig at postbahnhof
• ??.12.2017 starting therapy
• 12.04.2018 walk off the earth concert in berlin
• 18.01.2019 the day I finished therapy
• 03.03.2019 performing my abschlussprojekt "what baking can do"
• 27.03.2019 officially graduating
• 03.04.2019 panic! at the disco concert in berlin (especially the speech after girls/girls/boys)
• 24.04.2019 my first professional musical theatre audition, especially as it was such a good experience
• 26.04.2019 getting a zusage
• 28.04.2019 coheed and cambria concert in köln
• 11.05.2019 the day macmillan auto approved me on edelweiss
• 18.06.2019 getting my BEA package from melanie, the story of her meeting tamsyn
• 07.07.2019 christopher street day in köln with sandra, my first pride parade
• 09.07.2019 walk off the earth in bonn (with tickets I won)
• 13.07.2019 my cousin's polterabend
• 17.07.2019 seeing my longtime friend sylv again, chilling with her for six hours, coming out
• 28.07.2019 reaching 2k subscribers on my youtube channel