most important about this month:

• hinterm horizont <3
• i start to hate reading "michael eisenburger" on the cast list, i'd like to burn those but he really did a great job as udo!
• i don't believe that anyone can sing "die unstillbare gier" better than drew sarich! really brought tears to my eyes
• THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE SERKAN!!!
• christopher brose will be understudy udo ♥ WHAAAT ♥
• ferne ufer ♥
• ..my last months of school started..
• first singing lesson in collogne
• i've got my school report
• bis(s) zum ende der nacht - i've read the last 350 pages in one day.
• my 19th birthday
• I'VE GOT A LAPTOP!!!!!!
• die wilden hühner ♥
• sims (world adventures & pets)
• starting to miss everything - hiho, serkan, josie, chris, ghost, wicked.. just... everything :'(

thoughts of a day:

• 01.01 - i am sorry, i had to do all the lists even before 2012 was starting, just because i wanted to organise them here before going to berlin. now i am all set up for berlin and will keep my lists updated :D // yeaaah long bus ride FTW! x_x // FINALLLLYYYYY HOOOMEE!!! Yaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!
• 02.01 - what a day..
• 03.01 - i finally, after three months saw something else than hiho :D tanz der vampire was lovely! drew was awesome as always and anton really surprised me with a more than perfect alfred <3 wow :)
• 04.01 - GOT A YOUNG TICKET IN ROW 2 TODAY!!!!!
• 05.01 - i am so fucking sad to go - i.. maan i will be back in three months. NOOO. that is such a long time. also florian told me he has his derniere soon :(((
• 06.01 - back home but not really...
• 07.01 - i managed to already array some things here.. you know, unpacking and stuff like that. now i am writing the blog entry and it just gets longer and longer. // finished the fucking blog entry and now i.. i feel good, always when i finish the entries after such a tour. now i still need to do the fahrräder :D
• 08.01 - THE FUCKING REFLEX CAMERA PICTURES CAME TO ME AND THEY ARE AAAAWWEEEESOOOMMMEEEE!!! // only one fahrrad to go.. yay.. // school tomorrow :( my last weeks there.. wow D:
• 09.01 - first day of school was okay....
• 10.01 - i am so tired, i have muscle ache like i don't even know what.. and i need to clean the house today ugghhhh. i dooon't want tooo!!!!
• 11.01 - i am so happy when i am through this week.. it's the third day of school and i am already soooo fed up!!
• 12.01 - i booked tickets for kein pardon and rocky horror show today and i am EXCITED to see something else than hiho and something i've never saw before. haaaa ♥ also i have my first singin lesson in collogne today, where i went for a 'test-lesson' in november. i am very excited since i really liked my teacher the last time and i think it will be a fun lesson :) // SINGING LESSON WAS AWESOME. My teacher got goose bumps which actually - to be honest - made me reaaally proud. it is one thing to hear that you have a nice voice but it is something else TO SEE that you can touch people with it :') really made me happy! // ohhh i also finally hold 'drums of autumn' but in the German version in my hands and will soon start to read it :)))
• 13.01 - just got my school report :) // FRIDAY THE 13TH // today is hinterm horizonts anniversary. // i was invited to a 'dschungel camp' public viewing with lots of food!!
• 14.01 - i was actually not doing anything else than reading today. i started to read 'tauben im gras' in between 'bis(s) zum ende der nacht' but i already fell asleep after two pages - it is exhausting and i think i should be awake and bla to read this book. well to breaking dawn again - i finished it. i've read about 350 pages today, which definitely is a lot for me. i am not sure if i read it so fast because of the story or because i am so excited to start with 'der ruf der trommel'. well, i don't care. i really liked it and i regret that i didn't start to read it earlier!!
• 15.01 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! MY PRESENTS ARE SO FUCKING AWESOME AND I FEEEEEEEEL LIKE FUCKING DYING!!!! OH MY GOOOOOD I'VE GOT A LAAAAPTOOOOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! // my goooooood, what a lovely birthday was thaat ♥ i am happy until nowhere <3
• 16.01 - only had school until 1pm today :) // sooooo i finally cleaned all up and my old screen is gone so i have my laptop on my desk and bla and ahhh ♥ i also organized my book and dvd shelves so that everything fits.. and i also still have a little bit more space for dvds AAAND many more for my books, which i will probably get a lot of the next few weeks/months. whatsoever. i am happy :) i will get a new desk next month too, there will also be more space for books and dvds and i can finally array my whole room again so that i can place my bed somewhere else. and bla. what am i even writing :D it's late...... XD
• 17.01 - working day :) // I JUST FOUND OUT THAT SERKAN WILL COME TO KÖLN FOR A CONCERT IN APRIL AND I JUST DIDN'T REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT ANYTHING I JUST FUCKING BOOKED AND WOOAAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAH PEOPLE!!!!!! SERIOUSLY!!! HAPPY AS FUCKING FUCK!!!! FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! WOAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
• 18.01 - blablablaa
• 19.01 - WILDEN HÜHNER GESTOHLENE GEHEIMNISSE AND SLEEPING AND BEING LAZY ALL DAY! F YEAH!
• 20.01 - and today i will be even laziiiiiieeeeeer!!! and playing sims ♥
• 21.01 - we had a little "party" today at home with some of our 'family friends' :)
• 22.01 - playing sims all fucking day... woahhhhh...
• 23.01 - seems like nothing is happening, i am too lazy to write. i was fucking tired today because i couldn't sleep... blaaaaaaaa blaaaaaaa....
• 24.01 - Christmas was one month ago :D // been to the hairdresser today to finally cut my hair again which really was necessary :p // my mum is at a health resort right now for a 3 weeks treatment - it's nothing bad "just" stress and everything that just happened to us the last one and a half years. // zumba and dancing today - and also a lot of sims again, i have sims 3 pets now :3
• 25.01 - saw "iphigenie auf tauris" today - was quite good, especially compared to the fucked up book ^^ and i booked tickets for 'hair' <3
• 26.01 - singing lesson today, which showed me again, why i want to be a musical actress again and why i want to do all this for the rest of my life ♥ // i really feel a bit down today, i miss many things and feel a bit empty.. hopefully this just stays for one day.
• 27.01 - hahaaaaaa i love the bachelor, really :D // OH MY GOOOOOOOOD PONIES IN SIMS ARE SO F U C K I N G CUTEEEEE!!!!!
• 28.01 - sandy meet & greet today. it was sooo lovely, i cannot even put it into words.. but i am REALLY tired and everything now. also my arm and hand hurts from bowling.. oh god xD
• 29.01 - i think this january really went by so fucking slowly, i cannot beliebe it. it feels like all this january lists have been here since forever and i am really happy to just start a new months.. my first month since three without hinterm horizont.... so strange :'/
• 29.01 - god i'm a sims addict at the moment :D // i started to think about going 10 gebote.. with michael eisenburger. actually i am shocked myself but this would be the perfect oppurtunity to see him in another role than as udo.. goooddddd.. i don't know....
• 30.01 - i just got a message today which i should actually be happy about but i just reall can't.. i just.. ugh.. and all this doesn't really make my feelings right now better. i feel so........ kjdsfjsjkdfjdsjfskdjdjfs :((( i want tooo diiiiee.. (not in the sense of dying but of.. idk.. maybe you do) // grad würde ich mich echt am liebsten mit einem "ohne dich ist alles doof" schaf ich ne ecke setzen und rumheulen. absoluter tiefpunkt, echt ;( maaannoo.. ich hätte nicht gedacht, dass es so schlimm sein kann. ich wünschte einfach, es würde vorbei gehen :( vorallem diese gewissheit, dass es erst in zwei monaten wieder soweit ist. es macht mich echt kirre. WENN DIESE VERFICKTE BERLINALE PAUSE NICHT WÄRE würde ich ja über karneval.. aber so.. fuck ey ;( // muss aufpassen nicht auf alte gewohnheiten zurückzugreifen... tiefer tiefpunkt ;( zeigt mir aber wiederrum auch, was für ein wichtiger teil all das für mich geworden ist und dass ich das, also einfach musical allgemein, einfach brauche!!!!!!!!!!!
• 31.01 - i feel better, more or less. // headache :( // i seriously made eise wallpapers for melly omg :D // FEBRUARY HERE I COME!