this is just a try. i really wanna start this again. just a place to put random thoughts. honestly i've had so many moments the last few weeks where i just wanted to get shit out. but was scared to write it on twitter because i didn't want to be annoying. then again i don't feel like it belongs into my "diary". so here we are. there's not going to be something every day. it's just a place for me if i don't know where else to go.

• holy crap don't we love hangovers and public holidays.
• du sagst das richtige, wenn du mich siehst. manchmal kaum ein unterschied, zwischen freundhschaft und verliebt.
• i took two naps today and now it's finally 9pm and i can finally really just go into bed and sleep. i am just glad this day is as good as over.
• will i stop feeling embarrassed tomorrow?
• 11/2/14 i feel a tiny bit better but definitely not as much as i had hoped
• but how am i supposed to forget when everything reminds me of you?
• and now i can't fucking fall asleep that's just great
• 11/3/14 i knewwwww this days was going to make everything so much better thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaank you. it really wasn't easy to start the day at all but it just got better and better basically with every minute AND AHHHHHHHHHH
• 11/4/14 nooope the week is still fucking horrible
• 11/5/14 this week is just fucking nuts. ballet totally killed me, i wanted to quit everything. i actually waited for my teacher to ask me if everything is alright, so i just could say now and she would know that i'm just no feeling well and that's why i'm failing the whole lesson.
• anywaaaay i was just pissed off but kinda wanted to use the energy for jazz and fuck, did that work. i had such a great fucking jazz class, i can't even. we did pirouettes and my teacher said: "i don't want any comments on your face after this. i mean if you turn three beautiful pirouettes you can of course smile, but no negative commentary, okay?" so i got so fucking motivated that I turned three BEAUTIFUL PIROUETTES ON BOTH SIDES and my teacher high fived me afterwards. und ich hab endlich die scheiß grease hebung hinbekommen. zweimal. mit anlauf!
• 11/07/14 "you really found something this week" woaaah how well being pissed works, great :D