i don't know - i am just trying this out. i'll write down every day for the rest of the year. and what my thoughts were on this day or what has happened.

• 05.09 - i seriously feel like pregnant today. because of my feelings going up and down like crazy. actually they are happy and sad at the same time. idek, there is a party tonight and i can already imagine me drinking too much but i do not really care at the moment. probably makes me crying like a waterfall but since there are only very good friends of mine there will be no problem. probably helping me to get over my stupid problems at the moment /// when they planned a trip to berlin in my sw-kurs i just knew i wouldn't participate because i would be in berlin way too often this year anyway. i was right.
• 06.09 - oh god, i remember why i said i wouldn't be drinking anymore. this doesn't even have to do with any hangover (which i luckily don't really have today).. it is just.. ugh. i just don't know. it'll probably take some time until i really don't drink anymore but i already noticed that i don't really like to drink alcohol anymore.
• 07.09 - okay. first day of school & guess what? almost no lessons. i mean wednesday is not really a tough day anyway - going to school at 12am and being back on 4pm - but when the computers don't work you can't have computer science which is why i only have to lessons on the first day. what a start.
• 08.09 - uhm ops, getting invited to a birthday breakfast for saturday while actually forgetting to congratulate her...
• 09.09 - oh GOD so tired. best thing in the world are my sw lessons when i can go all crazy about... things and ana listens to all of it and is even supporting me through my crazy stupid thoughts. i love her :D ♥
• 10.09 - woah what a day, starting at 8am, having breakfast at my friend's house which was actually really awesome. then i had a spontaneous gig with my band on a summer festival which was actually way better than expected. at the evening we were at the birthday of my godmother which was also so much better than expected. now i am tired as fuck but i really loved this day & go to bed very happily :3
• 11.09 - i just love, love, love máté kamaras perfomance as death on the elisabeth dvd. i love it until nowhere. i think i would give even more to see him in this role than i would to see serkan kaya as luigi lucheni. seriously. i love it so much. // florian hacke, you are the best stasi fritsche i ever saw - i love you with all of my heart. next time i will get a photo :D
• 12.09 - idek why i don't think that monday is the worst day of the week. even though i have school until 5.30pm and have to go dancing at 6.30pm.. it's just okay as it is. probably most of the time will go over without me sitting in my room thinking about too much stuff & trying to stop myself from eating because of frustration. blaaa bla.
• 13.09 - oh god, wtf is wrong with me. do you know these days where you'd just like to.. lay down in bed and sleep for a few days. today is such a day...... // why do my bandmates keep forget to tell me when bandpractice is cancelled. god. what a day. oh but i have to say one things is positive: i love physiotherapy ♥
• 14.09 - not so much to say about this day.. just how stupid i was to leave my window open while being in school. SO cold in my room though it is quite warm outside. // MY IPOD IS BROKEN NOOEEZ! // i hate humans. i hate them. i hate them so much.
• 15.09 - A FREE DAY, yay. well actually in my eyes this means no afternoon activity after school. well i still have to finish cleaning the house but it's not so much work. lovely ♥
• 16.09 - i've got my iphone today.. ♥
• 17.09 - still struggling with my iphone, all the day :D got some apps bla bla, also i had a gig with my band today again and after it we were on the funfair, which was awesome.
• 18.09 - i feel like having a hangover because i have not slept enough. uuuggh. also i downloaded opera today because firefox is always fucked up! my brother would be proud.
• 19.09 - finally decided when i will take dancing lessons additionally to the ones i do now. happy because i made a decision, sceptical because i do not know if i can cope with all this
• 20.09 - shitty day, sleepy all day, feeling sick all day, bla bla
• 21.09 - the first time i went to ballett after modern dance, it was very exhausting but felt kind of good. we saw someone from dancing off today.. more and more people are going at the moment, there will be one next week again. it is so tragic, makes me think of me leavin (probably) next year. i have been there since i'm four, it's strange...
• 22.09 - my mom's birthday :) present: quad bike drive!
• 23.09 - S E R I O U S L Y ? ? just get on with your life!
• 24.09 - partying was awesome and really no alcohol. i'll really try to not drink anything anymore. btw i've also got my driver's license one year ago :)
• 25.09 - DREW SARICH CONCERT TODAY - SO EXCITED!
• 26.09 - i am SO tired, gladly i don't really have a lot of school today because a lot of the student are gone. BUT the concert was absolutely AWEOMSE. i regret NOTHING, the long waiting was SO worth it. i hope to see drew in berlin in january!
• 27.09 - selling food at our school today because habe the special "university day". also my stupid cold is getting on my nerves and i hope i will be well again soon.
• 28.09 - oh god so ill. i feel horrible.
• 29.09 - i have a lot to do today. have to go to the doctor, pack my stuff because i'll go to london, clean the house and go to my zumba-lessen. but london tomorrow - FINALLY!
• 30.09 - FUCK YEAH 65pounds for the greatest seat i ever had. london is heaven, ghost is heaven. wow.