some make me feel good, some make me laugh, others piss me off. but in any case, theres too many locked ones so.

april

• kelsey: "maybe if i wake up & stop dreaming i can shake the shit i'm feeling & i can realize im just freaking out for no good reason" -kevin devine:p
• kelsey: ive decided hardcore kids must fuck so good if they're this intense about moshing. lemme know.
• kelsey: i've decided everyone has one friend they're in love with, and you're mine<3
• aren: saw some elephants. miss you.
• kelsey: whenever i see roman i picture him & gabby having sex.
• kelsey: "baby don't worry cause now i have yr back and evertime you feel like crying, i'm gonna try to make you laugh and if i can't, if it just hurts too bad, then we will wait for it to pass and i will keep you company through those days so long and black" i figured bright eyes could say it better than me.

may

• josh: we're a car full of bj's.
• tom: black & baggy clothes. you needn't worry, if you get any more attractive the guys after you will reach 3 digits!
• nik: why? if you mess up, you just erase...

june

• kelsey: Becca, you're a great person and you should never let a boy define you or your happiness. I love you, and just remember being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up.
• kelsey: i love you & you dont need anyone but yourself, yr friends, family. and all bad times will eventually pass & in the mean time we can cuddle until you feel better.
• nik: well have fun with that nervous breakdown. just remember "woogity woogity woogity"
• j.o.: im not a boy, i know how to listen.
• jenny: i hope so! ur luck u have jack n hes the luckiest guy ever to have u. u guys suck! lol

july

• dustin: thank you. im glad you liked it. i've been depressed all this week cause i'm usually there with you right now. it makes me really sad how much i miss you all. love yoou.
• jean: i know, i know. go to sleep, beautiful. i love you & i'nm going to visit you tomorrow.
• gabby: i just wanted to tell you that i love you becca.
• kelsey: Becca Abi Saad, I love you more! EB could never steal you because there will never be anyone better than you anywhere.
• kelsey: Thats so awesome! maybe one day we could share bras!
• gershom: just relax. its all gonna be alright.
• gershom: fuck! this is just like romeo and juliet! you thought i was asleep. so you went to sleep. but my phone was just in the other room. and now here i am not asleep! Now i have no choice but to stab myself with your dagger. Goodbye!
• morgan: i was listening to rain and it made me think of old maryland trips and phone calls lol
• gershom: aw really? i had no idea that those little things had such an effect over somebody haha :)
• khalee: ROUTE SIXTY SIX. THE STAGE. ITS A KICK ASS MOSH BAND!
• gershom: if you learn to really live like that, you will no longer have problems, i promise.
• morgan: the best part of sex is love. and i won't ever forget that because of you.
• kelsey: love you more! we need to have more talks again soon because im secretly in love with you.
• gershom: i want to kiss you and cuddle with you, but i can't. i'm not allowed to :(
• kelsey: &i want you to know i never expected to wake up after sex and see a pair of bright orange tight underwear next to the bed that wasn't my own.
• dad: gone fishing, love u

august

• kelsey: i just..everything would be so much easier if you were a boy. we could be in love and i woudnt be used and you wouldnt be neglected and when things like yr house problems happened i wouldnt try to find the words to console you because i could just hold you and let you know i loved you. I dont know, itd just be easier.
• nik: maybe you can & you just dont know it yet (we were talking about how music gives us goosebumps and how i wish i could paint like that.)
• nik: i just want to hug you Becca<3.
• nik: :( are you working 2moro? if you are, be prepared for the biggest, most awkward hug ever.
• nik: come in early for some loving :) (that sounds really weird but i dont care.)
• nik: becca, after what you told me today about your house and jack, you better believe i worry about you. you deserve someone better, someone you can trust and someone that wants to hang out with you more than once a month.
• nik: im glad you can talk to me because you areone of those people i feel like i can tell anything to.
• gershom: cheer up baby
• gershom: i wish i knew the right thing to say to you.
• gershom: hmm. probably when the girl is aggressive. haha what about you?
• gershom: i miss you
• kelsey: you're just too good to be true can't take my eyes off of you<3
• gershom: i know that you and kelsey usually say this to me. but i'm really glad that we're friends :).
• gershom: laying in bed. texting you. and thinking.
• gershom: i was just about to text you! but i decided you would be asleep still :)
• gershom: :) i can't wait to see you again
• gershom: :( sorry bro i was shredding.
• gershom: sorry baby
• gershom: babyy :(
• gershom: Morning lovely. You were in my dream.
• gershom: Morning becky :) i'm eating breakfast with a bunch of weird old men :(
• gershom: Hmm. Youd be a good lesbian.
• gershom: Mmmmm haha. How's your lovely little self doin?
• gershom: Morning sunshine :)
• nik: you might be unemployed, but you are very loved<3
• aren: you know it. &thats why we find it significant. because the two of us are completely fucking insane. in a good way.
• kelsey: im really gonna try to live like that from now on though because honestly, we're awesome and any boys who aren't gonna fight for us are crazy.
• kelsey: i love you so much. you helped me so much tonight without even knowing it. i love you.

september

• gershom: :) i am really glad we are friends too. I love hangin with you:)
• nik: Not that bad? Your freaking greeeaaattt<33
• kelsey: i think we're just so awesome the universe has to give us shitty guys so we don't realize how great we are & use it to take over the world.
• anthony (from moms phone 9/17): Hello:) im bored :( mom might come home tonight :) anthony

october

• dustin: im watching the viddeos of last summer in the dollar store. God i miss you!
• emily: i was just saying to my mom that i like hanging out with you & jack.. except i said jecca & back lol
• aren: i miss you too. And i love you. Pat swys hi. We should hang out soon. Disregard wiat im saying. I love you. Goodnight. Sweet Dreams. I love you.
• sean: drop out and paint shit.
• aren: awh that sucks. well. i send my hugs and theoretical chicken soup =). how was school?

november

• kelsey: I'm just so happy for black people!
• kelsey: lets be close again lol i miss seeing yo beautiful face err day.
• emily: i dont know, the tour is supposed to be over at 4? Im boreddd lol and it for reallyizal looks like a prison.

december

• aren: i hope youre alright. Because honestly, I dont know what id do without you. To quote that song lava monster,"you will not give up. Because the moment that you do, i would give up too." so, dont give up. Love you.
• gabby: Ahha, I don't mind jack, but hate to break it to ya pretty lady but he's just not my type. If his legs were hollow I could use them as a straw!
• kelsey: I MISS THEM TOO :( eb with annie just sucks its not the same, and hanging out with like allison and nik was never like me you and jack on his kitchen floor :(
• kelsey: i miss old gershom and old jack for that matter. I miss when out friends would rather hang out with us than smoke weed :(
• aren: haha, no worries. Im glad we're friends too. My life would be significantly less interesting and worthwhile without you.
• aren: haha, amanda harding take two:p Notes not creepy. Just kind of.. it makes me feel like crying, but im not sure for what reason. If that makes sense.
• aren: haha sorry to hear that. Well. Love youu =). And I read your note in full, which made my life.