i was honestly scared when you asked me if i had a boyfriend, and even more when you pulled the 'date the fuck out of me' thing, because i couldn't tell if you were fooling around or being serious. i wasn't even certain if i had feelings for you that time (or was i just in denial...), so i decided to do the one thing i do best: push people away.

• .. or at least tried to, because i learnt that i'm only good at doing it unintentionally. i was hesitant as hell, like do i want to keep my feelings in denial or accept them as they are. you have no idea how much i tried denying my feelings back then since i was uncertain, but then i'd catch you seeping into every thought of mine, and i guess that was how i found my answer.

either way, i never really kept my distance from you. we ended up talking more than we used to, and as cliché as it sounds, i found myself falling faster and harder for you.