- was supposed to be doing a bucket collection for roy castle lung cancer today n I was really excited, yknow to be doing something productive n improving my uni chances but nobody was there, I tried calling, I asked in their shops, I dno what to do about tomorrow?? I've emailed them, they haven't replied. I guess I will go, just in case, will need to get some bus money from the car. if no one is there again tomorrow i'm gonna be super sad fuck this fuck. on the other hand finally made some plans with pl so that'll be nice i guess. also watched heathers n i loved it so so so much n i'm genuinely concerned about how much i am in love with the psychotic JD.
- did the bucket collection today n there was a really cute b there n he was really friendly too i hope i see him again aw.
- eid was good had a good time even though I really didn't expect to. kind of had old feelings of being left out coming back when they stayed at the others house. but then she stayed at mine too. felt guilty leaving her there for like 4 hours. went to pl's house, had a nice time. can't believe they'd like, done stuff. came as such a shock to me just can't imagine it. freaked me out a little bit can't imagine myself ever doing stuff like that.
- nadia is here. we went shoppig. she is so blunt. wow.
- saw kick ass 2 AMAZING n kfc. (can't imagine me ever being at a cinema with a real human boyy)
- went shopping, got all my school stuff, woohoo.
- got my results today, n so happy with them, 10 A*'s n 3 A's! Seriously couldn't believe they were my results. But then pl told me she got all A*'s. ugh. why must she be better than me in everything. I mean, it doesn't seem fair, she revised for physics the night before if I remember correctly? she spends like every free minute with ol? but still does better than me? has the perfect life? hm. ok. that seems fair. n jh got all a*'s. perfecto. fabulous. i hate him. didn't speak. i am delusional as fuck. pl also backed out of pool plans last minute n walked off randomly without saying bye. she went to costa with ol. ok. we haven't spoken since. hasn't messaged me or nutin. ok. well anyway, i went to costa with jl n sa n ha n kc n it was lovely, then jl n i had a nice time in the pool then we met with sa n i had a nice honest chat with her. she is one of the few people i can be honest with. i'm still so terrified i'm going to make no frinds (since i have like 2 current friends)
- went to work today, finally learnt how to use the till! ben finally spoke to me haha. felt guilty about leaving but i had to. think i'll carry on volunteering there after summer, at the weekend (until i get swamped with other volunteer work or make friends. haha. haha. haha)
- nadia left today, o well. got my brows done n they look amazing!! hope they last perfectly till school. also bought benefit foundation n got my make up done it was lovely felt lovely. my mum told me the colour made me look darker. i thought it looked lovely. i hate it when people make me question my self. o well. i'm over it now
- didn't get to go to the bucket collection today n i was miffed but it's ok i'll go on monday. finished 100 years of solitude today n its soooooo good. shame i'll never get to talk to him about it. o well.
aug 3 2013 ∞
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