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- there have been so many tipping points lately. last saturday we danced with a on an empty stage to some hip-hop which was strange because a) it was 6 am b) we weren't drunk c) hip-hop d) i've never danced with a e) i've never really talked with a and until recently i've always been pretty sure he dislikes me for some reason probably me being too much of an empty shell. anyway, it was one of these nights where you didn't expect a thing and you got lots of good feels in return just for the pure joy of being there and making silly jokes and dancing because you're not too cool for it. so i was pretty sure everything is REALLY GOING TO BE OKAY NOW and of course things went from bad to worse severeal times during the next 5 days so on thursday when m dragged me to the dancefloor where they played nirvana and someone covered bowie's "hereoes", i told her that i've had to many of these breaking points really and she actually shaked me and said "this moment has never been before. you hear me? this has never happened before." and in a strange way that i haven't quite figured out yet, because it happened yesterday, i'm pretty sure this will help me somehow (sept)
- there is nothing there is nothing THEN THERE IS SOMETHING for a brief moment... then there is nothing again (july)
- there are always certain things you can't get back and this was one of them. that old feeling is slipping back into me, as it always does. oh well, i probably feel more productive that way and more... me? (june)
- barefoot (may)
- reading your own poetry out loud to real people is not that horrible after all (but that's not saying it's a completely normal and repectable activity) (may)
- words pouring out and onto paper. this is what it should be (may)
- went to see a football match. there are some hardcore fans shouting things like WHY DO YOU PLAY LIKE A WOMAN YOU'RE PLAYING MEN'S FOOTBALL CAN I BRING MY MOM AND TEACH YOU HOW TO PLAY HOHOHOHO. mad stuff yo (may)
- s: "isegi amööb suudaks bassi mängida" - t: "oot bass on see kolme keelega või?" (apr)
- miks edelaraudtee nimi on EDELAraudtee? miks on edel meie rongiliikluses nii tähtis ilmakaar (apr)
- "so you're not kidding? you two are exactly that type of people who'd lie about dating each other on facebook" (apr)
- "so hello you just won this thing" - "k thx" (apr)
- "imagine going to a hanson concert and they're not playing mmmbop. my whole life's a hanson concert where they're not playing mmmbop" (apr)
- "oh so she's that girl who talked french to her friends in the smoking room" (apr)
- she was feeling very punky, kicking him in the stomach, shouting: this is not a modest mouse concert (apr)
- really people, drinking whiskey until you black out on monday nights is a very good idea (apr)
- we're so very grown up thinking that the family pizza has a diameter of 1.5 metres instead of it just weighing 1500 grams (mar)
- so she might not be so bad after worrying i slept in for school (mar)
- nothing has changed: spring will be different once again (feb)
- finally afraid of some things i should have been afraid of a long time ago (feb)
- a cheap way to popularity: write a blog post about how you can't find a decent man around here (feb)
- that awkward moment 3.30 am when you discover you have no hot water and it's -30 (feb)
- i enjoyed studying again. no longer the star student, but i guess that straight b's is also something. (jan)
- motivation. don't lose it now (jan)
- falling asleep nearly 7am, reading brautigan: feasting and drinking went on far into the night but in the end we went home alone to console ourselves which seems to be what so many things are all about like the branches of a tree just after the wind stops blowing. so this is something i have to work on (jan)
- understood that i transferred a lot of my problems and insecurities and unfinished crushes to one big topic that seemed like the most debatable at the time. i'm glad i understood that. now i can move on (dec)
- if you were in this same town right now, we'd get so wasted in the middle of the day and i guess that's why i consider you as my best friend (jan)
- understood i'm too fixated on augusts and septembers (jan)
jan 23 2012 ∞
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